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Overwhelmed.

I am going to ask her. I took on too much, leave it to to grab the bull by the horns. I can't do anything quietly.

I'm a guy though lol, well least not in body lol. Thanks msg me I'd like to text if you'd like.

I feel like I'm gonna shatter into a million pieces. I don't who I am anymore, I'm the same person I was, and I seem to the only one that accepts and acknowledges that. My traumas are so deep, so buried, so stuck in my bones. I don't know how to deal with this. I'm so worried I'm going to let...

I'll be fine, it just kinda startled me. I'm a whirlwind meeting dust storm right now. I don't know if I should bring it up again or just let it go. Feelings are funny a thing When our scars are whispering

That despite the pain I'm breathing and determined to accomplish good things

My wife and I had a fight tonight she got fed up and hit me in the arm twice, it scared me. It wasn't hard but it still startled me. A lot of changes are coming for me, hope I get through them in relativity good shape.

It is, for so long I felt out of place, misunderstood, and judged, here I feel safe.

Another day to my diary, I've had a rough couple of weeks. Had a seizure at work, a lot of changes happening, starting therapy, wife is working while I stay home and fix house, father is having heart problems, grandmother is having bad migraines. Just recently got back in touch with my bio...

Hello :) I'm loving this forum, so many kind people and good advice.

Everything. How my friends will offer advice but not actual help, when I'm screaming for it. My selfishness.

I feel like everything I've ever known is wrong, I feel completely lost more so than I have before, I feel misunderstood, I feel hopeless, I feel like no matter what I try I always fail in the end and I feel that nobody especially my wife notices how close I truly am to just giving up...

Feeling anxious but determined.

I walk around with my head up and chest out. I also make eye contact often people don't like it.

Granted but now you also have no taste buds. I wish I didn't have to sleep ever.

I'm grateful I have good people in my life.

Granted but it's the brain of a parakeet. I wish I had a new set of turntables.

The way it seems my wife doesn't understand my ptsd and how bad it hurts when she reminds me I am anxious. Ummm yeah I know that, I'm the one that is anxious, I feel bad enough about feeling that way, and about putting her through it.

I'm feeling anxious today.

That my insurance isn't coming through yet when I need a therapist badly. It seems like my friends want to give me advice rather than give me what I actually need right now. I'm angry that I haven't had an orgasm in a long time. I'm angry at my wife's grandmother for putting unessacery fear...

My wife smiled at me and I saw a smidgen of the passion I used to see.

Scared that I'm not strong enough to make it through the changes I need to make to my heart. Worried I won't be able to remain on this self healing journey. Tired of feeling broken and shattered and soulless. Angry that I was so blind to the obvious signs I ignored. And above all selfish.

Physically I am here with my wife, emotionally, spiritually and mentally however I haven't been with her for a awhile. I didn't get help for my ptsd, I denied and ran from my problems. I have completely hurt my wife and others I love due to my selfish and immature ways. I feel as if I have seen...

I'm still in the OC and in desperate need of a friend.

I'm feeling embarrassed, tired, confused, and scared. Just wishing I get my ptsd and epilepsy figured out soon.