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  1. Eagle3

    Other Looking For Ex Cult Members / Cult Survivors

    I was born and raised in a fundamentalist Christian cult as well...was trained for ministry since birth. I got out at the age of 30, but still have to deal with a lot of the brainwashing. Honestly, I didn't realize there was anything wrong with the way I was raised until I got out of that crowd...
  2. Eagle3

    Embarrassing Things T Did?

    This is a great thread, its fun to see T's being human! Any one else have any stories?
  3. Eagle3

    Body Under Attack

    I get that a lot, its why the therapist I stuck with is a master TCM practitioner, accupressurist, and energy healer. He does both psychotherapy and energy work with me. I heal on every front now, and feel so much better!
  4. Eagle3

    Medication For Panic Disorder?

    I went through a psychiatrist for my meds, at the request of my then-therapist. She was right, a good dose of Buspar brought the anxiety down enough to function. My lips stopped turning blue so much! I've been on the stuff for almost 2 years now, and I'm finally getting to the point where I can...
  5. Eagle3

    Embarrassing Things T Did?

    Not sure this counts, and I'm not even sure I'm reading the situation right, but I may have a doozy from today. The man asked me about my how my sexual body was doing, so we started discussing porn. We're both Martial Artists, and I mentioned how there isn't any good stuff in that genre. Ok, I...
  6. Eagle3

    I'm Mean?

    My T is just as sarcastic as I am, and I met him outside the office, in his natural habitat, so I was surprised when he turned out to be compassionate and empathetic in the office. I'm sarcastic too, so we can feed off each other and be just fine in the dojo (he teaches an Aikido class my...
  7. Eagle3

    Curious... How Long Have You Been In Therapy....

    Yeah, that's what really got me trusting my T too...I needed to be held, and he did so, for about 20 minutes. I'm still too scared to ask for that again, even though I still need it, but that one experience of someone being willing to break (perceived) boundaries to help me was what I needed to...
  8. Eagle3

    How To Open Up About Suicidal Thoughts

    He opened up first, but it was to let me know I wasn't alone with this. He knows how much I HATE feeling like my therapist's therapist (its a trigger for me, actually), so he was careful with how he did it, but I'm glad he did. Ask away! Most therapists use the question as a way to build a...
  9. Eagle3

    Set A Timer For Allowing Oneself To Feel Really Sad?

    I've discovered that it really is better to just allow the feelings to be. Feel them, let them run their course, and they dissipate on their own much faster than trying to block them out, even deep depression. My T likens feelings to little children demanding attention. If you just give them the...
  10. Eagle3

    Ptsd And Animals

    I wouldn't be alive today without my dogs. I love horses too, but my dogs make me reach out and be affectionate with something, when I don't know how to do that with people. My dogs love me when I can't love myself, and even though there are whole weeks I can't leave to house to walk them, they...
  11. Eagle3

    How To Open Up About Suicidal Thoughts

    I actually couldn't talk about my own suicidal ideation, until my therapist told me his story of how suicidal he was when he started therapy 40+ years ago. It helped knowing he knew exactly what I was going through, because he'd been there too. These guys have seen and heard it all...he was...
  12. Eagle3

    Unequal Standards

    Again, i understand where you're coming from. I have to deal with the uneven standards thing too, and it sends me into a blind rage.For years I was punished because others didn't do their fair share, and now I can't even handle having ANY standards put on me...It sucks, its keeps me from being...
  13. Eagle3

    I Don't Connect With Anyone

    I understand what you're saying. I have Asperger's as well as PTSD, and have never been able to connect with other humans, even as a small child. I just found out about the Asperger's, so I'm learning how that affects my interactions with people, and how some folks see me as harsh or...
  14. Eagle3

    Curious... How Long Have You Been In Therapy....

    I've had several short-term therapists over the last 10 years. School therapists, private-practice folks, referrals, etc. However, the one I have now I've been working with for about 1 year now, maybe a little more (time gets blurry for me). I actually met him through a mutual person, my best...
  15. Eagle3

    I Desperately Need Advice...

    I have done EMDR, but had difficulty grounding so we had to take a break. As a general rule, EMDR is not recommended for multiple traumas or traumas that extend for long periods of time. I have both, so even though there was improvement, my T and I have to find a different way of using EMDR...
  16. Eagle3

    Autism, Ptsd, And Emdr

    I have both ASD-1 (Asperger's) and PTSD, with MDD. My therapist does EMDR, but he also does a whole lot of other stuff. Which is good, because I seem to have a really hard time grounding during EMDR. He said he was going to try combing EMDR with energy work to see if that helped, but only when...
  17. Eagle3

    How Do You Respond To Therapist When You Don't Always Agree With Them?

    Yep, I have no problem telling T when I think he's wrong. It's turned into some very good discussions. I've only had to give him an obscene gesture once.....but I'm very open about feeling like he doesn't believe me or we aren't agreeing on something, or I'm not comfortable with an approach on...
  18. Eagle3

    What Have You Done To Get Outside Socially?

    I attend Aikido classes once a week. I'd go more often, but can't really afford it. My therapist teaches the classes, so he says my session fee covers one class a week. When I'm working again, I'll go more often. Also, on Friday nights I go to my best friend's house for dinner with her and her...
  19. Eagle3

    Ssi?

    I'm going through it myself right now. Its really tough, you're right. Like you I have never had good luck with employment, but I still keep trying. Except I'm now at a place where my options are severely limited, and finding work I can actually do is becoming more and more of a challenge. I've...
  20. Eagle3

    Psych Major With Ptsd

    I didn't have documentation at the time, but I'd done enough research to know what was going on. That was when the worst of the trauma was pretty fresh. But yeah, she was a clueless hack...I didn't see her long. Thankfully I was vindicated, although it took years to get official documentation.
  21. Eagle3

    Psych Major With Ptsd

    It took me 8 years to get my 4-year degree, and I was taking 4 classes per semester. My degree is in Psychology as well, and yes, it triggered me badly. At the time I didn't have therapy or a support structure, and my social encounters just made me feel even worse. I ended up totally breaking...
  22. Eagle3

    Study Study: Cultural Humility And Trauma Treatment

    O, forgot to mention, because I'm half-Jewish ethnically, but raised Christian, I've had some very traumatic experiences from the less-informed concerning my religion/ethnicity. One of my biggest insecurities is not belonging to any specific group, but being constantly ostracized by all. My T...
  23. Eagle3

    Has Anyone Moved Back In With Their Parents?

    Good luck with that...I've lived in my truck before, its nice when the weather cooperates! I'd love to own a camper trailer and just travel the US. Maybe in the future... We've tried the DE, have a huge bucket of it we use to dust the dogs after baths...these bugs are just too entrenched. Mom...
  24. Eagle3

    Study Study: Cultural Humility And Trauma Treatment

    Actually, cultural sensitivity was one of the main reasons I chose the therapist I did...I couldn't stand yet another Christian therapist that I would end up educating about their own religion, and basically knowing EXACTLY what they would tell me. I'm also sensitive about religion because its...
  25. Eagle3

    Happy Birthday Ms Spock

    YAY!! Happy Birthday Ms. Spock!! Your posts and messages on my wall bring me such happiness...Thanks, and I hope your day is awesome!
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