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I’m sitting here at work and feel so alone. Granted they’re not the most talkative people but I feel I have to stay quiet because I can’t seem to strike up any conversation. Being autistic doesn’t help but my social skills were ruined by bullying as a kid.

I wish I could but the flashbacks are awful. I've achieved a lot in life and I feel I don't deserve it.

Thanks it was schoolwork.

This is a strange one but I'd like to get some reponses. Earlier today I was diagnosed with Dyspraxia. During the assessment I spoke to the Occupational therapist about the ill treatment I received at school from both teachers and pupils about my schoolwork and my attempts to stop some of the...

I'm doing daily EFT post EMDR and its hard.

Evening all. I've booked a dyspraxia assessment and am now on the waiting list. But to be honest I'm feeling lost tonight. That's all I can say for now,Night all.

Well even though I have blood relatives there's not much affinity especially with my father who has done more to push me over the edge then anyone else.

In a way I understand, my family (what's left after a huge betrayal) isn't close and things are fractious. Friends...forget it.

That's a wonderful way of putting it. Right now my mind is constrained by trauma and autism

Nothing is stopping me. I said it because during therapy I mentioned the dreams and was told that dreams could be a message or an answer.

This is an odd one but I’m throwing it in. Over the past 2 nights I’ve had some very unusual dreams. I’m not going into details but they are of me being not just free but also a dynamic determined man. A cross between a roving troubleshooter and traveller. I’ve woken up today and wonder if it’s...

I've been asked to go back onto social media but my instincts are telling me no.

I appreciate the kind words. There are many things I've done and didn't do which I'm ashamed of and the flashbacks are my punishment if you will. On the surface I seem relatively normal and competent but underneath I'm a damn mess

Yes it does for me. For everything’s I’ve achieved I pay a price with PTSD

For me the challenge is to actually have some friends (pathetic I know)

Thank you so much. I do find life hard, so does everyone. I have achieved a lot but the price has always been very high and the victories are hollow. It seems that I end one challenge and another one appears without any time to recover. In some ways I've become stronger especially over the past...

Its late at night and I feel so lonely.

And breathe....I've missed so much out of life and it has left me bitter. I'm now trying to catch up as it were but its so isolating.

Yep, that was way OTT! 😁

Agree. I would love to light the sky and my llfe with a blinding light and cleansing fire. To pull a huge stunt, a massive achievement that would open a way to better times.

Oh I'd love that. It's baby steps right now. Had a good day at work and (hopefully) and good night's sleep.

I've had trauma therapy for a year now and I genuinely thought at first it was working but nope! I was stupid enough to think that there was a post trauma future for me. Whatever happens I know now and accept that I would rather be alone then be with people who make me unappy

Thanks for that. Real world connections are hard for me. I had something of a breakdown a couple of years ago and as the black and red of rage and despair faded away I found myself in a harder, colder and far more brutal world then ever before. I am full of anger and vengeance. I yearn for the...

My support system is non-existent. I have no friends and my family has imploded. I'm also autistic and have (undiagnosed but I'm convinced I have) dyspraxia. Trust is gone.

The flashbacks are like sneak attacks. Any tenous link just brings it all back. I'm scared to think of anything.