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So true! I tell myself that every time my mind goes to”I can’t do this again”. I appreciate the reminder. Thank you 🙏

PTSD has held me tight most of my life. I haven’t been engaging on the site for a while. I got through a terrible bout using a Ketamine IV treatment, which pulled me out of the worst. It’s actually interesting how much better it felt for some time. When I am not in it, I feel like it’s cured...

I started having dissociative panic attacks after I smoked hash (laced with PCP, which I was unaware of) for the first and last time. I was trying to fit in. I was quite a sensitive being before I tried it at age 15-16. The attacks continued for many years. I think once I experienced this...

I couldn’t start my way out until I cut them off. That said the cutting started in 2000…and wasn’t complete till 2019. I went backwards with my dad in 2016 and tried again. 2019 full and Final cut. I am not healed but I am doing much better. 🧚‍♂️

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As you said you haven’t known him long. Unfortunately, getting into an intimate relationship quickly can influence things. Sex is something some people see as a sign, and lust makes us feel in love. My advance is actions speak louder than words. I doubt him being in the military or PTSD have...

I cannot replace my lost childhood. Actually it is not relevant anymore. I am very clear about what I needed from my father and didn’t get… I was trying to understand the pull towards my ex… I have given him too much space in my head… trying to figure out why… His being like my father was just...

I am fighting this shit again, and he keeps contacting me....help I hate the c*nt, he knows what he is doing I can see the smile on his face. I want to punch him. My therapist says do not block him it gives him to much power...but every time I get another message it pulls me back in the shit...

I am not my trauma. Trauma is something I have, and deal with but it doesn’t define who I really am. Being a warrior is my special power, it helps me get through things, because I learned to survive at a young age. Being aware of all that has transpired has finally helped me to love myself and...

Sounds like too much too soon. It is a pattern for many people, not only with PTSD but people who feel uncomfortable being without a partner…yes I get it too, I spent most of my life wanting someone to get me, love me and be there. What I failed to see is how many people were there, maybe not...

My approach was always amicable too. It never worked…my ex is a diagnosed narcissist. He told me a psychiatrist told him he was a narcissist and he called me all excited and sad that is the problem I am a narcissist! With that nothing else, he was satisfied to find that out, and I said how...

So glad to hear it went okayish… each new confrontation makes me stronger. It is hard and you did out! Celebrate your small win and be kind to yourself…. You deserve it 🧚‍♂️

I understand and I am the same, want ing to protect and help. It is not always possible, so I do what I can. No one protected me and I feel so responsible for others, mostly children. My son brought ever broken child home to me, because he knew I would help. He is also so tender. I did a...

I understand welcome to the forum. I am much older but have always felt like an outsider in life. It has been part and parcel of being neglected, abandon and emotionally abused. I never felt the same as my classmates and friends. I guess I moved into my head and then escaped into another...

Can you take someone with you? Abusers are sometimes less abusive when they have an audience, or at least in my case he was. Still an asshole but too scared to show his real character… Good luck and sending strength to you, I really understand. I used to have to pretend and play nice, it...

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I can relate to such feelings, but my life changed when I let such people go. You cannot change others but you can decide who to let in. Yes sometimes it is lonely but my small group of good people make me feel loved. This happened through years of reflection and understanding why I attracted...

For me soul is my body. My body has history that I don’t remember or always understand. Listening to its clues and translating them in terms of experiences and responses makes me feel my soul, or what I believe my soul is. 🧚‍♂️

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Maybe 🤔 My panic had more to do with losing my job, not being able to pay bills or be there for my child. It is a vicious circle because the fears are irrational. I have friends who would help. I think I fear I will never get better and I will have no way out. The pain I feel is so...

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All deleted except Substack… they have great posts about ptsd 👍

Water gymnastics…. 👍🏻 helps me