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I think these trauma memories can have another element… working something out, the way you feel you would have liked to respond. It doesn’t matter what it is called really…in my opinion you are working something out and the feeling attached is much more important… Just my take 🧚‍♂️

Welcome @Stephanie924 You will encounter many people who will be understanding and hopefully feel at home 🧚‍♂️

You’re welcome, I really sympathize with you. I understand it so well, it took me 40 years to admit It really happened… somehow accepting it made it real and then I had to admit I was abused and neglected by the people who were supposed to love me and protect me, it broke my heart… made me feel...

Both are forms of dissociation… and I have it as well. I ground myself by touching something stable in the room… and breath through. Of If I can’t I excuse myself and go to the bathroom until I come back… 🧚‍♂️

Grieving is something new for me. The pain of all that has happened either consumed me or I blocked it. Now I let the feelings come, and feel them, tell myself it is over and cry. I do this only for as long as I can stand it. For me it gets easier when I let it come accept the horrible...

I cannot image your grief and anger… You are a beautiful soul for taking care of your grandchildren…. ☺️

Cauliflower roasted😊

I cooked stuffed zucchinis and made salad…. First time in months and it tasted good 😊

I realize that I am learning to trust my friends for real, people who I have known for over 25 years. I realize they stayed because they like me and I am not a burden. When I go into a bad episode I feel ashamed and afraid people won’t stay. This episode I spoke the truth asked for help and...

My new small apartment that I am moving into. New start and it feels great. Going to adopt a small dog for company and exercise 🧚‍♂️. Good friends and my sister and son.

This is something I always hold. Without it I cannot function at all. Every night latest 9:45 and sleep by 10:30-11:00. It takes me a while to get to sleep… no smartphone after 9:45. I read or listen to white noise as I have bad tinnitus ☺️

A few weeks is a win! I think people with PTSD forget most humans struggle with keeping up routines, and have ups and downs.,,I sure do and difficult times scare me… Am I going down again! I had a friend help me clean my windows and I haven’t touch them since…I go through healthy eating...

This is exactly what I was told. The receptors regrow and therefore the transmitters can work in sync. I just finished a two week IV Ketamine therapy 3 times each week. I also had 20 rTMS sessions 2 per day. 1 to dampen the anxiety and 1 to reawaken my depressed brain. He said that because...

A warm bed, my friends, my sister and son.

I guess that depends on how it ends for you. Maybe she is asking you to think about what ending you want, so you can see what you need 🤔.

You’re welcome 🙏 and no you aren’t alone Katz. My family never acknowledged anything either, my mother manipulated me into believing I was responsible for her at a young age and my father’s favorite saying is we can talk but not about the past, as I got older. This meant nothing happened and...

Your mom sounds like mine (mine died in 2023). Unfortunately I had to cut contact in 2002 with her. I couldn’t deal with her anymore and just gave birth to my son. She started the same shit with him… He got to much attention and she made sure to make herself the center of attention through...

I used to do this a lot, I thought I was just tired, but it turned out that I was escaping it. I was very confused about it. I used to call it feeling weird. Now when it happens I touch something sturdy with my hands… something wooden helps most, chair or table and bring myself back slowly….

Welcome to the community. I had the same experience with my diagnosis. PTSD was diagnosed more than 2 decades ago but I just in the last 4 years began to understand what it meant. I relate and look forward to reading you.

I just finished a 2 week IV Ketamine therapy. It was an experience. I feel it has helped me slightly… not a magic pill but moved me forward. It was done at a Dr office and dosed. I will get back to the forum about its full effect. The doctor explained the science of receptor regrowth...

Hello HollowLavender, It took me a while to respond because it was a hard subject matter for me. Firstly no you are not broken. I know it can feel that way, especially when it comes to sexuality. I am a bit older but was very active sexually between the ages of 17-31. Actually I probably...

Welcome! He has no business pushing his beliefs on you, any of them including not following his advice. It is not his job, and unprofessional. I have dumped many therapists for this reason. It is very disappointing I know. Therapists are people and not everyone is good at their job. I would...

I would have reacted the same, in this situation. My visceral responses, they can be extremely strange and it sometimes freaks me out. I had a talk to my new T today about this issue. I told him my bodily response to certain things are scary and confusing sometimes. I guess for me I never...

It can feel like that, back to start, but I think it is a moving ahead from all of the work you have already done. It is so disheartening I know! I was doing pretty okay and then before I realized it I was stuck again. I can completely sympathize. My son always reminds me everyone has ups...

Welcome to the forum. I understand how debilitating PTSD can be. That doesn’t mean you cannot get help, to move out of these situations. Do you have a doctor or anyone who specializes in PTSD?