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Your so welcome❤I didn't think I mattered much to anyone. That's due in part I keep to myself and I too love nature and especially the animals. We as in most of the parts that makes up the "me" no longer trust anyone despite their reassurance. Don't know, maybe we're just different and how we...

How nice, thank you. My world is in chaos mode right now. I have a very low toleranice being around others. Even those who love me. I'm being triggered at work and being made to do things that I am not qualified nor paid to do. A coworker is trying to convince my boss she wants dictatorship over...

Or should I say at work. My boss- a male is very shovanistic, applies rules to some, and runs the unit as a dictatorship. I'm taken advantage of and being told to do thinks inappropriately. Yes, I need a new job. But for now, my angry part has taken over and it won't be good.

I'm uncertain how to describe what it felt like reading them. In the 10 yrs worth of records, some things sadly remain. I can also look at it as making progress. What I'm not a big fan of is being accused of putting "nips" in my drink after leaving appt. I know I have many different parts but...

Recently I've been told that my med provider will no longer see me since I don't live in area. So, I have in my possession my med records. I contemplated whether or not I should read them knowing it could be triggering. But, I couldn't resist. What a long road its been and unfortunately it...

Because having my friends(parts) was no big deal until- the formal dx. And the only one who knows is my T and we're still struggling with that. Maybe its people like us who are the norm and society has it all wrong? The world is messed up

When I write I often am dissociating. My T is wonderful and together we've made progress. My angry parts though I'm learning, want to continue to lock awaybad thoughts and things from the past. We're just getting into trauma history. I am borderline so its always taken me a lot longer to learn...

Always been more reserved, but still able to have what I thought was meaningful relationships. But now, I'm the girl you always see alone. Not because I'm mean, or selfish. I've been hurt too many times by those I thought loved me like family. I've trusted too many and my heart broke every time...

Fine. Just got back from seeing the T. She actually gave in and listened to the shit that comes from my mouth and acts like she cares and all. I told her right out I don't like her and reasons why. She knew very well what she was doing and I let her know too. Obviously I'm the pain in the ass...

I'll try hard to stick to the point. I am a fraternal twin. I am the "lucky" one though. I say that sarcastically. My sister has been able to go through life with managing any mental health symptoms like average people do. I on the other hand, have major depressive d/o severe minus psychotic...

Thank you. You helped me in more ways then you think. Just that you replied, reminds us we're not alone

I have many "parts" that make up our system. My T said last week she would like to meet each one individually in addition to the co awareness she's dabbled in. I know her and I have talked about it for awhile now but day to day stuff kept coming up needing immediate response. It appears as if...

I have a blanket that comes with me every appt with my T. I keep it in my bag for now because some of my parts are embarrassed still. My T and I have talked about it and she's reassured me its ok but we're not there yet. Although its in my bag, i knead it with my hands. I hope someday soon the...

At one point years ago, I was valued and appreciated. I was part of a small team made up of Dr. who practiced the law and made consistent decisions. I loved what I did and worked well with others. I prided myself for always helping others putting my work second but still never behind. Then...

Does anyone else have different parts that come out for appointments? Medical and psych. I'm about to go into my med appt and for years a certain part comes out and is threatened. She doesn't admit much and she hates it. She feels vulnerable, wants to protect privacy, but feels like just a...

Thank you so much for your kind words. Your exactly Whoops. Your correct- I am viewed as "crazy" already so who cares right? Some of my parts do have a problem speaking verbally around the average. I'm working on them though, I tell them things. I have a part that's kinda like a T and she helps...

I haven't even made it into work and I can tell it's going to be a messed up day. The parts are talkative and it feels like torture to sit and literally be quiet for 7.5 hours. I don't talk with many people in the actual office either. It's like junior high all over again but with 50-60 year...

I can only assume that once triggered, the minds ping back and forth and like you said, get derailed.

You said exactly what it is we're working on. Its acceptance of the diagnosis of DID. Because only I know I've had them my entire life and my T aluded to the fact in the 10 yrs working together, she has seen it off and on. If I'm lucky to be co aware of what's happening in session that part...

Sometimes, sometimes not..

My T talked about as she's done before about "controlling" parts during session to make the most of our time. I get it, well this part does. I've tried explaining it to her "we" try but never sucessful. It's an area we definitely need help in and together she said we'll work on it. I've read...

This has everything to do with SH/SI. The evil part(s) take us places that are remote and viewed as unsafe for a lady alone. They often take us into woods that is bordered by a river. And every time, off and on I can hear my parents both say, "I taught you better than this" but it doesn't stop...

When the mind is spinning so fast and the emotions are unbearable, its SH that slows it down. At least there's actual pain and can be seen. It provides a focus point. Or, a dark part of mine will punish me for being bad and the punishment is SH. She will nag at the rest until we do it so its...

13 Reasons Why. Netflix. Should be eye opening but its not. I've chronicled my life through journaling and have always mentioned if anything should happen then, have spoken to each person close to me letting them know it wasn't their fault. Because I have almost died 3x without intent and wanted...

I'd rather feel physical pain then endure more psychological. Because, its familiar. I've cut for different ways. I too cut in my early teens and like someone mentioned above, even on my face. But guess what? No one noticed it. Then in my 20s I did it out of revenge. All the people I hate, screw...