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I read the book when I was in my "time-out" (jail) & watched the movie recently when I got home. As someone who was raised on very strict religious "rules," it gave me a completely different view & outlook of God & "religion." I loved it.

Has anyone else turned to alcohol to manage symptoms? It seems like I was better off when alcohol was my only vice....before I started psychotropics. The two don't mix. Makes me want to stop all meds & just go back to drinking. At least I was functional.

UPDATE!!! I got a job offer today!!! :woot: Maybe things are looking up! :D Very good advice @lostforgottensoul ! Thank you for your reply. I tend to go into panic mode when things don't progress as quickly as I think it should....in any situation. I'm so thankful for the offer I got today...

I've jeopardized my career with my poor choices/coping mechanisms. Now I am scrambling to get another job as a nurse to support myself & my son. I feel like such a failure. A failure as a nurse, a mom, a breadwinner....I feel like maybe all of the times that I heard I would never make it in life...

:hug: I'm glad you are here!

Thank you @WishfulThinking123 ! :)

I feel like I should apologize.

Has anyone ever emailed your T in a moment of desperation, or feeling like you need to be heard, then felt incredibly embarrassed/needy for sending it? I have been very reluctant in therapy to open up at all, so when it all comes rushing out in an honest email I feel embarrassed. I don't want...

Because I don't allow myself to feel good things either....just numb for it all. Drifting through life...

Last time I posted here I just got home from my first hospitalization. Since then I've spent 63 days in county jail. Lost my job. Thankfully I still have my home, my child, my dog, a man who loves me....I'm left clawing my way back up...any encouragement will be appreciated.

I feel so close to giving up and letting this C-PTSD & the lack of support from my family consume me. I am a FIGHTER?! What is happening to me? :cry:

I was hospitalized for the very first time. SO scary. Hardest five days of my life. I don't want to go down this road. I don't want to un-ravel. I'm so afraid of myself now...afraid of my ability to cope with all of this. I don't want to become unable to function. I've got to stay strong...

@anthony , I guess I never thought about how this site might be "fueling the fire..." I feel like I've gotten so much support here, but maybe I'm spending TOO much time here. Researching & reading & trying to seek all of the answers CAN become a bit obsessive I suppose, & maybe if it becomes too...

That just made me cry. & I DON'T cry. Thank you. You are right. :cry:

Left therapy today after a really tough EMDR session & my entire body felt weak & shaky. I just drove & drove & drove like I didn't even know where I was going or how to get home. I'm still not quite sure I've got it all together enough to even type out what I'm feeling. This is so hard. My...

When you go shopping, set your purse down & walk off the realize purse is gone & can't remember where you left it. Get purse back after some decent citizen turns it in to the cashier, only to walk off with someone else's buggy/stuff (Whose pink shirt is this?!)?! Then proceed to walk all over...

Thanks @Gia1019 ! I'm ready for some sleep!!!

Proud of you @Florian7051 for making that choice! You have always spoken so highly of your family, & they are lucky to have such a dedicated person in their life. I wish you the very best & you will be missed!

I am going to start on a very low dose of Seroquel for sleep & was wondering if anyone had any issues with weight gain on 25mg? Also wondering how well it works for sleep!

I hear you. So much of what you wrote is exactly how I feel, yet have trouble even putting it into words. Welcome & I hope you find support here like I have.

It's funny that you mentioned Castaway...my son & I just watched that movie the other night! I also had a "pet" that I kept in my room when I was little...just some strange-looking object that I made up a species name for & made it "real." I don't think I've ever reacted in situations like you...

I've been that way for ten years or more. :( I guess it's good that we recognize it.

I understand. I think the same thing at times. That's a good analogy @Gamera3000 !

I'm a nurse & for "application purposes...CPR, AED, first aid..." I wiuldbha a Omg @Panda Bear how brave of you!!!!! So proud! I know how hard it is to put yourself out there & be vulnerable. & you did it!!!! Who knows how many lives you have saved just by sharing your own pain?! I know how...

Thank you @Missycat ...it does makes perfect sense about it coming from the child. It seems like when I'm with my T I just can't even find the words & then I feel so silly! I have found breaking it up into mabagable parts has been helpful because when I start letting the memories flow, they all...