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How futile it feels after being on several medications and going through intensive group therapies and I am not doing better. Today I have been shaking like a leaf most of the day and feeling like the worlds going to end. I am tired of the fear. I cant seem to escape it. I get overwhelmed easily...

No I dont have any other moments where I felt I did not know how I got there or where i was. But then I spend 90% of my life lately in what feels like a dream state. Days feel like they are 4-5 days long but fast like a minute. If that makes any sense. At then end of the day its like I start...

I was not medicated at first, then it was just a mild antidepressant. I am beginning to think I dissociated. Thank you for commenting. Seeing the proof today was quite shocking.

I think you did far better than I would have. I would have been screaming cussing and telling everyone off. Or I would have just eliminated contact. The latter is more likely. Good Job!

My anxiety does peak when I get good news, thought the feeling of when will the other shoe drop as normal. But mine really skyrockets when someone is nice or rather decent to me. I dont trust people(outside of my safety net) period. So when someone is nice or respectful I tend to fear them even...

For the last 3 months I thought I spent 5 days in sept in the hospital. Today I came accross proof that my stay was a week and it was the first week of oct. Now dont get me wrong, I get how time can fly by. But ya see even though I see the proof my brain still says otherwise. I am I alone in...

I went yesterday with a friend for her birthday, and at firs tthe place was empty, but it quickly filled up. The movie was so wonderful I barely noticed anyone around me till it was time to go, but we where in no hurry so we just waited to most had left before we got up. We got our refill of...

I read that allot here, that nausea means something needs to come out. I never thought of it that way. I get nauseous often, several times a day mostly in the morning about 2 hours into work. and then about 1-2 hours before then end of work. Definitely something to contemplate.

I told my soulmate when we became friends, as I have kids with specials needs, so it was a package deal. I tell friends after I know them for a quite a bit, but at work I just tell people I am crazy. I will tell them everything but PTSD. I am military and dont want the sideline glances. After I...

My soulmate made me some soundscape music when I was deployed. It had boats rocking,waves, rain, thunderstorms, and some soft music like you would hear in a really nice spa. Perhaps that would help? It did when I was deployed, but not so much at home as I get worried when I cant hear my...

I think about the future, but its not all rainbows and roses. I do great budgeting for the future as paying off debt comes easy for me, but saving well thats what my soulmate does. I can plan to eliminate the negative but I cant seem to build a positive future. Don't know if that makes sense. I...

I know when I am alone at home at night I get panic attacks. I find it hard to fall asleep these days and then my nights are filled with nightmares so I dont really look forward to it. I do find my anxiety jumps up a notch after the sun sets. It does not go down till the sun is up in the morning...

@Pietro I am in the US, and yes the laws are different all over the country and in some areas this would never have happened, I am just fortunate enough to live in one where it did. As for emptying the joint bank accounts, well that would have landed me in jail. During the divorce he was almost...

tsunami, wonderful imagery. Definitely what it has been like. Thank you.

Hello, I suffer from ptsd, sad, gad and depression. Although I doubt the Social Anxiety Disorder as I am scared of being hurt not being judged or ridiculed. Six years ago in my second marriage I was raped by my then husband. This went on for only a few months till he decided I was inadequate. I...

He has let me give over control instead of taking it, to allow me to ask for help instead of forcing it, my soul mate sees my pain, waits for me to ask for comfort and then holds me. He allows me to hug him first and asks if he wants one. He even asks to hold my hand. On really bad days, he...

My nightmares are back and even my sleep aids could not keep them away. I doubt I got more than a hour or two, and now I am trying to convince myself to try again tonight, as every night is different same as everyday. I can only hope they do not return. Doors locked, windows locked, night light...

Mine was my second husband. And as I told the nurse, I was informed he was my husband and therefore it was not rape. This was repeated in different words from everyone I told. The spousal privileged went on for 4 months before he decided I was inadequate. I am raising all my kids, boys and girls...