Search results

I guess I have a hard time with feelings and PTSD and am still trying to figure mine out which I know is what most of us with PTSD do. So my PTSD was caused by abusive parents as well as growing up in a strict religious cult that does not allow it's followers to become friends with anyone...

So sorry you are feeling like this. :( Hugs. Doesn't sound like fun

I'm sure it's all related tho. PTSD, stress and a very sensitive nervous system

I can TOTALLY relate to everything you said. I have posted my own threads about the same thing. It's awful and I am looking for answers too.

Well, I think I was in a vulnerable place in my life. I wanted to be in a relationship for once and I had worked very hard to better myself and I figured at the time that "God" would have blessed me with one by then, like all my friends around me are getting married and such, so what more does...

Hmmm. I would have though they would pray on the weaker ones too. I thi k it probably depends on the situation but I can see that because it seems to be the ones who are trying to consciously better themselves that often get targeted. These ones get targeted by males but also from conpetitive...

Thank @candor. Your hug is very much appreciated. I have been struggling lately too with the whole smiling thing too with customer service. Ugghhh! Emd of day, so tiring and not fun. I am just trying to wake up and work through all of my feelings so I can genuinely smile once again afyer the...

So I know I probably just broke because I was trying to heal from severe abuse from my childhood and to try and ne a "normal" person despite and I was also dealing with being in a cult and surrounded by some pretty crazy ppl and their drama. No lie. I witnessed A LOT! On a regular basis but...

Thankyou @candor. My problem is that I actually used to practice all that since I was little. I always looked at the bright side and always did the best I could despite and when I faced negativity I focused on the positive and refused to let it get me down and I worked extremely hard to make it...

I used to love watching surfing documentaries such as Peel-The Peru Project, Step into Liquid and The Billabong Odessey That's awesome. I'm on the Northeastern coast so it's not a pupular culture here but I always wondered what it was like to live on the West coast and become a part of it...

I want to go surfing one day. It seems like a beautiful sport that helps you connect with yourself and nature

OK @Zoogal , will do. Lol

I was also scared that because my family was sooo weird (which trust me it was), I would end up weird or severely messed up. I was so scared moat of my time growing up and I was also hurt very badly and made fun pf by my peers and all I wanted was to be accepted Ever since I was young, I tried...

To explain, my mom was not just abusive but weird and she was definitely psychotic. It was embarassing to be related to her. Because I was so isolated because of growing up the way I was, I felt very lonely and only had good connections to people through school and church in that strict...

Maybe that's it too. I don't know. I can't believe how much other ppl's abusive actions and judgemental behavior can make us hate ourselves And just when we think we are finally safe or in a better place in our life. I am hurting so bad. I was just trying to be a good person for so many years...

I just had a thought and I think I am somehow still scared of myself for some reason that somehow something is terribly wrong with me and I need to be fixed amd if I don't fix myself, I could be a psychopath or something

So this is a theory. Self sabotage is caused by an internal conflict within ourselves we are unaware of or we are aware of it but cannot do anything about it. And that internal conflict for me was suppressing years of tears and anger and being a peaceful, humble, slave for an organization...

I'll check that book out then. I am having a hard time understanding why we would be doing great at moving forward and keeping ourselves going and then to turn against ourselves. Like, that doesn't make sense to me. Sigh. Once I understand it all, hopefully I will be able to forgive myself.

I'm sure this may sound vaguely repetitive of some of my previous posts but also somewhat different. What if you were "the good girl", "peace maker", overcoming great odds, trying to be as innocent as possible despite being abused, trying so hard to overcome any symptoms of abuse and even...

My mom was officially a sad whack job. She was manipulative and insane amd controlled my every move growing up. But I still to this day, feel sorry for her because I know she is mentally ill and was severely abused as a child.

Sorry you went through this. Sometimes these experi3nces make us relate so much to "Cinderella" "Anne of Green Gables" "Little Princess" and others. Hugs

@johannakat , so what are you looking for on this thread? You've got a lot of replies. Can you tell us about your experience?

My very first memory of childhood abuse, I was around five years old and I was carrying my bowl of cereal from the kitchen to the dining room and I tripped and accidentally spilled my cereal. I don't remember everything, but I do remember my mom screaming at me and I was crying and trying to...

Do you live in a city or town that has higher crimes rates than most? Maybe there is a problem with the way the mayor and the courts and the police force are handeling this in your area. Can you go to a nearby court and explain what's happening? I just find this so unfair and sorry this is...

I personally don't think it's right to make the drills so realistic as that only reinforces natural reactions of panic. Why do they have to go so over the top?! =/