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Maybe I'm thinking about it too hard. She said her and her bf are like best friends. So to me it's almost like she is wooing me into a relationship. I'm scared. I know what it feels like to have a gf stolen. I would never wish that on anyone. However God uses All things for good to those...

if my looks and sex is all you care about go looking for another person. I will not be deceived once again by any woman. I have the hardest time throwing out looks and dating the heart. So to be fair I live without the joyment of relationships because in my head I'm just shallow and can never...

Wulp it's now Tuesday and still no word on my truck. A detective wants me to do a photo line up and I will. I'm not scared of those who can kill the body but not the soul. It broke my heart. Violated me. Didn't traumatize me but still. As each day goes by I lose faith. That's why I fear...

Ya it's illegal in Colorado too. I felt this gut feeling before I went into the store and I know it was my conscience saying hey get the keys.

so yesterday I was at a shell station getting a soda and left the truck on. Usually everyone or most do. Big mistake. I wasn't in there two minutes and it was gone. I called the cops. It took them an hour to get there. Gave them a discription of the two ppl I saw out side before it was stolen...

She's a fervent Christian like me. It took eleven years of praying and talking to the Lord for someone with a likeminded personality. I mean. Not to boast but I just added her on fb and she just started wanting to talk. She says she even wants to meet up and maybe go to church. Now mind you I...

He's not talking to me anymore. He's says I'm dead to him. I don't understand. This is just bad folks. I want my brother alive not dead. This hurts me to the core and I can only imagine what it is doing to my mom. So all in all I'm trying to get into contact with my mom but she never picks up...

I do love my brother don't get me wrong. And him doing this to us is heartbreaking. I don't know where to begin other then calling NYC Police. And even then I have no clue where he is staying. I can only hope my mom and him are still talking so she can give the ins and outs as to where he is...

My brother is going to end up dead and he makes sure everyone in the family sees it. He has no compassion nor does he see his folly. I'm getting very tired of him posting stuff on my fb saying how he was mistreated as a kid and such. I in the family was the most abused child physically. And I...

It was my ex from eleven years ago that gave me this. I man I finally understand now why she said it was her and not me. She never told me anything even tho I saw some things that didn't look right. She said she had never had sex before. I know now that's a lie and now I have to live with the...

I'm going to tell my mom how Mikey is acting and have her call them. The thing is drugs are involved like meth. If they find that he will go to jail and we don't need a repeat of my trauma in 05 were I was stuck in jail.

Anyone?

Stickler what do you mean by not telling the truth. About my brother or about someone I would potentially marry? Because I'm not going back down that road where I fall in love with someone and I feel so guilty that I tell the truth and al hell breaks loose. If a woman wants me she can take...

It is prayers for my brother Mikey. This is sonicwhite. My real name is Daniel. I'm his little brother. Don't assume that any of my last posts about stds mean HIV. They don't. I'm talking more about the more common ones among younger ppl, I won't get into what I have but I don't have HIV.

No he live in New York. I have no control over the situation.

Those who are Christian and those who are not. Please keep my older brother in prayer or in your thoughts because he has HIV and is talking like he is going through another psychosis. He calls himself the Anti-Christ and is just really going down hill. I know he is using meth and pot again...

So in the future when I have grasped the idea to force myself to do things and stop using M.I. As a crutch. I will try to date. If someone is interested we will talk about normal stuff. I won't bring up anything stigmatized at first. I am a fervent Christian and I believe no sex before...

Wulp, tdoc had a sudden stomach virus and had to leave. I saw my pdoc and they gave me Ambien instead of Sonata. Zaleplon. I just want the chains of fear that hold me back from being a citizen of this great country gone. I want my zeal back. I want to be able to get the snow ball rolling so...

And in about an hour I have to force myself to see my tdoc and pdoc.

I have felt for the last eight years that I'm not growing. I mean in the way of forcing and enjoying life. I became a hermit after my first flashback and the anxiety was beyond what I was able to handle. After a period of three years after 2008 I just gave up. Apathy to the fullest. I believe a...

I'm talking about lifelong STD's and I forgive myself for what I've done but I will not selfishly hurt someone by not telling them or unsafe sex after marriage. I tried to show you guys what I meant but dancing around the subject didn't work so I'm just saying it out loud.

What I learned from it was a woman's heart is very fragile. They do love. And they love it when you listen to them and communicate. You don't just have sex. I learned so much from me and her that if I do get with anyone she will be treated like a queen and I think that's how it supposed to be...

When in a relationship in the past really kinda messed it up for you for the rest of your life. I'm talking about unsafe sex and what could happen if your aren't thinking. I have to accept that I was not thinking. I believe if I ever did get into a relationship that the person would have to...

I know we all suffer here. I suffered at the wrath of a woman. The mercy of God. And the discipline of Jesus Christ. 11 years is a long time thinking about what happened. Letting my mind heal from the traumatic psychosis and breakup. I imagine that my dreams are deposits of the truama is...

There comes a time for mourning, than a time for joy and happiness. It's like the yoke of that burden is finally breaking after eleven years of wondering what the heck went wrong. I live now today to say that because I really honestly want to be alone. I don't want to hurt anyone. And when...