How Do You Accept?

[Stickler]

And now I must go cook a healthy breakfast, force myself to work out, then force myself to do my online college work for a while.
...So I'm in the process of basically doing what I am advising you to do...

 

[sonicwhite]

And in about an hour I have to force myself to see my tdoc and pdoc.

 

[sonicwhite]

Wulp, tdoc had a sudden stomach virus and had to leave. I saw my pdoc and they gave me Ambien instead of Sonata. Zaleplon.


I just want the chains of fear that hold me back from being a citizen of this great country gone. I want my zeal back. I want to be able to get the snow ball rolling so it gets larger and gains momentum.


My life sucks in this small town. I have a comfort issue like my cat. I don't like to be anywhere else except my room. I know I have social anxiety but it's more shyness then anxiety.


Oh well those of you here who are willing pray for me and those effected by hurricane Mathew. Love ya.

 

[sonicwhite]

So in the future when I have grasped the idea to force myself to do things and stop using M.I. As a crutch. I will try to date. If someone is interested we will talk about normal stuff. I won't bring up anything stigmatized at first.


I am a fervent Christian and I believe no sex before marriage. If any relationship gets serious than I will bring up the fact that I've been hurt. I will let them decide. Cause I'm not going to hurt anyone. I believe maybe there are treatments and stuff but idk. It is in the last two years I have been dealing with this stuff.


So alol in all I'm taking it slow. Get my priorities straight and look up to heaven for strength. Thank you Heavenly Father for the wisdom and heart you've given me.