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The personal belief that I don't deserve to be involved is something I have to get over. I've made mistakes and I've punished myself for six years. If I get reinvolved, I'll have to believe that I am a good person.

I see where you're coming from. It's still hard for me to accept. If someone was hit in the head and got severe brain damage and became severely mentally disabled, would he or she still be the same person as before the incident? I think there may be certain aspects of the mind that have to work...

Lady Vet, if I reconnect, I'll feel normal again. Six years ago, I had a breakdown. I believe that my depression was so strong that I symbolically threw my life away. I feel like I threw my life away on purpose... or I attempted to disconnect myself from reality. I threw away memorabilia and...

It's good to look at it that way. Even if the brain is damaged, the soul is still there. That viewpoint makes me feel more confident. When you say that you are not your brain, I have some doubt because of the PTSD. Science describes the mind as a product of the brain. If certain parts of the...

The better I get, the more comfortable I feel in my skin. There will be a lot of behaviors and memories that will pop up that I will have to deal with. The potential for reexperiencing the past seems like it will be depressing. However, I think that I'll have to work through all of the mistakes...

It's hard to accept because I always have the feeling that I can be so much more, I'm just missing "something" right now. When I find that thing or become that thing, I'll be back. In reality, I might just be damaged and I'm healing. Thanks for the insight.

I feel similar about the micro scars. For six years, there's been a feeling that a part of me has been damaged. When I think about the time I was balanced I think I had a more solid belief system about the world. Then, as time went on, many beliefs were challenged like the level of caring in...

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I personally think I'm only going to be able to have a stable relationship when the dark emotions don't dictate my life. I had a relationship for two years with PTSD and it was hard. I'm probably not thinking realistically, but accepting PTSD is just something I can't give into. I may have to...

Very philosophical response :). The challenge for me is to be open in the world with all it's colors (not just black and white). I think people with PTSD probably struggle with this realization. The story you spoke of does sound like true love.

I can relate to what you are saying. I always feel like there is a pressure for me to get rid of this depression. You're right, it's a depression relating to certain aspects of life. I think society tries to instill the idea that having a depressed outlook is taboo. However, sometimes I wonder...

Cynsoul, I understand where you are coming from. For me, I developed a level of introversion because trying to fit in to the outside world seemed like it was a waste of time. I felt like people didn't care enough and it was better if I remained by myself. With this isolation comes pain. However...

You're right Clan Destiny. Staying strong in our own journey is the measure of a man or woman.

I'm with you maddog. We are healing by going through pain. What an ironic way of getting better.

It's hard to remember what the light feels like. I think you'll like The Allegory of the Cave. There are certain things that I have to understand and I'll be able to see the light again... Knowledge is the key to freedom.

I just hope the sun shines brighter than it did pretrauma.

Yes, I'm feeling better. However, the better I'm feeling, the more it seems like I will have to deal with. Things are so much different now compared to six years ago. I don't know how I'll be able to pick myself back up as I'm getting better. I'm taking it easy day by day and focusing on feeling...

Yes, I feel like the people I shared my life with are no longer in a good relationship with me. I feel like I've been through the motions and I can understand what life is like. Getting back into it is a challenge because it's hard to find enough motivation. If you built a temple and the temple...

I believe that I stayed in the situation too long. After both of my parents passed, I lived with my older brother for four years while he was a drug addict. After I left the situation, it seemed too late for me to make it on my own. I hit a point where I went through too much and I just didn't...

Because I want to get rid of my pain. I'd love to enjoy the good in life, but it is so painful when I go out and do it. I just want to be able to do it without any outside impediment. I always feel like there is something I have to deal with before I can get my life back on track. Instead of...

I have been taking Prozac for five weeks now. Every day that I have been taking it, my mood has elevated. It continues to elevate. However, I'm starting to get to a point that is a bit alarming. My mother passed away when I was 15 and my father passed away when I was 17. After my mother passed...

This is hard to come to terms with because I have the feeling that in order for me to move on from the pain, I have to figure out what was done to me.

I may not figure it out. Hopefully, I get to the point where I don't care anymore and I'm just focused on succeeding. What I am aware of is that a part of me has been weakened by depression. Every day, the medication continues to boost my mood and motivation. I feel like if I stay on this...

You're right. I started to lose control because of certain people in my life. To this day, after six years, I am still working on figuring out what my older brother's intentions were. People can be scandalous and it's sad that it happens in life. However, I think we are strong enough to keep...