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    Horrendous Dream.

    Okay, this was a nasty one and I have no idea where it came from. Dreams about war and fire are pretty normal for me and don't really scare me, but this was something different. I need to type it out to get my head straight, but if you read this, be warned it is very strange and pretty...
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    Passed!

    I passed my Point of Entry test for the fire brigade. I start my basic firefighting course in January. A chance to be useful again! Actually properly useful! :woot:
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    Good Or Bad?

    Just something I was wondering...does anybody else get days when they panic about whether or not they are a good person? Does anyone else ever doubt their own motives for any good deeds they may perform?
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    Panicking

    Um, I hate to bother you guys, but I really don't feel too good. We had a call at work just now reporting a possible distress flare. After getting a detailed description the consensus is that it was just a large meteor. Fair enough. We get a lot of those and the description sounds like a large...
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    Unworthy.

    My wife and I have been married just over a year. We were together for several years before that, but hadn't the money for a wedding, until we came up with the idea of doing it the medieval way, rather than the Victorian way that most folk do. Anyway, it was a great wedding and, until...
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    Slo-mo Flashbacks?

    Okay, I'm not sure this is normal, so I thought I'd see if anyone else has ever had it. I've had a few minor flashbacks in the past (thankfully they seem to have stopped) but two days ago, while walking through woodland with some colleagues on our way to inspect a dangerous cliff edge that's...
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    Movies In The Head?

    I'm not sure where to post this, really. I have had a sort of little vignette, if you like, playing over and over in my head for a few days and just wondered if anyone else has anything like this? It isn't a memory or anything- which will be fairly obvious if you choose to read it- and I'm...
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    Yikes.

    Okay, this is weird. All of a sudden I feel very, very lonely and sad...well, beyond 'sad', actually. I'm quite frightened now, as I don't know how to deal with stuff like this. It's all very new to me and so very different from how I normally am. Maybe I should say 'how I was'? Maybe I'll...
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    A Second Chance?

    After a few meetings with my headshrinker, we've managed to pin my problems on four particular things: 1. Guilt over failing to protect my little sister from the man who abused me. 2. Guilt over leaving the Army while there was still a war on. 3. Guilt over the gulf between the risk I face...
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    Anxiety Upon Anxiety...

    Here's another one of my self-indulgent threads about minor stuff, I suppose. It just...it doesn't feel minor just now, you know? Anyway, I'm at work just now and I've been feeling pretty anxious all night, but I'd been keeping a lid on it fairly well until we got a call about a bunch of young...
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    Busted.

    Apparently H.M. Coastguard monitor the internet for sites that mention the organisation. Which means somebody at HQ found my initial post on here and told the head-shed who passed it down the line, resulting in an extremely awkward conversation this afternoon. I've never been so embarrassed...
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    Uniform.

    I just got pulled up at work about the state of my uniform. 'Hah!' I hear you cry, 'What trifling nonsense is this?' Well, that's what I'd think, usually. A minor annoyance or embarrassment. Not today, though. Today I feel humiiated and depressed. I'm also disgusted at myself and more than...
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    Excessive Emotional Fragility?

    I'm not sure this is worth a whole new thread, but I don't want to hijack anyone else's with my nonsense. Basically, I'm on watch today (that is to say, I'm on duty in the ops room) and our colleagues at a neighbouring station have had a rather unpleasant incident to deal with that has...
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    Undiagnosed Hi, Coastguard Officer, Bit Of A Mess.

    Hi, guys. I'm not sure about posting this. I know I'm probably going to come across as a complete drama queen and a time waster, but I need to let this out. It'll most likely be my only post, so please bear with me. I'll give you a bit of background first: I was a very sickly kid. Was all...
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