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I hate it so much. I feel like I am at the edge of a huge cliff and each snide or angry comment just pushes me that much closer. I wish she would leave me alone. I should be use to the comments she makes cause she's done it since I was in fourth grade. The worst comment(s) she has made lately is...

I am in the middle of trying to prevent myself from having a complete meltdown. I don't know if I've been triggered or not. Usually things my mother says doesn't bother me, but lately I've been having a hard time dealing with stuff since I triggered February 24th and the 28th. She made a comment...

I am going to look for a therapist. There is a place close that by that has therapists, but I don't if they specialize in anything like PTSD. When it comes to my PTSD I was just told that I have it. I am very apprehensive to try to self-diagnose further. I would like to have a professional tell...

I use survivor as a descriptive term more than a "what I really am" term. It bothers me to call myself a "victim", but at the same time I don't feel like I am a true survivor.

I actually am not seeing a therapist or shrink at the moment. When I got diagnosed with PTSD two years ago I was seeing a counselor and he didn't actually give me any tools to deal with the trauma or the PTSD. So after a year I stopped seeing him altogether and just found someone at church to...

So, my parents and I got into a discussion yesterday morning. My mother was asking me why I was having trouble doing chores, scheduling a dentist appointment, or even trying to find a Job. I know they want to know about my PTSD and I don't know what to tell them so they understand. There are...

I am terrified of the dark. Inside and outside. Most of it is outside, but there is a room at my grandmother's house where most of the abuse took place that whenever I sleep in it I have nightmares, I get panicky, and have lots of anxiety. When I am home I sleep with three stuffed animals, an...

When you see the metal ramp in the parking deck, acknowledge that it is there, but still startle when you drive over it.

Here's another show that I have an interest in: Our America with Lisa Ling. Especially the episode on now "Predators in the clubhouse". It will most likely bother me, but for some reason I just can't resist watching it.

I'm just so happy I actually got a reply. I didn't think I would get one.

Marilyn Manson, the Agonist, Black Veil Brides, Linkin Park, Crown the Empire, Florence and the Machine- Breath of Life, Icon for Hire- Get Well.

Non-PTSD-er: "I understand what you're going through." Me: Oh! How long have you had PTSD? Non-PTSD-er: I don't have PTSD. Me: Unless you are a supporter so someone with PTSD then you don't understand sh*t. That's what I would say if I actually told people about what I have.

After I used the terms survivor. When talking about what I went through. C: You shouldn't label yourself. Me: "the survivor label is just fine. Why? Cause I am a SURVIVOR!!!!

Creative.

The name is what I chose it because Emma is my nickname that my friends call me. The number 13 is my favorite number. My avatar is a picture of one square of the origami quilt I have been working on since the beginning of January.

First change the T to a C. I see a counselor. Me: "Yes, I would like to tell you that I have hyper-sexuality and hyper-arousal, but I know there is a chance that as a "Christian" you would have a problem with it." Actually I no longer see that counselor. I switched to someone else; because I...

Especially when you see the person and the thought that enters is: "You're such a lucky B- because I am not gonna charge you with what you did (even though where I live there is no statute of limitations)." I could charge him, but I know I would probably be scapegoated by his parents.

I know how that feels.

When it comes to Christmas or any other family outings that have to do with my father's side, I shut down or numb myself cause I know that my abuser will be there. There have been a couple of Christmases where I shut off every thing so completely that I was able to sit in the same room with him...

I have had my counselor tell me that I need to integrate my alters and personalities, but I don't think I should. It doesn't feel right to do so.

Thanks. Is there anything like self-harm ideation? I think I experience that more than suicidal ideation.

There is a documentary about this. It's called "Mea Maxima Culpa: Silence In The House of God"

I can do that. Gives me more time to explore the site.

I can not open it either and I can't find it using the search engine.

Thanks.