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It's not that difficult for me to hide things from the strangers or the public at large. In actual closer relationships, it becomes a minefield.

Well it went alright, I guess. I had a very hard time talking, but I managed to answer questions and tell her some of what I experience. She started asking me questions like, "So does it feel like your thoughts are racing?" and other questions that indicated she was trying to gather evidence...

I no longer have a partner. I stopped dating years ago because I knew I wouldn't be able to have sex, and then the relationship would just die a slow, painful death. No point. I'm not sure what specifically you are asking about. If you are asking about the vaginismus, it was only what I...

When it comes to that, I didn't experience anything emotionally. It was just like my body was possessed. My limbs would start to fight my partner even though that's not what I wanted to happen, and them my muscles in terms of sex were just like NOPE and sex was impossible. So it really feels...

This is important for your therapist to know. A lot of abusers are like this, and therapists can unknowingly make things worse by trying really hard to convince you to trust them, without first working on this issue. If this issue is not addressed first, then your therapist trying to reassure...

Yes I know my body remembers things I do not, because I have severe vaginsmus. And on my first gyne exam, I thought I was a virgin, but my doctor said I had internal scar tissue. That all really messed with my head for a long time because I have no memory of being sexually assaulted in any way...

What I mean by distorted, is certain details changed or missing, or maybe there is just a theme to them, a relevant theme, but not the exact traumatic event? Or are your flashbacks always pretty spot-on as far as the details of what you experienced? I'm not sure if I really experience...

Today's the day, I see her at 10AM. Been up most the night feeling crazy and thinking up worse case scenarios. I feel very on edge. My mother is taking me to the appointment so I don't have to walk over an hour in the cold to get there. I hope it all goes smoothly from the time she wakes up to...

I think the most important factor is in why someone is sharing. Needing validation, wanting to raise awareness of PTSD or different types of abuse, wanting to help someone you love understand that it's not their fault when you become distant sometimes, and so on, these are actually generous...

It gets converted into strength. That is the reward at the end, when you have successfully processed it.

I've read a lot of positive things about it, too. My post wasn't meant to discourage or scare you, but rather to emphasize the importance of having a reeeally good therapist who knows what they are doing for it. Otherwise IME it can be re-traumatizing. But handled properly it seems like it has a...

Well, just keep in mind, it was negative because the therapist handled it very poorly all around. But I can vouch for the technique itself in being effective at unearthing and drawing out things that normally remain locked up. My impression is that it's a way to draw out trauma in a controlled...

I consider my soul to be me, the true, untouchable me. Stuff happens to my body. Stuff even happens to my brain, which therefore means it happens to my mind. Stuff affects me emotionally, and my emotions are physiological reactions. And circling around me are all of the memories, all of the...

Thanks. I just keep telling myself it might paranoia and to give it at least one chance (session). That is my deal with myself. It's not like it's going to kill me to sit in a chair for 40 minutes.

This isn't really a productive thread, sorry, more of a I-just-want-tell-some-people thread, although anyone who can relate, your sharing would be appreciated. To be fair, a lot of things give me anxiety. But so does trying to see someone for help. I waited three days to get a call from this...

My one experience with it was absolutely horrible. However, the therapist who used it with me was irresponsible about it (I found out in retrospect while researching it). We never went over grounding techniques. She had no idea what sort of pandora's box she was trying to pry open because she...

Even though I shouldn't dare do those things, your post just made my day lol. Just in time, too, at 2 in the morning. Thanks for the chuckles.

I get what you are saying. I guess I just see something like that as irrational. But I do also have tendency to try to see the most benign option with things like that. I admit I would rather see someone as irrational than as just a d-bag. I've talked about that in therapy before, too. I was...

Well I don't want them to do something really shitty like get rid of my dog. My mother once said to me, "We would never do anything like get rid of him just because you are having problems" referring to my mental health problems and she said it out of nowhere. To me that is how my mother...

Nah I get you, that makes sense. It doesn't trigger me badly like some select things do, it is just a more mild fight/flight feeling. I feel a panic attack coming on but also get really ticked. But funny enough probably just look like a deer in the headlights.

Wondering if this is a mild to severe trigger for anyone else. But irrational people give me panic attacks. My issues are mostly from childhood abuse, so I know that probably factors in. My parents were very unstable and irrational. Working as a cashier in a convenience store, I encountered...

Some predators add in extra BS in an effort to make sure nobody would believe the victim. A lot of people can wrap their minds around child abuse of various types, but if it included theatrics and the survivor mentions any of it, suddenly it all sounds too "crazy". And sometimes that is the very...

In my opinion, if there are amnesiac barriers while a person seems to be functioning, that is a strong sign of DID/alters, from what I have read. Disassociation is on a spectrum or continuum, so it is possible to have something very similar to DID that would be considered a dissociative...

Well the way I think of it, is that if I ever do happen to be in a crisis situation, I'm probably going to be the only person with weapons and advanced first aid. Hopefully someone else can use them after I have disassociated and fallen over.

No not at all. Asking someone to avoid one phrase that isn't at all necessary for communication is not unreasonable, considering how it affects and why. But like that's my point. For him to figuratively stomp his feet "you're not the boss of me!" style is just friggin whack.