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  1. Wendell_R

    What do you do when you have a body flashback?

    I've experienced something like this, but I experience pain instead of numbness. Early in my trauma therapy, I tried some somatic stress reduction exercises, and just calling attention to awareness of my body sensations was triggering. Trying EMDR with tappers was triggering. Much of my...
  2. Wendell_R

    General EMDR and lurking darkness

    Hi, @Njay. For recuperation, I agree with @Freida that rest is really good. What I've found though is that it's helpful to figure out what kind of rest works for you. Sometimes I get brutally tired, but not the kind of tired that gets better with bed rest or just sitting. I figured out...
  3. Wendell_R

    Started EMDR therapy but haven't done EMDR yet

    Hi, @Keefe. I'm sorry that you've had a hard time and that you've lost your old therapist and are being screamed at. That all sounds very hard. It's important during the process that you can tell the therapist how you are doing and that you have some level of trust. I know that I have a lot...
  4. Wendell_R

    The "I Need A Hug" Thread

    More hugs for you, @Teasel
  5. Wendell_R

    What Did You Eat And Drink Last?

    Made a cup of Lemon herbal tea and waiting for it to cool off a bit so I don't burn my mouth.
  6. Wendell_R

    General EMDR and lurking darkness

    Sometimes in EMDR I know I'm getting close to something difficult. With my therapist's help, we adjust what we work on, so it's not too overwhelming, but also deep enough that we make progress. Other times, we'll get started on something, and an unexpected wave of feelings comes crashing in...
  7. Wendell_R

    Losing my Mom.

    My mom died when she was 49 and I was 27. At the time, I was in grad school and went to the health center for some counseling. The counselors put together a small group of students who had all lost someone. They made the very important point that back 150 years ago, many people had...
  8. Wendell_R

    Sufferer CPTSD with EMDR therapy - One incident seems to link to several others. Has anyone else found this with EMDR?

    Yes, that's for sure! I never would have guessed how many "onion layers" I have been carrying around. Have you considered doing EMDR virtually? I have been doing it online during COVID and after some initial hiccups have found that it still works for me.
  9. Wendell_R

    What Did You Eat And Drink Last?

    Too much Halloween candy, although it was fun sitting outside with our dog and saying hello to the children & neighbors who came by.
  10. Wendell_R

    Sufferer Best Years of My Life

    Good luck on your journey, @wittmegan ! I have found this forum to be a great place to find people who understand my experiences. I agree with @intothelight that you do not need to worry about sharing too much or triggering people here.
  11. Wendell_R

    What Did You Eat And Drink Last?

    Bran cereal, a little granola, some raisins, and milk. Cold cereal is my comfort food (or one of them).
  12. Wendell_R

    Feel “weird” due to not knowing intimacy or being embraced.

    I grew up an a household with lots of sex & no affection. I've made significant progress over the years, but I'm still learning how to combine "trust" and "affection".
  13. Wendell_R

    Am I over reacting? (Dog in therapy)

    This is a very appropriate response, I think. I can understand that fear. But if I was in the same position, I would be angry at my therapist that I have to burn up therapy time dealing with her screw up. I will say, though, that it's been useful for me to express my anger at my therapist in...
  14. Wendell_R

    EMDR protector/helper?

    EMDR was frightening for me--I do have parts and many were terrified. So, we spent quite a bit of time setting up protectors & wise resources. I gathered from my therapist that we weren't doing this from an IFS point of view. There was no sense that the protector was necessarily an...
  15. Wendell_R

    Phone addiction

    A lot of suggestions out there are also disheartening because they make it sound so easy to cut back. @StillPen is right that it's so hard to quit when the alternative to the screen is a lot of PTSD symptoms.
  16. Wendell_R

    Phone addiction

    I've struggled with this for many years. Here are some things that help me: What I am doing very recently is that I keep the phone in my car. It's good for me to be sure to get out of the house or job every two hours for a little break/walk, so I check the phone at the same time to see if...
  17. Wendell_R

    Sufferer CPTSD with EMDR therapy - One incident seems to link to several others. Has anyone else found this with EMDR?

    Welcome to the forum, @One day at a time, and I hope you have a healing journey. Yes, I and many others here have found that EMDR brings up more memories. It can be like opening a door (or many, many doors in some cases). Or like peeling away the layers of an onion. It sounds like you are...
  18. Wendell_R

    DID Anyone experienced full or partial DID/parts integration? How did your life change & how did you cope?

    We're right in the middle of the process. Our female parts are starting to blur and feel more like one, strong female part. For the male parts, it's been a hard process. A few of them experience life with greater co-consciousness of the others. When memories of a trauma come up, though, it...
  19. Wendell_R

    What Did You Eat And Drink Last?

    Bowl of cereal--a mix of bran flakes, Cheerios, and granola, with some extra raisins on top.
  20. Wendell_R

    DID Just life with DID

    Hi, @prynne . We're thinking a lot about integration. We've been in the thick of learning to have the parts talk more to each other, and then that has led towards integration. But that whole process has been hard and exhausting because now when something difficult comes up, a handful of parts...
  21. Wendell_R

    What Did You Eat And Drink Last?

    A small handful of Cheez-It crackers (orange square crackers, with a salty, somewhat cheese-like flavor).
  22. Wendell_R

    EMDR vs. Rescripting - personal experiences with doing both?

    I hadn't heard of the term rescripting, but when I looked it up, it's clearly something I do a lot of with my therapist along with EMDR. Sometimes the rescripting happens by itself. Other times, it will come up while we are doing EMDR, or we will do a little EMDR after the rescripting to "tap...
  23. Wendell_R

    DID Just life with DID

    Mrs. W knows about my dissociative disorder and believes it. She has experienced my switching. I have tried to explain it to a couple of friends I can trust, but haven't been able to explain it in a way that makes sense to them. That is frustrating and leaves me feeling lonely.
  24. Wendell_R

    DID Just life with DID

    Yes, "didn't let them" seems accurate. The presence of Little Wendell has been pretty obvious for decades, but he didn't really get to speak up in therapy in the early years. He was able to talk though when my therapist invited him to do so. Other parts were more reticent. This is from the...
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