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My anxiety levels were lower, before I came to the library, to access the Internet, but they have returned to the levels, I expereince, during the aftermath of a flashback. Can feel my heart rate going through the roof. Right now, I feel emotionally crappy and worthless, after yesterday's...

One of my most dangerous flashbacks has return, once more, this morning. It has been several months, since I last experienced this. Where my younger brother physically attacks, both my mom and I, with anything, he could get his hands upon, in the kitchen. I can still hear, mom pleading with him...

Sadly, I express my anger, when it builds up and explodes like a volcano. Leaving the people around me, wondering, what happened to tick me, as I am, generally, a very shy person. Never realizing the building silence, on my part, is a warning sign, to them. When-ever possible, I try to avoid a...

@Ayesha, you will never realize, how proud, I am reading this post of your. I wish I was healthy enough to go back to university, again, and get another degree, which would increase my chances of getting a job. Here, are a few thoughts, you might want to think about, when you start...

@Britt.f7 you have the strength to manage this, although it maybe hard, at times. Sadden, by the media circus that my local city council has become, over the past 6 months. Especially, the antics of the mayor and his denial of having a drug addiction.

@Promicarus apology, with open arms. It is so hard to judge, where another person is coming from, when all you have, is the brief posting, before you. @Britt.f7 that is about the hardest thing, to do, but am willing to give it, my honest best.

@Promicarus the very fact, I am transitioning from Male-to-Female, means I am facing my traumatic past, and attempting to deal with my memories. For the record, I suppressed this part of myself, for 28 years, before accepting it, and taking steps to deal with this part of my life. For my PTSD...

Am sadden that winter has arrived early here, and appears to be, a long and bitter cold one, this year.

Another winter is, upon me, and I find myself, battling depression and the weight gain, which happens, during this time of year. This has worsen, my constant struggle with my weight, yo-yoing, from being almost anorexic, to severely overweight, and my ability to control my glucose levels, as I...

@RussH Honestly, a person's religiousity is their own belief, and as long as, they don't use it, as a weapon, against me, I have no problems with anyone. And yes, in the past, I have had religion used as a weapon against me, by those, I considered close.

The first snowfall has occurred, with scattered flurries, for the rest of the day. Way too soon, for my liking.

Welcome to the forum, Chlo. Just posting is a great start on your road of enlightenment and healing, for we all move, at our own pace.

@RussH I have tried numerous times to understand, why my younger brother made my childhood and later, a living Hell, but every time, he rebuffed me. It has gotten to the point, I had to break off, all relationships with him, for my own healing. Would ask him, to call me, after he sought...

@Grace511 I can relate to your posting, as I am, in the same position, but much older, in my early forties. There are times, I think, I will never meet Ms Right.

Yes, Eav, the last time it happened to me, was November 13th, in the juice aisle, of a local supermarket. I spent about 5 minutes wandered that aisle, before I realized, what was happening to me. Another time, when I was walking home, from the pharmacy, after picking a prescription, which I...

Myself, I know my yo-yoing of my weight, is directly related to depression, having gone from being almost anorexic, to grossly overweight, which on my bodyframe, made me, look like the Goodyear blimp. Nothing, I have experienced with PTSD, like @anthony has said, has caused my weight gain. But I...

Am feeling more grounded, after an afternoon nap, with my cats.

Thank you, @CraftyCath . Baths have always been a way, I have treated my anxiety and other stressful moments, in my life.

Tired and frustrated, as I overslept, when I had plans for a very personal trip, to visit my dad's gravesite. Won't be going today, as I will be running into rushhour traffic, on the several transit systems, I have to take, on my way back home. And still way too anxious, for the good of my health.

When you find yourself, wandering up and down the same aisle of a supermarket for 5 minutes, without a clue, why you are there, in the first place. Getting more frustrated by the minute, this happens.

Thank you, very much, @CraftyCath and @SweetLullaby . Last night, I took a long bath with an orange-cranberry scented candle, burning by the tub, accompanied by Star, for most of it.

Am feeling very anxious, not because the dentist found a cavity, but for tonight, and the Trans Remembrance Day ceremonies. I want to hide away, in my apartment, until it's mid-January.

Thank you, @Britt.f7 and @Spiderallis .

thank you, @Ayesha . It will be, but I have people, around me, to lean on, should the need arise.

Watching my cats sleeping, by my side, this afternoon, as I recover from anxiety burn-out, from yesterday events.