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I am really struggling with staying in the present today. I just keep having flash backs of my ex tying me to the bed with my backside up and hitting me with a belt and then turning me over and having sex with me because that is what he wanted. I hate this so much!!! I am so frustrated because I...

Sitting in therapy I just wanted to cry but I couldn't. I left and felt even worse. I literally just want to bawl my eyes out. I feel so bad right now. Driving past one of the places several assaults happened does not help me at all. I just want to crawl in a hole right now and cry until I can't...

There is a pizza place in town that all of my co-workers love but I absolutely Hate it. I had just started seeing a guy and we had pizza from there the night he assaulted me. They think I am weird but I refuse to tell them so I just don't eat it. The smell makes me nauseous and very shaky. I...

The last few nights I have gotten at least 7 hours of sleep. No nightmares but that has stopped. Here it is 4:30 am and I am awake. Shakey, tears flowing from my eyes, and heart racing like I just ran 5 miles. No way am I going back to sleep. It is going to be a long day. Do you always wake up...

I have this very same problem. It has taken me a while but I am just telling her a little at a time. Like the last session we talked about something that happened and then I started to panic so we started talking about the feelings I was having talking about it instead. It may take you a long...

Yesterday I knew that therapy was going to be hard as it always is but it wasn't. My therapist said that I struggle with trust, and shame really bad so we are trying a different approach. We are going to work onto one event at a time but if I start to get panicky we will take a break. I have to...

I love eucalyptus. It is so relaxing to me. I use lavender when I have no eucalyptus.

JK you are awesome. Thank you. Love ya too!

I have a lot of pillows on my bed but I tend to cuddle with a body pillow. Especially when I wake up afraid.

Hello! Good for you for getting out. You will find lots of support here. I have found a lot of useful information. I hope you do the same.

Do the nightmares stop? Will I be able to sleep again without being afraid? I just feel like I am constantly dreaming about things that have happened. I am not sure if there is a way to make them less or better yet go away.

@VioletButterfly she is the one pushing. I have never talked to anyone about it and she says it is very important that I do so. She says it will help her understand better. I have told her the very basics like I was molested for several years by a cousin, I have been raped twice and my ex used...

I find my safe spot or color. Coloring helps me focus on being here in the now and not where my flashback wants me to go at that moment. Or I cuddle with my body pillow and listen to music with headphones.

She says the more I talk about it the easier it. That is not working for me. She specializes in trauma, domestic violence, depression, and abuse mainly. I have asked her what we can do but she believes this is the best way. It makes me feel like quitting. She is not just this way with the...

I really wish I could talk about the sexual abuse that happened to me as a child. My therapist wants me to go into detail and verbally tell her every incident I remember. I just cant, we have tried so many different things. I get started talking about an incident and I go into a panic attack and...

You can do it!!

I am sorry that you are having a hard time. I am afraid to sleep myself because my nightmares are so bad. I just wanted you to know that you are not alone.

@JadesJewel my daughter is doing wonderful. I am ok, I just try to take things one day at a time. To someone who does not understand it seems silly. I don't think it sounds silly at all. I want to be here for you, I care for you as well. Maybe if there is a distraction your therapist can take...

I totally understand! I am sorry that you feel that way but please don't. I believe that although we are struggling and we are going to therapy to get help that our therapists can have a bad day too. I hope your t is more focused the next session.(((Hugs)))

Thank you for your opinions.

@Ragdoll Circus unfortunately this is just the beginning of where things began. Our relationship has been damaged and irreparable for many years. I appreciate you responding.

@VioletButterfly I did not feel that way at all. I appreciated what you wrote. Please don't feel that way. Thank you for opinion and your words. I have read what everyone wrote several times. Unfortunately I am using this site for a lot of support and understanding.

Thank you!! Good for you for being able to stand up for your self. I did not realize what was really going on with me until I started talking to my therapist. I have not opened up to her like I should and I know that. I am trying but once I told my mom and nothing was done I didn't it mattered...

@anthony maybe she broken. He was released from prison about 6 months ago. He has been in and out of prison all of his adult life. Not for the same things though.

@Gia1019 Yes, I am working with a therapist who says she needs to go. I really believe my Mom stays in my home because she hates me. She has been offered other places but refuses to go to either of them. I agree with my T that she needs to go but my heart hates to see anyone homeless and me be...