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I am doing this now. My therapist really encouraged me to get the words out, to get out the details - his reasoning was that in me saying it, it can lessen the enormous amount of shame around it. It was so, so hard - but I did find that it eased a burden for me. We have continued to tip-toe...

I have not had it happen to me, but I just wanted to tell you how sorry I am that happened to you. I will also say that it certainly does not sound out of the realm of normal for flashbacks and dissociation. Try to stay grounded, be kind to yourself. (hugs) if you accept.

I think she was likely thinking that it could be a more lengthy conversation than what was needed at that point. You were seeing her "out of session" - and probably wanted to stay on task for the purpose of why you were there. Just from what you wrote - I don't see any ill intention there.

I totally get it. I too have been trying to understand WHY food is such a comfort. Why does feeling full feel good? I think there is a comfort in that fullness for me - maybe equating to being wrapped in a blanket, or maybe the opposite of being empty? I think there is also the pleasure of...

I'm sorry - I am feeling really low lately as well. Did you make it to your T yet?

Yes, I experience this. It is usually tied with other triggers or too much time thinking/talking about the abuse. It is also sexual in nature - being touched, pain, etc. It generally only happens in therapy - as that is the only place that I really talk about what happened. It is EXTREMELY...

I don't really know how to describe it, but it's like the memories of abuse feel like a dream. Or far away/not real. Like - they happened, I know they did, but there is a veil there - or maybe that just wasn't me? It is really messing with me. It is making me feel like they truly are not real.

Yes. I fight an addiction to self-harming, including not allowing the cuts to heal. And it is VERY addicting. The pain, the blood, the release of self-hatred. It feels perfect. FEELS perfect, but it is incredibly destructive. As an addiction, nothing becomes enough. I actually landed in the...

I ended up cutting today. I cut under my breasts and tried to cut my genitals, but what I had didn't work well there. I'm so ashamed. Why do I keep doing this to myself....

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@The Albatross well, I'm at work right now, so can't really get away. And thank you :)

Thanks all. @Simply Simon / @The Albatross - I am scheduled for yoga class tonight, which will probably help a lot. I also just wish I wasn't so terrible at communication. I know I should just voice that I am struggling right now - instead of going to the edge of the cliff and wanting to...

Wow. Ok. I never expected this kind of response.... I understand it's bad. I know. It doesn't actually help, it only makes things worse. I'm just hurting. I want it to stop and all I can think of is masking the emotional pain with physical.

I can cut myself and not die. Easily. Just because I cut, doesn't mean it's deep or needs stitches.

Cutting is a coping mechanism. It just is. It provides relief. I don't like it, it causes suffering, but it feels good. But everyone freaks out with it. My friend has trichotillomania. It is a coping mechanism all the same. But no one freaks out as much. Why can't I just cut. Why does it...

It took me a very long time to go there with my T. It was hard - and still is - and even after I started giving details a few months ago - there are still a couple of items I am holding on to. It is hard and you are brave.

I have found that what really helps in my communication with my T is to put it on me and try really hard not to project things on to him that are not really there. For example - I felt really (insert emotion) when this happened. Or. I am having a hard time with thinking XYZ. As opposed to -...

It really just depends... CBT is very focused on your thoughts and trying to re-frame. DBT is very skills focused - giving you something to do in response to things. Personally, I found DBT more helpful to me because it felt like it was more accessible. I had a list of skills I could look at...

I feel like I am on the verge of a (what I call) "PTSD meltdown".... I just passed by an accident this morning on my way to work. I saw the woman behind the wheel, she appeared unconscious, it looked like there was gasoline coming from her tank. I called 911 and gave the information. I cannot...

Depression is starting to take over. For the first time ever - I officially "quit" over the weekend. We were supposed to go out of town for a family wedding, on Saturday morning I just threw in the towel - I couldn't do it. So my husband and kids went without me - because I just could not...

Oh I'm so sorry - it looks like you have had SO MUCH going on in your life. It is understandable that anyone, even a "mentally healthy" person, would have some seriously emotional/mental impacts of all of that - layer on PTSD, I can imagine it must be terrible. I also understand your fear of...

Thanks @Laurie2001 for your response and support. I'm still feeling just such a disconnect with my T - and it's not even him, it's me. I am just feeling disconnected from everyone....

So T and I met on Tuesday. It was a rough session - I had a really hard time piecing apart the feelings I had around seeing him there versus the emotion I felt from my own trauma/hurt. I don't think that I handled it very well. It just sucks as I feel like things have just been "off" for the...

Thank you. That's exactly what it felt like, a perfect storm. And it was so much less about him than about the way her music poured emotion out of me. Thanks, yes, I hope that is the case when I see him again. Yes, my friend is beautiful and was so understanding and loving to me. And yes, It...

So, T and I had our normal 2 hour "funfest" therapy session yesterday. It went well, left in a good place, etc. T and I have a close mutual friend. We know this, have talked about it, etc. It's not really a huge deal, we had only run into each other once outside of the office over the past 2...