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@JEKBreatheandBelieve thank you for your response. It does help. It actually just helps to talk to someone else who really knows. I don't foresee my parts going away either and I did just kind of imagine them fading into the background like you describe. I actually don't want them to go...

I have been on this forum for well over a year. Maybe more. I have gained so much from reading posts but have I have never had the courage to post. I think this might be my first one ever. Kind of nervous about it. I do not have DID but I am on the dissociative spectrum and have parts. I am...

When I was open with my therapist about the fact that if I started crying that I may not stop...he purposely scheduled my next appointment as his last patient for the day and made it a two hour appointment. It was great to finally give myself permission to have that release. My therapist also...

I did exposure therapy for sexual assault. I trust my therapist a great deal. We worked slowly but it really worked for me. I am no longer triggered by some of the things that used to send me completely over the edge and I can now discuss the rape without throwing up or becoming physically ill...

@TimeToHeal i totally understand. I meet with my therapist twice a week and often email in between sessions. Although in the last few months my emails have been less and less. I was just wondering if you could elaborate on your "reality cards". I haven't heard of that before. I save all of my...

Google Pete Walker Emotional Flashbacks. It is very eye opening and was extremely helpful for me! I would have waves of all of these intense emotions and fears and basically be in the fetal position without the visuals of a regular flashback. Understanding emotional flashbacks helped me get...

@Justmehere I am still not great at the reconnecting part. It takes me a couple of sessions but it is getting easier. He just always reminds me that there hasn't been a time yet where we haven't recovered from a vacation or a misunderstanding. Now I tell that to myself over and over again. I...

I do this everytime. In fact I am in the midst of it now. One more week to go! I think I disconnect myself as a way to protect myself. Both of my parents left a lot. We never knew when they were coming back. We often lived with aunts and uncles or grandparents. My mom finally left for good...

Based on your recommendation I read this book today...the first day of my vacation. I really really enjoyed it. I thought it was really funny. Thanks for sharing! Did you read the second one and how was it? I need something equally as good for the remainder of the break!

I do the same thing sometimes. I think in some ways I am reenacting some of the neglect I experienced as a child. It usually comes after I am really hard on myself about something. I won't sleep, eat or even take the time to allow myself to go to the bathroom. I will ignore all body signals...

I learned a lot from reading this book and though it is not a self help book it did give me new insights on myself and I have been able to apply much of what I learned into my therapy. It definitely gave me the platform to talk very openly with my therapist and to guide my therapy in a...

I don't think I could add much to what Chava had to say. It is a great explanation. I would just chime in and reinforce that for me it was also slow going.....very slow. I am a "let's tackle this project" kind of person so I was frustrated in the beginning. I had to let go of my internal...

I don't have trouble at work I can stay in grown up mode there. In fact sometimes on the weekends or holidays if I get stuck in little parts I go to my office until I feel a shift. Driving to and from therapy is an issue. I put the address in GPS. Many times I have passed the exit or gotten...

That is awesome! Congrats to you! When you get time you will have to share with us what you learned. That is such a great thing that you did for yourself.

@GWhizz I am so glad that she called you back quickly. I still have times when things come up and I do the anxiety countdown to my appointment day! I hate it. I am glad you found someone who knows how to calm you down. My therapist does a good job of that as well. For some reason I sometimes...

That is a huge step. Kind of reminds me of the first time I started therapy...years ago. I wasn't afraid at all because I was somewhat naive. After a few stops and starts with different therapists....this last time I was scared to death because I knew I was ready and up for putting in some...

I don't know the answer to that. I know I do not have DID but still have parts....maybe more defined than what you describe but less defined than what she describes. I was just told I was on the dissociative spectrum. But I was under the impression that if you were that aware and didn't lose...

Thanks for bringing that article to my attention. I forwarded it to my therapist. I had to laugh about the travel plans. Been there...done that. Have the talk about object permanence a lot! It can be extremely overwhelming to deal with dissociation to the point of parts but it enabled me to...

I totally get this....I swear I have uttered these exact words!!!!

So just another thought....I have talked with my therapist about the worry of being too dependent on him. Because I am so avoidant and fearful of attachment he doesn't worry about it. He says he knows I won't use the email/phone/text unless I absolutely have to and it is kind of a painful...

My therapist has never asked me to show him but he always asks me where and if I needed or need medical attention. He asks my what I was feeling during it. For instance if you do it and you feel a wave of relief and calmness rush over your body it can be a signal that your seratonin is low...

I have attachment issues and we specifically work on this in therapy. I learned as a child it was not safe to attach so as a grown up I don't develop the kind of meaningful relationships I would like to. I definitely would never express a need in fact I wouldn't even allow myself to have...

Happy new year to you!

@desiderata310 I am really sorry you are having a difficult time right now. I hope that somehow a shift comes and you are able to feel better and bring in the new year with peace and comfort. I am hoping that for all of us!

Maybe just come right out and ask him what the treatment plan is for you. I wonder of he is just focusing on stabilization for now and then move into processing.