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Dallas born/raise and recently moved back Black who was taught at an early age, appropriately, to COMPLY. I'm scared. Always. And I have had several occasions to have my fears reiterated. I mourn EVERY death. We are ALL victims. In my PERSONAL opinion the conversations everyone suggests we have...

@Snowflake You're not worth a penny. You're worth all the pennies on the planet.

@Rumors A reminder that You are never alone. Now if I could just remind myself :tup:

Welcome. You're never alone here.

Thank you thank you thank you

I will continue with my therapist but will definitely look into van dwelling. Open road traveling or tiny house living has always interested me.

They were chains and have fueled a lifetime of guilt.

You do not have to. My T of several year (both prior to my assault and after) told me given the issues I previously worked thru and am currently working through it was unlikely emrd would help given I still have regularly occurrences of flashbacks and purposefully reliving those during this time...

First off, thank you for your responses. I was overwhelmed to say the least. Mostly because I sometimes fear it (my abuse and trauma) is all in my head. To have you validate the miasma of fear and hopelessness shocked and overwhelmed me. "You mean it wasn't in my head all these years?!?", I...

Hello killashandra. I'm headed to CA next week and will talk to my T. I may just show him this post.

thank you, ladee. Your words help validate my overwhelmed feelings but it's your profile picture that made me feel grounded. I've copied it and will look at it every time I need strength. Thank you.

Hi folks. I'm suffering from complex ptsd after be molested as a child & an acquaintance rape 6 years ago by a man I considered/called a father. Because of my ptsd I've lost my job, all of my friends (I think them knowing my rapist & seeing me suffer so caused them to suffer as well & they...

The body remembers what the mind forgets. I was very ill until I acknowledged the memories of my trauma. My memories (& yours) weren't false they were just hiding inside as a form of self-preservation because I couldn't deal with them. YOU ARE NOT ALONE in your pain.

It's taken me a while to post to this form because the idea of being asked to forgive is so upsetting and such BS. The title of therapist or doctor doesn't make someone right. There are plenty who aren't good or helpful.

My therapist and my rape crisis counselor both told me forgiveness is not necessary and not for everyone. I'm of the personal belief that forgiveness has to be earned. No one was asked to forgive Jeffrey Dahmer. He was a murderer of people my abuser murdered my soul. I don't forgive psychopaths.

There is not a day that goes by that I don't literally say out loud, "I hate myself" or "I'm a horrible person." Sometimes i'm able to stop myself Midway and other times even if I realize I'm doing it I just allow myself to complete the sentence. YOU'RE NOT ALONE in your pain. And although...

I think what you wrote, in 200 words or less is perfect. For me, It's a start and finished letter. I'd have to change it to "41 years and counting."

I have not abandoned my friends, they have abandoned me. My bestest friend came to see me a day after being hospitalized after my suicide attempt. The purpose of the visit was to tell me she couldn't be friends with me because it was "upsetting to see me like this". After I was a raped a year...

Hi. I'm just hear to introduce myself. I'm in San Francisco. I was molested from 4-8 yo and was raped by someone who I considered a father last year. I'm now 38. My diagnosed PTSD makes some days so hard I don't want to wake up. But I'm here now to find some ways to heal myself and find the...