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@jphillips90 us child abuse survivors have all been there. its very common in PTSD to have mixed emotions about our abusers. my mother was abusive as well. as I got older I stopped trying to please her because I knew it was pointless. you can't make someone love you who doesn't even love...

@darrenS I have some savings but not a lot

my stay the emergency shelter that I've been staying since last November might have to come to and end. I've had problems with keeping a job for longer than a couple weeks, had colon surgery, and took me a few months to recover from an infection at the surgery wound. so that's why I've been...

so I've read about how many of you have OCD like traits and I can definitely relate. I'm constantly having inappropriate thoughts and images. Most of them are violent especially if I'm around other females. I obsess over my trauma as well which I know isn't healthy. that's why it's difficult for...

Idk if there's already been a thread on this but i'm really curious. does PTSD develope over the years? Or is it just like BAM! PTSD? Can you show symptoms early in life and then get it full blown after another event?

i feel you on this! i have "fighting" nightmares as well. But most of mine are about being attacked by someone or something! In PTSD our nightmares always have something to do with our trauma. even if the dream itself is not about specific events

since I stay currently at an emergency shelter I have a 9:00 curfew. Meaning that's when the lights go out. it's really frustrating when everyone is able to fall asleep within 45 mins and I'm laying there for hours. then when I do fall asleep I always wake up too early. I trouble falling asleep...

i tend to rush during eating if im around people or not. i know for a fact thats it's not good for the digestive system :/

My heart goes out to you hun. most of us on here have been there and done that. Cutting of contact was the wisest decision. your family is in denial and very unsympathetic towards you. i know its hard to do this but it needs to be done for your well being and the well being of your kids. The...

i have this strange habit of eating too quickly. Can anxiety cause this? does anyone here also do this?

i can totally relate. I thought my mother's abusive behavior was normal. when i tried to tell everyone else that it wasn't (im adopted as well) my mother's biological children defended her. i can tell you friom experince that confronting your abusers and bystanders, that it won't help you. they...

I'm terrified of having kids one day. I would love to have kids but I don't think I could mentally handle it. Do your children ever bring up memories of your past? Do you ever feel afraid that you might treat them the way your abusers treated you? are you overprotective of them because you don't...

I'm always chasing men that don't want me and develop an unhealthy attachment to them. I honestly feel that I'm never going get married or have kids. that I'm going to end up living in a trailer park with 35 cats because no one wants to be around me. I only have a few true good friends, I don't...

it sucks waking up in the middle of the night and having one of you legs throbbing in pain. or you going about daily activities and your legs or arms start to ache and you have no pain killers on you. if I get lucky it's just a mild ache but at times its a severe throbbing pain and I need some...

so I have really bad attachment issues. when fall for someone I get OBSSESSED. I'm super clingy and needy and this tends to scare men away. anyone else have this problem?

for all those who suffer from complex trauma

@Jen93 omg that's how I look at it! if I hear a child or even a baby scream I automatically think they're being hurt :(

I really can't stand it......it almost makes me want to cry. anyone else experience this?

idk if maladaptive daydreaming counts as "dissociation" but its a very severe

i can't stand aggressive people or being in a situation where i feel like i'm being controlled. i guess it's because these people all have similar personality traits to my abusive mother. i'm even currently avoiding a child because he is aggressive. this kid has hit me, grabbed my hair...

:unsure: so last night i didn't have a "nightmare" (thank you Jesus!) but the dream was still weird. i was on a motorcycle and it was going way too fast. i felt like i was gonna crash so i decided to hop off. suprisingly i wasn't injured when i landed on the ground. what do you guys think?

yes but only had one session. i went for depression in my early teen years then my abuser forced me to stop going cuz the therapist told her what she was doing is wrong

:(so i'm on the waiting list to recieve counceling. im nervous mostly cuz i'm not comfortable talking about my problems or past to complete strangers face to face

So usually my nightmares are not about specific events of trauma but last night's was. at least part of it was.My abuser came after me with a broom (which actually happened in real life). The rest never really happened . She put a big rock in a glass jar and tried to throw it at me. i guess she...

@Solara no i'm not on meds