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I can identify with this. We were trying emdr, and all of that other stuff started happening, so we ended up switching to flash emdr and ego state stuff.

Well…. You’d be like our local school district. Second week of school and over 500 cases.

I think that I had mostly sorted it out before I went. I told her that I had written a thread and that everyone on the ptsd site was telling me to go. She was smiling about that. I could tell that she had fully observed that I hadn’t written her all week. I also think she was relieved to...

@LuckiLee this recipe is taking me back to when I used to make biscuits as a kid. My mom always had Bisquick handy. My husband’s family never used it and he does most of the cooking around here so it’s not on hand. I think it is time to bring it back!

I’m concerned by those American “foods.” That would be mostly considered junk food.

Another thought is, last week, we talked about how our relationship goes two ways and we both care about each other. I have complex ptsd and to hear that she cares about me both in and out of the office is terrifying. At first it felt nice, but then it started to feel dangerous so I lived a...

I’ve been making my list for tomorrow. It has things like me wanting to burn my journals with my T present (don’t think that’s possible), I can’t comfort my 13 year old “part” and I had a really good week last week and it scared me because I realized that in my healing, I barely have any...

Another thought is that I’m feeling kind of nauseous today. I felt yucky last Sunday as well. So now, after 4 years, my new normal is to feel sick the day before therapy? WTH.

@PTSDisaster its already set up as “online” for tomorrow. I’d rather it be in person, but those days don’t work well with my schedule.

I saw my T after she returned from her vacation last week. Everything went fine. I didn’t email her anything through the course of the week (normally I send her some thoughts or triggers and we discuss it later in session, I have actually not ever gone an entire week without sending at least...

I had an online p-doc appt yesterday. He started going off on Abbott and schools. It’s good to know that some medical doctors support vaccines and mask safety for our kids.

This is really hard to deal with. I have been there. First, it takes all this courage during a usually difficult symptom spike to try therapy to begin with. Then you see someone and question whether they have the skill set to help. In my case, my therapist told me to switch, and forgot to...

Now people in the USA are buying fraudulent vaccine cards. Good grief. Get the vaccine. It’s provided free of charge.

In therapy, we put together a string of events from my childhood that bring up very intense feelings. One of the worst moments involved parental “abandonment” and I have blanks all around it. Just extreme emotional pain. My life improved after that event (for awhile) until negative patterns...

Our governor approved no masks for all people in schools, no contact tracing, no notification of positive covid cases in the classroom. Our cases are up to 13 percent and rising and our hospitals are short staffed. In the mean time, we were waiting until my youngest daughter got to college to...

My brain is still processing the emdr stuff that we did before she left. I had never realized the mother abandonment that happened during something when I was 13 played such a huge part in this until our last session. I always thought it was the dad thing from age 6-7. (Which is also part of...

I think mine is different. Pretty much every panic attack I have had has stemmed from either a flashback or a trauma trigger that causes me intense fear or visuals of what could happen to my children or self in the future based on the past. But I also have intense hyper vigilance and anxiety...

My dreams are very abstract. Similar themes to trauma, but NEVER literal. (Thank God!)

@Sideways It does, which I just assumed I was bringing myself out of the panic attack. I’m just wondering how or why I have a label of GAD and maybe a panic disorder when I’m really just hyper vigilant, having emotional flashbacks and ptsd type behaviors.

I’ve been calling the following examples panic attacks, but then I read a thing about panic attacks for people with anxiety and now I’m confused. example: I read something that triggers a flashback and I relive the emotions of the event which cause intense panic, escape, crying, shaking. Is...

I freak out when my T leaves town. We have a routine about it, she tells me as soon as she knows the schedule will change, we talk about my feelings, she gives me a hand written card before she goes. I busy myself while she is gone. I deal with horrible feelings, she returns and acts like...

Sounds like a young therapist, which you said she is. I see a t that is a supervisor and she has had her own moments, but you can tell she reevaluated it at the next appointment and it turns into a repair situation. One time she had come back from a week off for a family members funeral. I...

I only had two births. The first one, they tried inducing at 14 days past my due date, but I started bleeding a bunch and my baby’s heart rate dropped. A swarm of doctors ran in and put me flat and oxygen on my face. I didn’t know what was going on. Once things got calmed down, my doctor...

I had an unplanned and a planned c-section. They both went well but they were 20 and 18 years ago. Insurance rules have probably changed since then. I wanted to hold my babies right after birth and I didn’t get to in either case. I’m a little bit sad about that, but I probably benefited from...

I was really focused on restarting work in person this week and helping my daughter’s homeless friend. I felt energized and “better.” Like my original non-ptsd self. However, yesterday I had a panic attack and couldn’t handle being home around the teens. I had to leave to calm down. It...