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Just read your post and I am about to go meet a new T after meeting the "meds" person yesterday. She was an idiot. I left in a panic attack (how can you say it was my depresssion and not the meds when my former psychiatrist, a real doctor, agreed it was the meds. She at least trusted me enough...

(((Albatross))) (((everyone else who needs a hug))) Feeling crummy. Had a rotten meeting with the new meds person (changing ASAP) yesterday. Can't stand being demeaned. Started the day with the same kind of treatment by the spouse. Am I really that much of a nonperson? I certainly feel...

I met with a new person to prescribe meds. That alone caused anxiety. Then there was the drive. The she told me my meds could be addictive and I should cut back. She blew off the drive anxiety and dismissed that I don't like leaving the house (you don't have a reason to leave - no, it scares...

Returned home. Spouse is here and hasn't contacted the lawyer to get this d*mn divorce over. Greeted me with a big hug and condolences. What the heck am I supposed to do with that? Seriously? I am supposed to act like him being here, calling the girlfriend at night, spending weekends with her is...

Picked up my pup from the kennel yesterday afternoon. It was the longest we had been apart - 12 days while I was with my family. He didn't make a sound when he saw me. As I bent over to say hi, he pinned his ears back, gave me a kiss, put his paws on my shoulders and hung on for dear life. The...

((CraftyCath)) I know what you mean about feeling alone with the PTSD stuff. Slept almost 12 hours and still don't feel like getting up. I've cried so much the pat 2 weeks, there are just no more tears left. Just exhausted. :sleep:

We buried my Dad today. I just feel very, very sad.

Bethinkfx, I think some of that is going on. I am really fighting the urge to run. My brother that was really a bully is around and that has been hard. My siblings that are here don't get it. They know what he is like but defend him. I have been pretty dissociated. I stay disconnected from...

I just want to get the internment over, go home and see my pup. I am told he has been looking for me at the care place. They take awesome care of him but I know he misses me. I miss him!!! I don't want to see the spouse but I guess that can't be avoided. Just too much for one person to cope...

Haven't been eating much at all - just not hungry. Family members are sick with some bug and I am just praying I don't get it. People get so stupid about the "stuff" and the who "gets" what. makes me crazy. My brother that terrorized me as a kid has been around and it has been difficult. I have...

My Dad died today. I spent most of last night watching him breathe and trying to keep him comfortable. I wasn't there when he passed because I was finally getting some sleep. My family is already making me insane. I'd say I can't wait to go home but I have divorce waiting for me there. Want to...

Thanks for asking. I am with my family - my father is dying and we have been sitting vigil, keeping him comfortable and reminiscing. Today I saw one of my brothers for the first time in 17 years. It is good to see him even if the circumstances are rotten. Other brothers rolling in over the...

I read a review of the series and someone hated the ending and thought it was a copout. I liked it. It made sense to me and there was enough information to imagine their future without just stopping. I thought it provided good, realistic closure.

I am regularly having to remind my pup that training doesn't get to be ignored. I get lazy with enforcing the rules and he becomes a complete brat. It is enough to remind me he needs the structure. I probably do too but I don't like it either. :p Oh well. Good for you for finding a goat...

I just attended another book club from my church. It was interesting to hear the responses from people who have not experienced serious trauma. The one that got me was someone was mad at Katniss' mother for not being there. They were seriously judgmental. As for me, I felt sorry for her. I have...

Haven't been on here much and wanted to say I am so sorry about your health scare! I hope you continue to heal and feel better. I am also glad to hear your little dog is doing well!! I love that you gave the goat raisins! That gave me a smile. It is something I would do. I have had to put some...

Doing better. I think I have kinda gone into a bit of dissociation. Feelings are just rather shutdown. My father is not doing well and I think I just hit the wall. I felt it "click" last night as my sister was telling me about Dad. It will all come crashing down at some point but for now, just...

I currently have a lot on my plate and it is making everything worse. I am really feeling like I am at the end of my rope. It is all I can do to get to the end of the day and not freak out at someone or completely melt down. I am just trying to get from one day to the next. Thanks for the...

Thanks. I will give it a try. Right now, I will do anything to make this hopelessness ease. I am SO low energy and so unable to see any kind of future. It is so hard to find people who understand. I go days at a time without talking to anyone and the only reason I leave the house is to care for...

I am so down I just can't seem to get my happy going. I just don't care if I wake up tomorrow. I sat parked at the edge of the river the other day and tried to think of a reason to not drive in. I figured some do-gooder would end up pulling me out and everything would be even worse. I have...

No fancy graphics from me but a big hug and many good wishes!! Hope your day is incredible!! YOu deserve it!! :)

A very happy birthday to you!! (((Anni)))

She is so cute!! Congratulations! So precious! We had goats when I was little and they are some of my "happy" memories from early childhood. I don't have a ton of memories but I remember the goats! They were so fun.

I am still sorry for your loss of Greta. I believe the fact you gave her a great life makes it easier. She was lucky to have you! The babies are SO cute! They are going to be so fun for you! Congratulations on your new babies! :tup:

For me, it isn't so much flying. It is being in a closed space with a lot of people. I used to be able to fly all the time and I love to travel.Right now, I just can't manage being around so many people. My family is 3000 miles away. I actually like driving and in a car is one of my "safe"...