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No no, think bigger: dismantle mandated state education/babysitting, more rules and meddling will just create more problems, the structure itself is the problem. Stop forcing already stressed children (many from broken homes now but don't dare talk about that) into a badly outdated authoritarian...

I see it now as our entire society as obviously painfully 'mentally ill' and only some seem to take the rap for it, you're right it is hidden. The entire way of looking at 'mental health' is outdated and badly in need of overhaul like everything else but then we identify with the strong more...

I have no idea how to how to make friends. I feel like a freak. Good luck to you finding one.

I didn't have any before these last few years...It was the only thing that stopped me from killing myself. Started reading conspiracy theories which branched out into alot of consciousness/paradigm shift talk.. Alot of it seemed to echo what I think I understood better as a child then forgot. It...

I didn't know it was trauma at the time I just thought i was depressed. Got into all sorts of sad dark music, hadn't really ever before beyond the odd song. I'm glad I found Radiohead mostly, who sounded almost exactly like the inside of my head.

I'm not often sure how much is 'God' and how much is my own delusional paranoia/ideas of reference interfering with 'normal' perception. Mindfulness meditation has helped alot and I feel like I get alot of weird coincidences & intuitions now but then I know damn well these would be called...

I guess we should measure productiveness on a case-by-case basis, its individual to everyone but I still feel like I've wasted my life so far being screwed in the head and really don't know what to do now, I haven't been much myself since I was a kid I think. Seeing so clearly now I'm just...

I do now....I talk to myself alot lately too, out loud like a conversation. I don't know what else to do to make myself free anymore, it feels like there's such a huge negative momentum behind me already, I'm really confused with how split up I am in my head

I am now. I used to have a real temper but it got beaten down by all the retard adults with their mind games and power trips and just like flipped into a constant state of anxiety that just got worse. Now I'm older and can see the past maybe more clearly now and the impossible hole it feels like...

My case manager more and more now. Its great to see more of the person underneath the title, I think shes a beautiful lady & a great help. Otherwise I have friends online I quasi-connect to, as much as you can online I mean. Its frustrating that its not in person, I often feel very close to them...

I need a guy now. I've never had much of a male presence in my life & grew up a failure-to-launch nervous wreck, I want my shrink to be male. I need that kind of guidance/outlook if I can find it.

I find my general EQ has leaped to the other extreme now that I know myself (therefor other people) more. Before I was totally walled up in my head where everybody & everything was a mystery. Its too bad these gifts have come side-by-side some crushing deficits though. When I'm having a good...

I always have had delusions- bizarre thoughts & beliefs (phobias mostly), trapped in my own little world unable to connect to others, its just that they don't usually totally consume me lately. I stay grounded more. When I feel good I feel so in tune with everything, my inside world is mixed up...

That's true, I wouldn't have started to come out of my shell in search of help If I wasn't living in absolute terror all the time, afraid when I might get set off next into a crushing feeling of impending death & damnation, totally depleted and exhausted with it all. And after these kind of...

I was tensing badly until recently, before conscious breathing & DBT & yoga; now I can see how 'letting go' has a physical side to it. I remember the last few years especially I'd sit closed up in a ball or sleep fetus style in bed, crunching up as tight as possible even if my limbs feel...

Re learning how to breathe, that's the most important one. When I started I could finally feel how oxygen starved I was & what it was doing to my body. A load was lifted in the first five minutes and the thoughts weren't quite as loud anymore. Such a simple thing, its amazing.

I think my eating disorder when I was a kid was a half hearted attempt, in some way; I wanted to just give up & drown at the time. I wasn't ballsy enough to just come at it consciously though, right on. When I was younger I always assumed I'd be dead by 20 for some reason, I sort of hoped for...

Yeah, I really lost it when I was 14 and almost starved myself to death...I still look back at it with shock at what I did to myself, how much I loved hurting myself like that. I was the first guy at my hospital to be admitted for being anorexic, a dubious honor. Now I'm deadly afraid of losing...

Awful, I was waking up almost every night at 3-5 am last few months but its been alot better lately. Last night though I was back up in the middle of the morning; its so lonely when this happens, Ive spent too many nights like that, pacing in the dark & crying too sometimes. At least I'm not...

I have the opposite problem, I use it to hide. I filled myself up with other people's ideas and words, especially the last few years, I gorged myself on information (not usually positive but alot of good stuff learned too). I used to speed read and suck it all in as fast as possible. I used it...

I was crying all the time in August September October....my nervous system was so dysregulated and I was starting DBT and trying to get out of my cave basement in a real way for the first time in years...I felt like I was going mad (though really I had been for awhile and just hadn't known it)...

I don't know, its always been kind of empty with my family, I just spiraled off into my own nightmare world and never knew what the problem was until now. My parents split up when I was 11 and then my mental problems really took off I think; it was already shaky. I didn't get along with or know...

Thanks everybody

I haven't had that feeling in consistent way in years. I didn't have it with my family and so I guess Ive always felt like i belong nowhere? I felt it strongly in therapy groups and when I used to live in the hospital but then after its done all those people disappear and you're back to square 1

Hey I'm jocko, I really struggle with being lonely and feeling desperate to connect to people. I've only recently come to realize whats probably been wrong since I was a kid. The last few years have been psychotic and I'm glad to have gotten into a DBT group because I never want to go back to...