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@The Albatross No, I have had similar experiences to you. I have terrifying flashbacks that make me feel like I am going absolutely crazy because I can't believe something so terrifying has happened to me. I am in therapy now... I suggest you talk to a therapist and start working through some of...

@TexCat Sexual abuse is as sexual abuse... Yes, it is a sad, horrible reality.

Have you ever felt death Trickling down the inside of your leg As a hand placed so fervently in your groin Flashback Where did my legs go? Spiritual paralysis. I am paralyzed A purgatory between the breathing and the dead I can move from one side to another But in water my...

In my sexual fantasies as a child, happened all the time and I was always dancing for a man and bending before him.

I had memories as a young 7 year old of fantasizing about being a sex slave. I think it was because of my abuse. Now when I first started having sex... I have submissive fantasies again and like the idea of a man degrading and abusing me. Like I want to be a perfect housewife that really turns...

@EveHarrington After my last trigger, I got what I would consider to be violent and completely emotional. I ended up in the hospital. It was absolutely terrible. Afterwards, I tried breaking up with my boyfriend because I couldn't handle the stress. Looking back on it... It is sad because we've...

See... I always had the memory of the man coming into the closet but I completely repressed the other stuff. Everything... All of the abuse. I remember when I had the flashback... I was like woah, I haven't remembered this in a really, really long time.

I have heard of the notion of false memories. Are false memories real? I always thought I might have been sexually abused as a child after I developed PTSD for two sexual assaults that happened at ages 18 and 19. When I developed PTSD, I started doing EMDR. One day during a flashback, I got an...

@Ragdoll Circus Thank you! That meant so much. I feel bad because everyone around me is exhausted by my trauma. Thank you for your help. It meant so much.

My PTSD has also made me super crazy.

What is IMHO? I see... I want to stop being so easily distressed but I feel like sexual abuse is all I can think about since my nightmares and body memories. I feel like I am going crazy.

Can someone help me?

I have been having PTSD symptoms ever since my sexual assault when I was in College. However, I have been in ample amounts of therapy and the PTSD hasn't gotten better. In fact, the more therapy I go to the worse the PTSD gets. My dad was an alcoholic and at times physically abusive. I have...

I keep having dreams of the guys who attacked me in high school. I have dreams where I am telling them what they did to me and they don't believe me. I have dreams where they're tormenting me and bullying me. And I have dreams where I am drunk, helplesss and sick. They always wanted to see...

I just recently posed a thread about work stress and how it causes me stressors so badly I lash out at my partner during the week. This ultimately puts into a full blown trigger every week... I mean dissociation, hyper-vigilance,rage... You name it. Like Eve Harrington, I've accepted I'll never...

Hello everyone, I am thinking about quitting my current job and taking a remote work from home job that might be a little more slower paced. One of the reasons is I just got diagnosed with PTSD this year, although, I've had it for a while. However, whenever I was healing before I had a lot...

@sonicwhite I don't really understand what happened here... But I am sorry for the lose with your ex. Sometimes, we have to let go of the people we love. That is showing them we love them the most.

@Stickler he also never takes any blame for his actions and immediately in the moments putts it on my ptsd.

@Stickler the shakiness and screaming happen after I try to get intimate and have sex. It isn't even the sex I'm worried about but the flashbacks.

@Stickler what do you mean by that? Wednesday we were fine. Until, we were the dinner table and he made a disgusted look. I asked him why and he said you were chewing with your mouth full. I immediately got quite and it reminded me of my father who used to say that to my mother and used it as an...

@Friday I think the worst part is when we fight, and I get so overwhelmed and depressed because my symptoms are so activated that I threaten to leave the relationship because I feel like it is the only sense of the relief I'll get in that moment. It is so hard, and then afterward I am so...

@Stickler Thank you so much. Do you think that will work?

I've recently come to terms with the fact I am abusive. More abusive than I want to be... I don't stalk, control or manipulate my boyfriend. However, if he says something that hurts me... I hurt him 5X more. It is terrible, and I can't tell if it is because I am so afraid of being controlled...

Wow that is really amazing. I totally agree. I almost have this abnormal fetishization whenever I have sex where I fetishize myself. I don't know how else to get turned on anymore. I like feeling like I am some object that the man desires because I can't feel anything else. I makes me feel...