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Thank you :( I'm calmer about it now. A little relieved I'll be able to stay with all my cats and not have to deal with logistics for a while. It's hard but it's fine

Maybe. They have today. The voucher expires on Sunday for some reason, though. Maybe if the landlord turns in their portion this weekend, it will be enough? I'm so stressed about things I can't get out of bed because I have to face what my life is now. I hate my life and I hate being...

I was having these issues while living with my mother. I'm not sure I'll be much help to you, though, because I eventually tried putting up boundaries and now I regret it deeply. My mother died suddenly and it's been hell having to deal with the fact that it turns out she wasn't trying to hurt...

It's in okay shape, I guess. Antique carpets need replacing. Has a tiny kitchen. I'm not sure what I want to do yet, though. There's benefits to staying and to leaving. I don't want to stay here because it doesn't feel like mine. It's still full of stuff. There's a possibility I may inherit...

I have gone through multiple plans in the last decade+ to try to get housing away from my mom's house. In the process, my mom died, my service dog died and I can't get another, every plan has failed in ways that are outside my control despite working so hard to make them work, and I've lost hope...

I MIGHT be in the will to inherit my mom's house. She lost her house because of my father using the balloon payment on the mortgage to instead buy drugs/alcohol, and obviously my mom couldn't come up with more money to pay it, so the house was foreclosed. My dad's stepmother, my late grandma...

I haven't heard from section 8 nor the landlord. My voucher expires on the 4th, so that's. Not great. :( It's frustrating because I was more than ready in January of last year, even began touring homes before they gave me the voucher, but everything went wrong that could go wrong. That, and...

In my email to them I said I am desperate for safe housing. And explained how horrible this year has been, but with wording that didn't specifically say that phrase. Very frustrating. What an awful year and decade this has been. I swear to G-d I was luckier as a child. I feel like a useless...

This is the best description of the current stressor

Things are still not going well :(

I socialized with my siblings and then went to my best friend's house to hang out and stop being too absorbed in the intense emotional destabilization. It's kind of embarrassing to say that was enough to help. I'm worried about going home alone again after that but hopefully some rest will help...

Oh, I forgot about that :0 that was really fun, hahaha :)

Thank you all

Happy whatever :)

That's true, you're right. I'm not sure why I said that part

I'm okay, sorry for the outburst

I apologize for being so dramatic.

I'm deeply worried the president has seen me being raped, through video. Worried the videos and pictures are more likely to get out. Not to make this about myself. I don't know why I'm worried about this, because in reality it doesn't change anything So I guess I just mean it makes me sad on a...

I wish I never existed. Damned if I end it, damned if I don't.

Thank you. I wish you hadn't said that, though. I've already decided that I don't want to survive this. I stopped being a slave and got free will and f*cked up so much. Miss my service dog. Gonna stay around for animals as long as they need me, but after that, I have my method and I'm years...

I don't have anything good to say. Left an awful rant in my trauma diary. Was going to quote it and drop it here but honestly I don't think I ought to. I shouldn't have posted this. I'm sorry.

I sound like a broken record. It's just the same thing month after month after month. Any bit of support I can get just vanishes. The more disabled I get the more inconvenient I am to everyone. All I do is sleep and when I feel myself waking up I become so sad. I don't want to be awake ever...

Haven't had a meal in three days. No food is appetizing and I'm out of pretty much everything again. I am so tired of being alive. I am so tired of this.

I couldn't get out of bed, but managed to. And it happened at yet another clinic. I could hear the manager in the back yelling. Employee came out and said I'm not allowed to make any more appointments because I keep being late or having to cancel. Didn't bother explaining the narcolepsy or brain...

Im not even sure what to put here or why I'm making a post. I usually delete these. I guess I have to cope for while I'm trapped here. But I don't want to live. I never have. I've been in therapy for ⅔rds of my life, since I was a child. I'm tired. I'm tired of being angry and sobbing all the...