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Thank you, katz. I could maybe accept my baby-self if there was a picture, but I could picture my baby-self to speak to him if I could accept myself. Catch-22!

Astrid_Shadow: I too suffer from nightly nightmares and hate to fall asleep. I have sleep apnea and when I don't use my BiPap machine the nightmares are much worse. Is there any chance you have sleep apnea?

Downsideup- I don't think I can be of much help to you. I self-harm, but only during raging fits. I don't want to hurt others so I strike objects, sometimes injuring myself. Come to think of it, I do pick at scales on my face and scalp (I have a skin condition) when I am especially anxious. It...

AllAtOnce: I agree that you are in the right place here in this forum, and I applaud your decision to participate! As for SC and nudity- I think there are people who would agree with your position even if they didn't have PTSD. Christianity would certainly (if observed closely) frown on...

I hear your frustration! It's tough feeling so bad physically and tougher when doctors don't/won't find the answers. There is still so much that science doesn't know about the brain, let alone how to fix problems with it. I wish I could send you more than understanding and wishes for a speedy...

Anonymous- It's unconscionable that some people can screw people over like that!

I'm glad it went well for you- and I hope the symptoms do go away soon!

Please take or leave the following as you see fit. Horns have long been associated with strength and power. Horned animals can use them for protection and for battle- think of the Vikings with the horns on their helmets! . In your dream you screamed and cursed at your ex- definitely asserting...

She Cat- I've dealt with double-vision myself and I know the process of fitting a corrective prism is exhausting! I can't imagine going through that with all the other things you are dealing with! Do you know how brave you are? As for your neck pain, could you see an orthopedist? If anyone...

I'd read that one solution for over-worrying/ruminating is to set aside a "worry time" in which you allow yourself to worry and then move on with your day. I'm trying the same with anger by listening to/singing along to Lou Reed's "Warrior King" this morning. It really is an angry, vicious song...

I know what you mean, Mashed Potatoes! My wife said she was worried a neighbor (we live in a townhouse) might call the police. There's a song by Lou Reed on his album "Magic and Loss" titled "Warrior King." I'm going to try to sing it the next time I start to go off!

Morphius- My therapist asked me if I would make a list of traumatic events in my life, the emotions they produced, and core beliefs that came from. She asked me to read it aloud. I was surprised that it sounded like I was reading a grocery list!! I guess for me verbalizing is a start- I guess...

I can relate to your post, Mashed Potatoes. I blew up big time over the weekend when the toilet stopped up. I pounded on the sink counter and almost punched a hole in a wall. Like you said, it's 0-60, no warming up, no seething building up. I even go beyond verbal to growling and roaring like a...

Thank you, Angelkeeper! Yes, I do feel those core beliefs etched in stone. I can recite the affirmations, verbalize alternate beliefs that my mind can accept as true, but my heart just can't accept them. If I could change it I would. All strategies and attempts are seen through the prism of my...

I thank everyone for their words of support and additional perspectives. There are many baby pictures of my sister, but I guess the issues involved in my deformity may have overwhelmed my parents. Both of my parents were adult children of alcoholics, so it's amazing that they did as well as...

Quotes from Robin Williams as the character Sy in the movie One Hour Photo: 1. “When people's houses are on fire, what's the first thing they save after their pets and loved ones are safe? The family photos. 2. "Family photos depict smiling faces... births, weddings, holidays, children's...

Lucid dreaming is the concept of first being able to remember your dreams in detail upon awaking, then being able to be aware that you are dreaming when you are dreaming, and finally being able to take control of your dreams and direct them to the positive. Exploring the World of Lucid Dreaming...

Richie- there is the concept of "Lucid Dreaming." There are books and websites on this topic, if that helps.

I've been on Klonopin for years- I used to take it a half hour before bed and felt groggy and fell asleep easily. Now it does nothing for me- I've developed a tolerance and my doctor doesn't want to increase the dosage (smart man!). So I'm stuck with getting no benefit from taking it while...

Nimali- I have OCD as well and have fallen into the "counting trap." I'll feel paralyzed by my anxiety- physically unable to move. I tell myself on the count of "5" (I have an obsession with the number 5) I will snap out of it and move. My therapist says my obsessing is a form of trying to gain...

SeekingAfrica- I'll try that about "curing" the ear worm. What's odd is that it's always a song I like- it just gets old hour after hour! My heart goes out to you having "one of those days." So often I find myself crying over the slightest thing- even a sappy TV commercial can get me going. I...

I've found silently (mentally) repeating a mantra provides relief at times. In Buddhism they call racing thought "monkey mind" and either vocalizing or thinking a mantra "gives the monkey something to do." The mantra does not need to be religious. I tend to use the Buddhist Om Mani Padme Hum or...

It seems certain that whatever baggage you have now will go with you to TN. If recovery was that simple we'd all move:) Change of any kind is very stressful, and moving is one of the biggest changes. Have you set up an appointment with a therapist and doctor where you are moving? Could you have...

If traditional talk therapy is not for you, you might consider acupuncture and/or EFT Tapping. Both utilize meridian points on the body to release blocked energy stored in the body. The Tapping you do on yourself- it's not somebody laying their hands on you. The acupuncture needles don't hurt-...

I can relate to your feeling better after some sessions and worse after others. I think both can be evidence of progress (how's that for an ambivalent answer?) As for qualities in therapist, I think it varies but there are some common denominators: One that makes a connection without enmeshing...