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So it has been around 2 weeks since I have updated the dairy, there has been no more triggers to do with work related related PTSD or my own personal demons. I have made peace with several traumatic events in the past and processed these accordingly. I have come to the point where I have met...

So with this I drank heavy on this occasion for 2 weeks, self harmed in my bath, I had daily thoughts of suicide in this case. When I reached out several times to reconcile the relationship I was burnt , no answer or rejected, the emotionally connect at time was strong, 1st love, ADHD , young...

So here I am Friday 25th November 2022 a week later and what a week it has been. So a week later I am emotionally drained, bit battered and a bit bruised in my head and emotionally. Expanding on my potential high anxiety moments , the storm is still present ie I am still in it but have...

So following on from my Counselling sessions on Monday is was a consolidation exercise. I had been doing an inventory of the trauma related incidents in work that I had been involved with and found that I have overcome much more than I realised. I have been doing group art therapy which I have...

So I am one week on from the break through inner child session. I have had to apply the handbrake because I dont want to get to carried away with my recovery process. I believe that I have moved up a level if PTSD recovery is a Mari Video came. I look at this as the old school Donkey kong Game...

Since the therapy on Monday I have found that the PTSD symptoms are reduced. It has now become apparent that my ADHD (combined) has been coming to the surface with vengeance. Prior to the diagnosis of ADHD I was not aware of that I have the condition but the more therapy that I now do , the more...

So to update for the last two days i have noticed an improvement in my mood and alot of the dark clouds have been removed. I felt like a massive cloud has been lifted or weight from my shoulders. I believe the inner child work on Monday has had quite a significant impact, more energy and...

Today i have been taking part in Art therapy which has been running as an extra to my EMDR , i found the art therapy really good to be honest in this case. I have found this therapeutic in drawing about my emotions which has been really impactive. I have found using the different art techniques...

Over the last 2 days has been a strange experience during EMDR therapy which led to the 'inner child' being identified. A concept I have been educated on by my therapist. This involved talking to my younger self on several occasions such as self-confidence, loneliness, self worth...

It has been over 2 weeks since i have had a panic attack which i am really grateful for. My baseline anxiety has significantly reduced. I have put this down to the EMDR working and my daily routine. I have also noticed, my resiliance , confidence, self esteem have slightly risen. I have noticed...

I do the EMDR virtually which incorporates a tapping technique

Yes my trauma is quite complex but keep at it, it will help in the long run I am definitely seeing the benefits

Been feeling alot better the last 3 days with a mixture of self care , support groups

I had a rough night, i had several flashbacks / nightmares to different incidents. I woke up startled when my wife put the light on, went back to sleep and they started again, i cam downstairs and they came one after another and to be honest. I wanted to boil my head and stop he racing...

Okay so had another reaction was watching a programme in the background and heard a 'gun shot'. Started to get upset and hypervigilance set in, started to disassociate, tried to calm it down and then tried breathing , seemed to grow more and more feelin gunsafe. This didnt take me back to a...

So another vent, i had another EMDR session yesterday which went well and got through alot of things especially raw trauma i dealt with during my time in the police. Today i was at my childs school, the children were singing in assembly the energy in the room was positive. Then for me i was...

Thanks alot for the support, i booked an urgent session with my EMDR therapist and got through it.

Thanks 👍 alot. That is tough yes got through it.

I thought I would use this to write when I have triggers. This morning I did my full morning routine, meditation, breakfast etc. In a good mood then my daughter innocently using her mobile phone. There was a video of a young child screaming high pitch. Then this set me off all the usual ...

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Wow i have just read that 4 times and i have never had it explained so clear and straightforward. Thanks for that. I fully understand what you are saying the thing which really shoke me to the core was one incident for example would be 'blood' during my work. This has led to several other...

Hi i am new to the site and stumbled across this site when trawling through the internet. The content on the site is really helpful and useful. It is good to see that we are not fighting the battle alone. I had a mental breakdown 18 months ago and the proverbial cup overflowed with several...