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I try to remember that as I'm relapsing lately. The worst symptoms are back. Grr.

Me too. Like my brain is short circuited at around 14. I mean i can take care of myself like pay bills and stuff just I feel vulnerable all time. Scared of my own shadow.

I totally agree. I'm the sufferer and I know sometimes I am a pain in the you-know-what but everyone has a breaking point and I respect that. I'd want everyone involved with me to take care of themselves too. Everyone needs a break now and then but that doesn't mean you don't care or that you...

I understand how you feel, believe me. But I'm learning people do pay attention and do care. But not in a judgemental way. That may not be what you were trying to convey. Maybe you were trying to say that people don't harass you but anyway. I've been reading your posts lately and, though we...

you hit the nail right on the head and that's exactly what I did. I love that boy.

I really thought I was nuts because of the stuff I did. When I had loose teeth, I'd drive the loose part, the part that broke off into my gum. Sometimes I'd taste blood.

Had bad thoughts again last weekend. Kept looking at my window ( on the second story). I'm sorry guys, was weak for a moment. When my parents argue ( which is alot), I look at that window. More than once I have wanted to jump. I hate it.

Thanks Glasgow. Nope, I'm newbie. Just started my healing really.

I just reread my post. Not good. It was me that wound up in in the ER. He tried to kill me. I was in serious pain.

I noticed I have thing about pain. I obsessively tongue cold sores to make them hurt. Or tweezing hair on my face. I feel alive. It's strange. But Now it makes sense. Once I even bit my hand. Very bad day then. My whole body was numb.

it's really scary. I hate it. It's like I'm almost not in control. Someone bumps me in the store or is rude to me or a person I'm with and it's like 'mama bear mode' or incredible hulk. I wouldn't hurt someone, trust me but I do get mouthy. My parents had to restrain me when my neighbor...

I felt like I was about ten. Which makes sense. That's when all this started even though I was 26 when this particular abuser came into my life. It was like I wasn't even there, like I was not in control of my body.

you're welcome. Don't hesitate to ask. That's what Anthony and the mods are here for. Good luck

That's ok and the others will correct me if I'm wrong. But the trauma diary section is to write down the actual traumas and your feelings. Believe me, some can be quite horrifying. I don't thnk you will get into trouble.

wow, that makes total sense.

Ah I see. I believe there are articles/posts on coping skills somewhere. I'm just learning myself.

that's good. That's where I'm at. In my diary, I try to rationalize things. Good luck

Welcome, I find that therapy is the best. Most here will agree. Because to bury it is to hold it in. There it can hurt you. We have many good people here who will help you get through.

I definitely have an anger problem. So you aren't alone.

that's what they did for me. I've taken several types. No one can figure out exactly. One says I have PCOS, the next says no. It's frustrating. I've been dealing with this since I was 14. And all they want to do is shift drugs I'm on or blame some other drug I'm on.

Me to, welcome to the forum

You're welcome and welcome to the forum. We can try to help you put the pieces together. but Amethist is right, not qite perfect but togther.

ohh my god, so do I. A light went on in my head. Maybe I should be reevaluated. I see a new T next week. I'll look into as I seem to fit C-PTSD more than PTSD there were a few seperate traumas. Not sure.

well said. I'm a very shy person but I wanted to help you and others. Keep fighting Thomas. I , for one, will keep fighting for you.

My mother had one. Scary. I'm scared for her as she thinks she's having another.