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The Mrs. I asked her to make a Dr. Appointment, cuz I was going to go to bed, I work overnights. She said no... So I'm up waiting for the office to open to make an appointment. I will not pick a fight, cuz, I don't want the drama......

Greetings Your preamble is well warranted. When I was on the front porch and the mrs came out and saw I was not right, and asked how I was..... My response was to her was to hide the guns.... she was taken aback by this, and I saw what she was thinking, I told her that no, I was not in that...

Greetings, my beloved coworker did not let me down. Found undelivered product that was not kept refrigerated from Monday. And alot of empty return product boxes, they were all heavy which is why they were left for me. How I hate my first day back, one of my clients called me out on my pasted...

Greetings I have a bit different take on this subject, it has been 9 years since the mrs and I have had relations. But it was nobody's fault, med issues on my part, then the change on her part, and then lack of interest from both of us. Problem is, my meds changed and now I am interested in...

Nothing today, get to cook and be creative, had a haircut, no roots in the sewer pipe so the basement is clean...... But tomorrow I go back to work and get to experience what my beloved coworker left for me because he didn't feel like doing it.

Greetings Upon reflection, I now feel that making the call to my safe person was the right thing to do ... He is an almost retired defense lawyer and is bs proof, he knew that if I called him, I was having issues. He took the call in stride and asked me some very specific questions , which I...

Greetings Made my first panic call to my safe person, and it was over the sully movie commercial, the trigger was when the pilot put his hands on the dash before impact....... I was a first responder for Air Florida flight 90 that crashed in the Potomac river in Washington DC.

Working up a good anger, my counterpart on my route does only what he has to, so when I come on duty I have to fix things. My bp is in triple didgets when I get home my first day back. Management is happy he shows up for his shifts.

I am to deeply entrenched on being an introvert to allow myself to be open in an artistic manner. G

14 hours yesterday, 11 hours today. This is fairly new, sleeping like this.

Incredibly alone...... Been happening more and more often.

Grrertings I am at the start of my journey and already I am sleeping 12 to 14 hours when ever I can. The memories being accessed are awful. As I had posted before, there is no one size fits all for recovery. I'm in a mess right now, you were in the clear for awhile, but now you know what you...

I'm having the urge to paint, like the afro guy on pbs. My father in law who was in an Alzheimer's care center, painted, and his works were beautiful! G

Greetings Let's say I'm a former first responder. There are so many awful memories, and yes I to wanted to win, but if I didn't win, they lost everything. This condition we all are dealing with has no one size fits all solution. Like I said, I'm new to this, but searching for peace of mind. G

Greetings Yesterday morning after I got off work (I work oovernights ) the Mrs was grousing about the landlord. Then she hit a trigger and I put my head down and stared at the floor, she came back into the room and asked 'what now'. I do have to say that I'm new to this and so is she, by new...

I need time to comment, but you are not alone ...

I was on the recovery barge at the Air Florida Flight 90 that crashed in Waah D.C. The arrogance of the captian killed that flight, and the things I had to do. I had it all nice and buried until a month ago now I'm reliving more and more of that event every day, sucks!

If I were a rich man.... Fm Fiddler on the roof..

Greetings I am introverted, but my base is rooted in a real life situation, it was posted 23jul titled blast from the past. Will go into detail if you wish. G

In the mid 80's I came within a hares breath on trigger pull on shooting a person who was a fellow LE partner. The recourring dream that followed was in a much different setting, and in the dream he shot first and I was hit. Well, I had that dream again a few nights ago, and it has me...

Greetings to all. Air Florida flight 90 It crashed into the river just after take off from Wash National Airport in the early 80's. I was there the next morning, now I can talk about the event no issues. However there are other parts that are not worth rembering, until now. I'm not liking...

Greetings to one and all! I have to take a deep breath and count to 4 ... hold it for a 2 count ... let it go on a 4 count. I have sought out help two other times and lied my ass off when the hard questions were asked, but not this time. I have asked 4 people to watch over me as we go through...

Greetings to the both of you. I'm new here myself and this site is wonderful, it has become the first and last thing I look at every day.. Take care G

It's like a stuttering speach pattern, too much info for a single outlet.

Air Florida flight 90, Jan 1982 I showed up the next morning and stayed there for two weeks on the recovery barge, that was where the (I still do not what to call them) were brought up to be photographed and inventoried. I saw so many awful things, but it seems my ptsd was already well...