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Some drug tests look for benzodiazepines. Shouldn't be a problem with job hunting - don't nee dto tell them unless you are operating heavy machinery and have to get specifically tested. I'm getting a CDL with them no problem.

I am so complete now..

I do the same thing for Law and Order: SVU! Also regarding Breaking Bad... let's face it, we all like a well told story! I think it's kind of normal to want more even if it hurts. Maybe it's forcing you to cogitate on things in a way that is overall positive, but hurts now? Law & Order: SVU...

My staple for work lately (because I'm a professional driver) is "It's not polite conversation, I'm afraid - I just felt you should know about the condition," or I say "Non-Combat" For instance during training I was very anxious and having heart palpitations - partially from anxiety and...

I have too. They can't empathize or sympathize.

It's all very confusing. Right now I'm having just nonstop auditory hallucination level flashbacks of things said to me during the abuse. Or are these considered intrusive thoughts because they're not a 'complete' experience? I'm not sure of the proper definitions.

The essence of the embrace the squiggle speech is that we must evaluate ourselves in the present moment and work with what we have every waking second because that's all we've got - no more, no less. We can have potential and we can strive toward goals and healing but every day is a new day and...

Hey you! I am an artist too. I have never experienced tremors so bad from PTSD (only slight during adrenaline dumps) but I feel for you. I personally lost my ability to work for over a year before my diagnosis. I just hated myself a lot. First things first - Have you seen an MD about the...

I had very concrete knowledge of what happened but forced myself to think that everything was normal and nothing was wrong and I wad meant to feel that way ad infinitum until I snapped like a brittle twig in a drought. I did definitely 'shut off' and disassociate during the event though. I...

Too soon indeed. Which is why I am uncomfortable with CNN displaying "Shooter suffered from PTSD after 9/11" over and over again on the ticker :(

CNN's ticker was concentrating on how the shooter suffered from PTSD since 9/11. Instead of feeling sad I started to feel paranoid and afraid - is PTSD the next scapegoat and the next media sensation target? I hope not.

Hello Ayesha, I am someone who was groomed at around age 14/15 by someone that I knew from the internet mostly but met at a convention. I can sympathize with you whole-heartedly and unfortunately you are not alone. The grooming aspect is something I still struggle with and is something that has...

Overall everything went well. It was uncomfortable a lot too, but I endured with no Xanax. I ended up drinking a fair bit every night too so that probably helped. A few craft beers from a local brewery and a glass of Glenvelet 12, not willy nilly binge drinking tho.

@MissAntiSunshine Of course I remember, MissAntiSunshine. How could I ever forget? It wasn't until after I came here and spoke to a few of you in chat that I decided to get therapy for myself. Anyway everyone I have returned from my symposium. I feel refreshed in that regard but am still having...

Thank you all for your kind words. I am away at a symposium until Sunday but I didn't want you to think I've forgotten about your kindness and encouragement, nor did I want you to think I'd hurt myself or anything. I will be back on Monday at the latest.

Thanks everyone. It's just so easy to let the words of others who don't wholly understand sink in. Wow, yeah. As much as I hate to hear about someone else suffering, it is also comforting to hear personal anecdotes that match what I'm feeling. I feel less lonely and isolated. There's more...

I never have but.. It is my biggest regret that I never pressed charges and now I never can.

How, though? When stress just seems to happen to me? :{

Thank you for your congratulations, it was very awesome to finally complete it. Sleeping as much as I can because I feel physically exhausted and drained a lot. It's sort of a fast-forward from the pain, too. At least it is until nightmares come again. This is the part that makes me hurt so...

I guess I'd put it at a 3 right now. I've felt paralyzed by some unknown force, I guess one that's entirely inside my head. I've stared at my garage door for hours feeling my body ache at the thought of moving it. Intellectually I know better, but it's amazing how this feeling is so dreadful and...

I am familiar with it but I just guess I wish it wasn't true. And when I try to explain it to other people, they see me as weak. Full of excuses and such. Why do people understand when we have the flu but not these invisible afflictions?

It's taking a lot of my energy to write this. I've been dealing with my PTSD OK during the past three years. Each year I had a flare up or two, a hard time dealing with anxiety and such. I was on meds for over a year and stopped them because I felt inhuman (SSRIs) now I just have Xanax. I just...

Painted this one last night while trying to use my art in a therapeutic way.

I use Adobe Photoshop CS5 and a Wacom Intuos3 tablet :)

New painting :) Got to spit out a personal projcet for a few hours