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I was taken advantage of by a neighbor boy who was 4 years older than me back when I was 9. He has epilepsy and perhaps other special needs - i never bothered to ask - and I honestly don't think he remembers ever making me do or see anything horrible. I'm very good friends with his sister and...

I feel like I should give up and wait until I turn 18 to deal with this. Maybe the next 3 years will fly by. I just don't want to deal with them yelling at me about this. It's making things far worse.

I called the hotline and spoke to a kind young woman. She didn't really know what to say to a lot of my questions but she referred me to another hotline for their input. I was biking around outside so that my parents didn't know it was a hotline, but when I stepped back in to write down the...

If you're feeling overwhelmed, one of the worst places to be is in a crowded classroom with your peers. At my school, you can leave class at any time to see a social worker, counselor, or to go to the nurse. Sometimes my friends get a little overwhelmed at go to the nurse, and she lets them lay...

I just wanted to say -- thank you all for the advice and support! I'm grateful that you all are by my side when it feels like everything is working against me. Much love.

My mom and my brother have been poking fun at me today. A minor inconvenience occurs and they say "why dont you see a shrink about it?", "put on your big boy pants", and "i'm sending you to the crazy home". I'm so tired.

Relatively well. She's the only person on my mom's side of the family that still comes around. It's an option to talk to her, but I get the feeling that it'll only make things worse... It might stir up some family drama or cause me to get reprimanded. I think I'll resort to hotlines but if that...

I spoke with my mom about seeing a T this morning and she was against it (as expected). She kept telling me that everyone is going through the same shit, my problems are nothing, and that she had it a lot worse. She said I should just start using drugs and alcohol, because that's what she and...

Yeah. This is what I've been thinking. I could be rather vague about it but also just ask the teacher if they can support me when needed. This is all so complicated and the situation has been bubbling up inside for so long. I'll try asking my parents if I can see a T this week and if they shut...

My parents aren't bad, but they are not the type to open up to since you know you'll get shut down. I'd really just like to see a therapist to help me personally develop and learn to cope with my situation. I guess the "thing" is that I really don't want my parents to find out what happened...

No. The only time I've acknowledged it is on this forum.

Mandatory reporting is a fear that I have as well... I really just want to be able to get this weight off of my chest rather than go through it all again legally. I don't know if they need to report it if it's not a current issue, though (i.e "i used to be suicidal" vs "i'm going to end my life...

If they do say no regardless, I could speak with a teacher... I'm just afraid that it'll cross a boundary. I always thought about doing it but could never work up the guts to do it. Thing is, I'm not down with speaking with my counselor because she got visibly uncomfortable when I began to tell...

Hello all, I'm 15 years old and have been suffering flashbacks and extreme anxiety regarding sexual abuse that I experienced when I was 9 and 12 years old. I never told anyone since I am very reserved, so I thought it would be a good idea to go to therapy. My family is all about "bottle it up...

I really have the urge to skateboard while holding onto the back of my friend's car. Or even destroy a car. Is that too crazy?

Personally, I do not feel empathy. I may say things to reassure whoever I'm speaking with, but most of it doesn't come from my heart. Like other posters have said, we've become numb. I've been called a "rock" plenty of times due to an inability to express negative emotions, sympathy, and...

I feel sick. And empty. I haven't felt like this for a while. I need a nap.

I haven't actually; I just saw the cost of all the therapists near me and I didn't even think to check anything like that. Thanks for bringing this to my attention!

Unfortunately I can't afford to go to therapy. That's one of the main reasons why I'm here. I really appreciate everyone's support though; it has made me feel far less alone and afraid :)

Relationships, intimacy, vulnerability, trust... I hate being aware of these things and almost longing for them, but then getting immensely uncomfortable when I come in contact with them. I almost shudder when people touch me... :confused::( But most of all, the garage where my abuse happened...

@EveHarrington this is exactly the point i've been trying to get to. False memories aside, it is possible but the only person who can know is you.

Most of the studies are cited in Pendergrast's book, which is why I recommended it. I could go dig some up but I wouldn't be able to provide links. I'm not really a fan of Psychology Today either :laugh:. I just referenced it because it was an interesting blog post that led me to further...

I guess everyone's different with their experiences. Although while reading it I did have some questioning about whether what happened to me happened (which makes total sense), I was able to confirm it. This book did contribute to my healing process, as I did feel like I learned a lot about...

I'm not allowed to post links yet, I guess (lol) but here's one of the first articles that sparked my interest on memory. It's quite general, but it's a short and simple read. It's called "Reconstructing Memories with the Stories We Tell", on Psychology Today. Really, if you're skeptical of...

Yes, I do have PTSD. I'm not implying that anyone would purposely fake a flashback, if that's even possible. Some people flinch when there isn't an incoming threat. Some people have flashbacks to things that have never happened to them, causing a great deal of confusion. I'm not trying to say...