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One hour of hot yoga. I walked there and back, about 1/2 mile. Then I proceeded to buy ice cream on the way home and eat it....lol.

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Dan, you can go through all the what ifs and all the decisions you would have made differently, but most often than not, it harms you to think this way. It doesn't help at all. It is done. Let that grief come over you, but also be strong while you feel it. When trauma happens during the...

Hi. Another midwesterner. I'm a mom too. From what you wrote, I believe you are a strong person who stands by what she believes in. You are loyal to family even when they are not loyal to you or your interests. You are a hard worker, a generous person, driven, and compassionate. I have no doubt...

Looks like I killed the thread! Here's my positive forward action. I'm going to paint a portrait of my oldest daughter. She has a beauty that will be difficult to capture on the canvas. I hope to get started next week. Then, after that, I have another commissioned painting of a seascape.

That dentist appointment would be traumatizing for anyone. @shimmerz just posted exactly what I was thinking. Sounds to me that this sensitivity is the product of releasing all that is trapped in there. I can't think of a good analogy....maybe how it feels to get a cast taken off? Or a splint...

You must go outside. Take it small, like you are doing. Look outside the window. Go outside to get the mail, or sit on the porch for a count to ten. Gradually get to a point of walking twenty steps and walking back. Little steps every day. If you keep going down this path of fearing triggers...

Hot yoga for an hour today. It was better than the one hour I did on Monday. I think I had some heat exhaustion on Monday. I dank more water and electrolytes during today's session. Much better.

When you are being judged, scored, or tested, it seems like everything is put under a microscope. That is not really what it's like. Most profs look at your results rather than your attendance. If you feel that your absences are excessive, ask the prof what they would like you to do in exchange...

Maybe you felt misunderstood or you didn't get the response you expected? I think I do this a lot. Sometimes I ask the exact same question because I didn't listen to the answer (too busy trying to formulate my words into something else that makes sense). This might not be the case here, but...

Maybe it doesn't have to be about preventative measures like you are asking (diminishing hope), but rather, deal with the "thud"? There has to be a way to gently be disappointed. To let it motivate you to do better. Or to give you clarity instead of despair. Are these expectations you can...

Wanting your life to end and wanting your pain to end are very different things. With enough pain, many people think death is the only answer. You were strong enough to turn away from the window because you care about people. You are strong enough to get through another day. You are strong...

I'm sorry you are feeling this way. The pull to sleep is quite strong. I hope it lifts when you see your granddaughters. May their energy spread to you and lift your heart and your mind with good spirits.

I don't believe I've had a miscarriage. (it's iffy. When I was in high school, had a positive result but got my period the next day.) But I do have dreams of missing children. Or children hurt or harmed directly from my actions. One was about cooking where my daughter fell into the gas burners...

Mine is a black dog. Sometimes it's quiet in the corner. Other times it's growling, and at times it's attacking. Mine is outside of my body though...interesting thought. @Lewa I'm starting to see that I'm recovering faster. I can't see it when I'm in it. When I'm in it, I feel like there is no...

It's possible. Very possible. I have many things in common with you. I understand where you are and it's a painful stage. Everything just feels like it's raw and open. What I did differently is that I made sure it didn't come into the bedroom. I made sure to do it. I kept my eyes open so I could...

Ah...this is going to be hard to take (it was for me), but that former self will not come back. It doesn't mean you are stuck. Not at all. If you work hard in healing, get to a point where triggers no longer affect you at all, you will find your new personality. As soon as I let that former...

No, you're not wrong. In many ways, emotional affairs hurt much worse than sexual affairs. Sexual is a betrayal of lust, emotional affair is the betrayal of a best friend. And like any affair, she may love the act of cheating more than the actual person. The excitement is addicting...

I push away to see if they come back. That they love me despite all that is wrong. If they can put up with all the ugly inside, then they are for keeps.

Welcome Reformed. I'm glad you are here. I'm sure you know this already...but you've got a lot going on. (I have four kids..so yeah) Congratulations on your little one coming! That is exciting! I'm sorry how you were treated when you were young. Every kid deserves someone in their corner...

@Glitterkitty I used to have a blanket tent in college. :( I'm sorry. It's hard to see beauty through pain. I'll send you a pm of my in progress.

@Glitterkitty I finally jumped back into an "easy" painting. I'm doing a part of a master: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nymphs_and_Satyr I'll be doing the upper left box to the hand that is holding the satyr's horn. There are other artist friends that are doing other parts. Being a copy, it's a...

@Glitterkitty LOVE that.

My hubs knows all of it in scientific terms. I don't answer questions. And I try not to go into my feelings per say. Although most of the time, my face and my emotions erupt anyway, but not with words. He has been very supportive. He understands and supports me as long as I am helping myself get...

I love the analogy. It works.