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@falling_wave I understand where you are coming from. Its like you just don't know what to do with yourself. I hate it when I have times like this as it is really hard to get through. I hope you can find something to keep you busy over the weekend. We are always here to talk to :)
I think a lot of us feel like this too. It can be something so small but to us it is huge.
Wouldn't life be great if we could protect our self like this!
I feel your pain and know how hard it is to get through these feelings. Remember to breath, slow deep breaths it really does help to ground...
@Nighthawk I too can empathize. I have recently been dropped from my T as she is taking some time out so could not see me regularly anymore and she felt I needed to see someone on a regular basis (I have a new T now) I had been seeing my old T on and off for 10 years. It broke my heart when she...
Im sorry you have gone through this with your therapist. I have gone through similar and I can feel your hurt and abandonment. It really does sux and hurt when things like this happen. :(
If this is the first time anything like this has happened can you at least go back for another session to...
An old ex from years ago would constantly lie. He was a nice enough guy but the lying I couldn't deal with. Would lie about money, who he had been with, what he had been doing etc. I already had trust issues and I just couldn't deal with the lying. Hence he is now an ex!
My thoughts are you are...
Yay that's awesome, well done! :)
I don't think you should cancel this week though. Im sure your therapist will also be proud of you for your achievement :) :)
My head knows this my heart and that little child inside that wants to be loved and cared for is the problem, I guess this is why im in therapy! I find the therapeutic relationships one of the hardest relationship ever, its not a "normal" relationship.
umm kinda of a long story.
Basically I got dropped very suddenly by my old T. She was taking 5 weeks off and only told me at the end of the last session with her before she was taking the time off. This was on a fri and I had my next appointment scheduled for a fri in 5 weeks time. She said in...
I totally understand this, and this is where my problem lies. This T is an older woman like my last T so they are like a mother figure and like you I crave a mother figure who is kind and caring. But my head knows that I shouldn't get attached as they are not my mother and never will be. But...
I doubt myself all the time with everything I do.
I feel like I shouldn't feel the way I do because my abuse was nothing compared to what others have been through. I should just be able to pull myself together and get on with my life
Yes this is true and I know it.
It just brings back all my fears of liking a T and trusting them and then they drop you and you are left hurt and abandoned.
I just make things so hard for myself
I have an appointment with a new T on weds. At the moment I am really looking forward to this appointment as I really want to work hard on myself which I was getting no where with my last T.
I however want to tell this new T that I don't want her to be caring or kind or anything like that. I...
Im sorry I have no words of advise for you but I understand how terrified you must be!
Try and take deep breaths, focus on your breathing. Can you contact your T for some support?
Take care of yourself
I know what you are going through as I got dropped by my T on Monday. It hurts!
But hopefully you can move onto someone who is a better fit for you and can actually help and understand what you have been through. Also talking through how you feel about the end of this T with a new person will be...
I could never call a hotline etc as 1: I don't like talking on the phone and 2: I don't like talking about stuff to someone I don't know and trust, they wouldn't get anything out of me.
I have never attempted suicide because I am scared I would not do it properly and like you have said end up...
Way to go! I hope you feel proud of yourself for going to the party, that is a huge step. :)
I like you avoid most social situations as I always just feel so uncomfortable and like I don't fit in.
(hugs) I am having a shit day today as well. Hate days like this where I feel so lost but cant pull myself out of it. I went to the movies last night with 2 old schools friends, I felt so out of place like I shouldn't have been there with them! It really is a struggle at times. I moved from...
I think I probably will! The thing is she most likely wont even care, will just shrug it off and think oh well. I think that's the part that hurts the most, she doesn't seem to care.
Hi @J_trustno1
I feel exactly the same way as you, I could have written this thread myself. I get so easily hurt by others words and actions and I really hate that I am so soft. Im sorry I don't really have any advise for you but just wanted to say you are not alone feeling this way.
To the...
No her words were "I will be unavailable to all my clients until mid April" But she did the same last time she was going away told me at the last session before she was going to be away. Which was why I asked her this time why she doesn't give any notice as it wasn't the first time she has done...
Scout, thanks heaps for sharing your story with me. Argh I am so lost and confused now. I txt (I dont have her email address so can only txt her or ring her home number as she works from home but don't want to ring, hate talking on phone) my T last night to ask for the details of the other T she...
I have this same problem as well and I sometimes type a message then delete it. I am not very good with words or explaining what I mean. There are some amazing people of here who give such amazing support and advise. I am very thankful to these people but like you wish I could support others...