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I could never have a Safe Place. I do not believe in safety. It's the only thing I am certain of. That nothing, even my mind is not safe. I was in-patient when the concept of a safe place was brought up and I resisted and went into further panic when it was mentioned. So eventually I came up...

I think you should definitely tell both therapists what happened and how it has affected you since that appointment. Have you thought about limiting/breaking of contact with your father and grandfather or setting boundaries (like you need more notice upon them visiting)?

I think it's great that you are working so hard to follow directions and take as little as possible. I've had abdominal pain and was on narcotics for awhile. A lot of the time the meds didn't get rid of the pain, but every now and then my system allowed it to work and it did feel good to just...

I can relate. I, too, feel that weekends are hard because there's more time around my kids and husband. Sometimes we have great times together, but then I feel completely exhausted. I have other times when I am easily irritated or too anxious to participate in things. I allow myself breaks...

It was a huge step for me and since it went well, it's even better. I have a ton of other trauma stuff to work on, but it feels good to be making progress with being in a car for long periods of time. So since I had my aunt and cousin over and my cousin had her fabulous 16 month old golden...

I'll explain the title don't worry. I was in a car accident almost 4 years ago. I hate this time of year. Everything about fall reminds my body and then my mind about that horrible night and the months that came afterwards. Until a year ago I hadn't driven more than a mile by myself. I hate...

Made it back yesterday!

That sounds too fast and I know for me that kind of thing has sent me reeling into dark places that were hard to pull back out of. If you're not comfortable with it, I would try to find another therapist. One that definitely knows how to work with trauma. I don't do any EMDR, but I don't...

I understand this. I am guessing the same thing about why train whistles bother me because I know I lived by train tracks during a time during my life when one of my traumas was most likely occurring, but I don't know the facts and I feel the need to figure it out, but really there is no way...

I am. I find the creepy. There may be a reason from my past that connects to trains, but I am not sure. I just know I hate train horns and whistles.

I haven't really been in touch with my kids, but I did leave them a message when I left and sent a text to my husband of me blowing them kisses last night. I hope that will help them with that as well.

I did a lot of searching and reading of reviews on Amazon. Got overwhelmed and finally just picked a pair. I got a pair of Pro for Sho ones that muffle sound. They work fabulously. When my kids were arguing (which can often send me into flashbacks or switching) one day, I put the headphones...

Made it to the event and back (it was a four hour trip each way). I didn't drive, but being a passenger is even harder, but it went well. Headed back home tomorrow. It will have been 4 days in cars, but I have been able to enjoy myself. Used my new sound muffling headphones yesterday at the...

Wow, what a hard and stressful day! Pat yourself on the back for making it through even if you think it was horrible, you made it through some tough stuff.

@galens47 , I don't want to be broke either. I am sorry that you feel broken. It's a hard thing. I want to offer some advice, to say some profound words, but I don't know if I have any. One thing I have learned is that broken or not, I can't avoid the feelings or the past, they just keep...

@Renee123 , I can only imagine how you must have been feeling. I always thing that fire drills mean danger, but I've never been through what you have. I haven't read all of your posts, but in one, you said you didn't have a counselor/therapist. It doesn't matter if you are the only one who...

I couldn't handle fire drills- known or unknown- and I was the teacher. I often had to let others take over my class and do a "different job" at the time. What job? Cower behind the shed so no on would see me until the drill was over. Do you have skills to calm yourself after it is over...

That is such a good idea. I think I will make sure to journal with parts about that. Thank you! I made it to my friend's house safely. I drove for about 5.5 hours all alone in the car. That's the longest I have driven since my car accident almost 4 years ago. I used to love driving. Today...

I am going on a 4 day trip starting later today. I have been so excited about this trip. I have also been in a calmer place in the last week and a half or so. It's been nice actually. Now, after something I heard as part of a sermon in church (basically some biblical history that I...

Perhaps it's the fear of labels and the fear of not understanding what this means? Who gave you the diagnosis (the hospital, therapist, self)? Do you have a therapist that she could come in and talk with to get some education on what PTSD is? Sometimes educating them helps. It helped with my...

This line just really stood out to me. I think that I, too, would like to trust people including myself, but it's the myself part that is tricky for different reasons, but that is kind of a realization I just got from your post. While you start entering into this therapy, which I really hope...

It has an ebb and flow for me. I will go through periods of ideation and then periods of no such thoughts. For me, I remind myself that I have gotten through the hard days before and I will get through these ones, too. I don't always believe it though. I also remind myself of small to big...

Sounds like she helped you, too. Thanks for sharing this uplifting story.

You may have been in one place, and still you may feel fatigued because when the mind goes through so much, our bodies have to deal with it, too, and often become tired and need that recuperating time. Having a few quiet days sounds like a good plan though either way.

I experience time loss because of dissociation. I have DID and it's hard sometimes. I went shopping this morning and meant it to be a quick in and out trip, but an hour passed and barely knew what I'd been doing, but at least I had been in the store. The library is one of my "safer" places to...