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I drive through a lot of locations where traumatic events happened, it has been a long time since i was aware i was in that place every single time. now i am able to slide by without a reminder mist of the time. So, how do you prepare to not think about something? Just the act if prepping for...

you are correct, my views were on full display and the reason and method i laid out the argument as i did weighed heavier than my conclusion. quicker cleaner and straight to the point: my tip and my trick for survival is accepting that my PTSD may be multiplying the actual danger in the current...

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@anthony PTSD in the current political climate…….oh crap, what is my brain trying to warn me about? PTSD is our flight/fight reflex stuck on and causing problems for us if it looks like past events are going to be repeated and we are going to be traumatized, right? So, i fear political...

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The book I referenced to earlier is titled: Rejected Shamed And Blamed by Rebecca Mandeville. Sorry, dont know how to put the italics into a phone keyboard. I found it a great help in deciding what had been going on, and i found lots of insight into why and how. It helped me feel like part of...

love it. Paretto’s instinct for combinations. I am definitely on this side of his binary divide, this plus this played on that, gidee up!

add the ill affects of being the lone dissenter from a cult religion and you have the ingredients for a really awful soup that lasts decades, over fifty years for me. My family of origin has been out of my life for almost fifteen years now, most are dead, but the marks left on me between the...

am the end result of my parents attempt at brainwashing me into their religion and the traumas that I experienced because I fled from their cult. No one dives headlong into the world at 14 with no damage from the experience, I am just another survivor with dings and scars. Could have been worse...

I am immersed in a sea of pro current leadership co workers, we are for the most part blue collar hourly guys so yeah, it follows i guess. Not for me. So survival is swallowing my anger when i hear the rhetoric and biting my tongue when engaging in a debate is a fools errand. I am also 30 years...

This one keeps coming back around these days: From plants to presidents and all things in between, if we allow unwanted behavior we will get more of it, every time. Me, circa 1977 while pruning landscapes during the Carter administration, post Nixon/Ford. Nothing new under the sun.

clean on all fronts. Clarity can be a mother. But it definitely beats the alternative, cant work out the problems you have lost sight of in the fog, getting better at not spending the whole night working on them.

i was given a drug that all but eliminated the worste of the symptoms, let me sleep and even feel joy most days, then told to use it sparingly. When i complained that the periods of relief that i thought should be all the time were too brief, i was given another form of the drug and told to use...

love them all but big dogs have an energy conservation thing going that makes me want to hang out with them, and them with me, cool old music or latest releases?

coffee in the morning favorite car that was a current model when you got your drivers license?

when seeing ghosts sounds better than seeing corpses and gruesome injuries. When sleeping is something that happens only after a lot of hours spent wishing you could. When intrusive thoughts arent that intrusive anymore because they are what is in your head yesterday today and tomorrow anyway.

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anxiety is maybe my biggest symptom and the hardest to shake. Nightmares are often no more than the waking with a high level of anxiety, panic attack really, much more than a remembered dream should have caused if I even remember the dream. It comes from getting late night response calls where...

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put me down as a strong proponent of running the stock set up whenever possible. A clear view of the battle at hand is superior to feeling better about the little corner of it you can see in the fog in MHO. Coming up on a year solid Northwest Sober, ie coffee still crosses the blood brain...

i worry about the fragility of our society and the ongoing overseas conflicts. I worry that the world needs leaders that are capable of rising to the challenges now more than ever but the leaders we have take stability for granted, as do their followers. hope they are right but prepare for not...

today, with sworn reporters and child services, the chances of being passed over and left in my hell would be much less. In 1972-1976 i didnt have a chance. When i was being beaten and brainwashed i wouldn’t have been believed after the social workers pulled up to the house and saw the dirt...

i finally gave up on waiting for a road rager that caused damage to my truck to do the right thing and avoid using his insurance to pay me. His insurance company assured me i will be made whole. he should have paid me, he should have looked at the police report. Now he will at least pay many...

for f*cks sake. rioters are rioters and hostages are hostages. black is not white and birds are not lug nuts. if the only people you want to lead are the people that think rioters are hostages, knock yourself out. Has my trust been written off as unobtainable on day one because i know the...

i find myself hoping for a situation that would justify a release of anger energy. At some point along my path i think i started equating eating anger with swallowing pride. Getting full and not digesting well lately. Someone please pop my cork, large quantities of regurgitation await you. I am...