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So I was molested by women as a child. This includes forced oral sex and object rape. I mostly had crushes on guys, but in college met a girl and I loved her. I was SO attracted to her. I tried to date her, but I was uncomfortable. I came to the conclusion that I am bi, but go more hetero...

So, does any one else ever feel jealous of their therapist? I really did not struggle with this (maybe a little bit), but now its hitting me hard. My therapist is beautiful, with a family, highly educated, intelligent, gets to travel, go on vacations. I know she sleeps really well. She is...

Hi, I know how you feel. I am an artist with a theatre background. I know what you mean about the stage not being a trigger. I am trying to express what it means to have trauma in my art.

I know, I totally just jumped into another problem. It is because the session was so good and I felt so good and then I went home and crashed and had really good, deep sleep. She really calms down my nervous system. But, then I woke up and I had to sabotage it. When I was first pregnant with my...

So, the problem is now I noticed her wedding/engagement ring and I know she is planning a big trip where she will be gone for 2 weeks and completely unreachable. I am going to casually ask her about it, because well that would be an ok thing to ask about, the ring is really obvious and glitzy...

So I just talked to my T and it was one of those deep sessions. Sometimes it feels like I am a compass that is all out of whack and then I see her and she sets me right. We talked about love and how I feel too invisible to be loved. We talked about the things that had me upset and worked thru...

Acupunture is great for sleep, just expensive. I also use a weighted blanket.

Thanks @UnicornSightings that helps a lot. I am going to talk to her today. I just would rather quit therapy than bring it up with her.

I am strongly leaning towards taking a break or finding a new T. I don't know if I really want to this or will do this. Sessions with her can be brilliant. She really understands me and I feel works hard, just as hard as I do in each session and I have made progress. But last night, she just...

No, if I did this I would get email privledges revoked. I am going to have to find a way to talk to her about these issues, but it is hard because I hate doing that. I get very black and white thinking and I tell myself, if you complain well then she will be offended and not want to be your...

Yes, I kinda feel like my T is like your two T's combined. I used to think she hated me and would reject me, but thats better now. Accept for now, I am feeling the insecurity again. I had been in a good place with her because she is just so steady. I cannot handle her caring either. She will...

Yes that helps. I am a teacher and I cannot care about my students outside of work. I am getting a lot better with my maternal transference, but the anxiety has come up again. How was your mother? Did it feel like she never really saw you? That is the problem. My T sees me. And it fills me with...

Yes, the distraction due to the workers was once, but it left me disconcerted. I am going to talk to her about my name. She can be a bit not on top of it outside of sessions, but really on top of it in sessions, I guess thats what matters right? She always remembers what I have told her and is...

Ok, so I have a trauma focused T whom I love that I have seen for 2 and a half years. She has really helped me with the anxious avoidance attachment issues that get stirred up when we talk about my mother. We were talking about my mother this past week and there was all this construction noise...

I just watched the preview. I don't want to judge a movie based on just the preview, but towards the end they had a doctor saying, "You are not stuck with the brain you have. I can make you better and I can prove it." Or something like that. If there is to be a movie about this hopefully it...

Hi, so I completely understand that feeling about how you don't know if you should love or hate your abuser and how you can have good memories along with bad. My mother could be a really good person at times, but she had a lot of blind spots. That is how I think of it. I got hurt because of her...

Hello everyone, I wanted to start a thread exploring movies and how narratives, scenes, and characters can be useful in healing from past abuse. I think for me, movies have helped me understand and begin to heal from narcissistic abuse. My mother has created an enmeshment with me and so in...

So I gave my psychiatrist who did therapy (and saved my life) a gift for her baby. She enthusiastically opened it, muttering that she cannot accept gifts, but that the (unborn) baby can accept gifts! So, this isn't exactly a direct gift. You are bringing tea for the office. The quotes remind...

No, it seems this way to you because he is bullying you/harassing you. I work in a Middle school/high school and if he gets into trouble then he will not be getting a way with this atrocious behavior. When people act like this, they actually feel deep insecurity and so acting like this gives...

You are in a tough situation, but it will pass and you can get through this. And this guy is an asshole. Is there a teacher you can talk to? Maybe somebody that you feel in your gut you could trust? I have worked in Christian/Catholic schools before and I am actually very liberal. Maybe there is...

I struggle with this as well. I still feel like I am a piece of shit. This just feels like a deep truth. One thing I can say is that cbt type of therapy does not work for me with this issue. It is relational validating therapy that works. So a skill to use is to validate myself.

I think if you are looking for insight, this is a pretty good one: This is very wise and well said. Can you apply this to your current relationship? You can change your behavior. What are you looking for from us? Insight? It sounds like you are in denial. Perhaps look into why you define a...

I chose Scarlet because I was pregnant 8 years ago and I was going to name the baby that possibly, but then suffered and early mc so didn't want to use the name again for when I had children. I am happy I get to use it. I love the name because it means red, a bright beautiful red, but this can...

I am a woman. Guess you could tell that by the name I chose. That raises the interesting issue of what we think a person's gender is by their name.

Yes, take those meds and sleep it off. That is what my psychiatrist said to me. Klonopin got me through some rough med reactions. Also, it must feel good for a doc to confirm this could be a med reaction. This might feel more real and something that can be helped. My trauma t said that people...