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I recommended finding a therapist that specializes in PTSD especially with other things you deal with (like if you had alcoholic parents, sexual abuse, etc).
When I say specialize, I mean they mention it in their bio, not it's on the list of a million things they claim to treat (no one is good...
I've been there. It's better it not dig around memories. Your body and mind will show you when it wants to via flashbacks, nightmares, etc if you have PTSD. But going looking for it? Not anymore. There was a time I felt I needed to know exactly what happened to me so I could process it and move...
Thank you for your service. It's not easy doing what you do and it's so often underappreciated.
I don't really have any advice. But I'm wondering if you could switch to another, quieter, less stressful job instead?
I don't know anything about medical retirement.
I still have to work through it more, but he abused me in multiple ways. I've done therapy, made art (painting specific moments and feelings), I've journaled, and written poetry and stories, I've talked about it to people that would listen. It's a lot of work.
My ex helped me to find my...
My dad did the same to me except without acknowledging what he was doing. He said "I just love you so much".
I didn't realize it until I French kissed my boyfriend at 19 years old. I felt a sense of despair that my first kiss had been stolen by him.
It's horrible and it's perfectly valid as...
I got some tips.
I told everyone I really care about (my family, and daycare provider) that I keep my phone on do not disturb when I'm working so if they have to contact me in an emergency to call twice in a row back to back to override it. There's other similar filters you can use on your...
So I guess what I would say (best I can explain) is it's more than a mood shift. My behavior, posture, motivations, personality traits (introversion, extroversion, outgoing or withdrawn etc) shift, often in a completely opposite extreme as my "normal self".
That's understandable... I don't feel very comfortable being out in the dark especially certain areas. People just tend to be crazier, high, and generally up to no good at night in the dark. Nighttime is a perfect cover for crimes.
The mice thing took me back (in a good way!). When I was a...
When this happens to me I usually blame it on being busy even though I'm not busy and purposefully keep it that way. My life has a delicate rhythm, I say no to what doesn't work for me. It keeps me sane.
People understand busy. They don't understand mentally ill. Frankly, I don't want them to...
Sorry if I got too rambling and over sharing in my previous message. Basically, take it slow so you recognize red flags and signs when they come and also recognize green flags. And aren't attached too soon so you can see signs and traits for what they are. Know what your deal breakers are (maybe...
You'll have to leave that guy. You can try to find a roommate or be someone's roommate. Check if any friends or family would take you short term. It is expensive, especially to live by yourself.
As far as not getting into relationships like that again, take things slow (even uncomfortably...
This makes me think. Growing up I was afraid of the dark, but really I was afraid of demons or some paranoia (like being afraid men were hiding in my room, bathroom, or outside my window waiting to get me). So honestly darkness was the only thing I had words for. I never told anyone about the...
I think a lot of disorders (personality disorders, bipolar, cptsd) can also have personality splitting as long as the person experienced trauma from a young age. Yes, it is complex, lots of people have trauma but don't end up splitting or having cptsd, etc, it all depends on genetic factors and...
So I can't speak to her and what all she has going on personality-wise. So please understand I'm not trying to diagnose her. I have personality splitting and some quotes and contradictions that she has I can definitely relate to with having personality splitting.
So personality splitting is...
What ISN'T closure?
I think about when my ex broke up with me over text and blocked me.
I think about when I had a friend do similar. Something I said over text pissed her off and she said we couldn't be friends anymore and blocked me.
I think of when I told my kindergarten class "I'll see...
Would love to know what others think as well... I think it's an illusion for a lot of us. A good amount of us on this forum have experienced such unspeakable betrayals that nothing could set it right. If closure does exist... A lot of us never see it.
Came here to say what @Sweetpea76 said. She could have personality splitting like where one part of her is all those dark manipulative traits and the other part is this wholesome Christian girl. Could be any of a myriad of personality disorders, especially if you consider splitting too.
Heck...
I wasn't offended! I was just saying that there's many factors to healing and I'm still on my own journey.
Changing your name will help. I changed my name as well. My middle name was meaningless to me, plus my dad chose it and my last name was my dad's so I changed both. I love my name now, I...
Lots to unpack here.
So I think (personal opinions) unconscious victim mentality can be internalized behavior and beliefs that you haven't dealt with. For example, despite years of martial arts training, when someone would punch me I would lay down instead of fight back. Something clicked in...