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Honestly, I don't think COCSA is ever "simple"... But I do think you could benefit from reconnecting with her. Though she may not really see the incidents as SA (just throwing that out there). She may see it as you both were messing around, interested, or whatever.

This was hard for me to understand growing up, but yes rich people don't usually spend money on a lot of things unless they're a certain kind of rich people and middle class people are broke because they spend money on dumb things like name brand stuff, new cars they can't afford etc.

That's rough! I don't think disability would really solve your problems though because you're limited in how much money you are allowed to make and disability isn't much. That said I hope you can find something more fulfilling 🫠

Wow that's wild. Where do you live?

Yeah, that doesn't really work. In my area, childcare does pay higher than minimum wage, but not 2-5 times. Daycare is the cheapest option because they basically throw the kids in a playroom, in a dog kennel style 🤣🤣🤣 we managed to pay minimum wage for childcare by hiring teenagers over the...

Based on @Friday 's description, mine are almost always anxiety attacks, though I can't say I really tend to differentiate. Over time, I learned to calm myself down. At first, I started to resist the urge to stop or control it, instead letting it run it's course. If I was in public, I'd go...

I love this response because you address every aspect of my original post and put it altogether in a nice package. My family and I are lucky enough for my husband to have a very stable, well paying job, and he's good at it. If something happened to his career or him, I could simply work more...

I said "average woman", but maybe I really meant "average person". Which doesn't have to do with whether you're satisfied in your job or not, except that if you're more intelligent or entrepreneur-mind you might not really "fit the mold". I also work in a female-dominated career and have worked...

For me personally, I enjoy working part time as an interpreter and staying at home the rest of the time with my baby. I thrive with that lifestyle. But if I work full-time I lose my mind, like I can't do it (I could suck it up if I had to). But I just can't wrap my head around if I am that way...

Okay, so I got a lot to sort out here so bare with me. I have an entrepreneur spirit, I'm a visionary, and small business owner. I'm more intelligent and more logical than most women. And of course, I have PTSD, and personality splitting. I can't work full time? Like I could if I had to for...

Ikr lol I didn’t even think I was, so I really wonder what part she’s missing.

Update: I had therapy today, she said that the reason why she said some of those things were more that maybe I was minimizing what happened to me. To her what I said and what I’m afraid of/triggered by don’t add up, so it was either she doesn’t know something or I don’t know something OR that...

Another time, at night, I was fifteen and in the middle of a mental breakdown. I was writing so fast, mind racing, contemplating suicide, and I heard a male voice very clearly begin to speak to me: “The thing about death is…”. I freaked out so bad and went to bed. Idk if it was a hallucination...

At drivers ed, I saw a boy in a plaid shirt with a black backpack. I looked again, he wasn’t there. Turns out, a boy that went to the school had killed himself the night before….

Yeah it’s not really all that different

I try but it’s like I can’t, I don’t know how to get over that. I decided to take my therapist’s referral to work on all this stuff with my husband with someone that specializes in it before starting EMDR. I don’t think it’s safe to proceed with EMDR without working on my communication and some...

Oh yeah, I can’t believe that too. Especially people that were abused by their dad and then “forgive him” and allow their kids around him. Like yikes. I guess she really pidgeon holes herself into single incident ptsd xD I’ll update this post, but my concern is the other therapist doesn’t do...

Yes I think so

You’re welcome! I’ve found this forum to be so helpful myself.

Yes. I actually have several. At some point you start to wonder if you have bad months or just every month is bad... because I feel bad generally January, end of February and March, August, and October, and let's face it, that's 4-5 months out of the year. But I've had some better years. January...

I’ve heard a lot of different things, people that got horribly traumatized, that it doesn’t work for Complex PTSD, that many EMDR therapists don’t know what they’re doing (true for all therapists), etc.

This sounds like gaslighting and psychological abuse in general. I grew up with that kind of crap too. It was hard for me to recognize when other people in my life did it too. But once you see it, you can’t unsee it. Normal people don’t spin your mind in circles all the time lol.

I believe in God, spirituality, and used to believe in the entire Christian religion, but now I’m fading. I could never stop believing in God after many spiritual experiences, and answered prayers. The organized religion side of it, the Bible, etc is where I’m getting lost these days. I used to...

I’ve heard some women exclusively use internal products such as tampons or menstrual cups because they can’t stand blood. I’m sure it’s hard for you. I think that’d be really hard to cope with as a woman!

Yeah that’s kinda crazy and complicated. She mentioned that she may refer me because she knows someone that specializes in sexual abuse and those issues that go with it, and that she really only specializes in ptsd and emdr. So sounds like she was right to refer me.