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One thing that I have to share is that there is a reason that "I" need so much sleep. (Maybe there are other reasons also-but this one really caught my attention because of how it applied to me)
I read about how, as an abused child, one thing that I learned growing up is that I always needed to...
I used music for "coping" all thru my childhood and teenage years. So, I have lots and lots of songs that bring back memories of growing up. I have lots of memories of just sitting in my room in tears listening to them. I think that they were the only way for me to feel anything, even sadness...
Oh, no. Don't think for a second that you're wrong by writing here. This is what you need to do, talk about it and realize that you're not alone. I have felt for a long time about being loved. I have even realized that that is what I need the most. I want to be loved--just for being me. Sounds...
I wish I had one! If sadness is an emotion, then I have that one down pat. I can read my own journal or even some of the posts here and get all "teary eyed". But, it still doesn't feel like feeling.
I walked out the front door to walk the dog one morning. I looked up and saw a "full" rainbow going all the way across the sky. From one horizon to the other. Beautiful.
I was feeling sad this morning and the picture I thought of when you mentioned the cerial bowl flying across the room, made me break out laughing. Thanks for helping me thru my morning. LOL
I have had experiences like this one, but, at the dentist. I have always had a terrible time at the dentist. I found an article about how a dentist appointment can cause very real and very uncomfortable feelings for someone who has gone thru what I have. I actually printed the article and took...
Thank you so much for this idea! I have many, many years of journal writings that always talk about what happened in the 3rd person. I will definitely try this. I think that hearing myself saying it - about myself - will help me learn to feel and help me grieve.
I liked the comment about your parents teaching you what emotions are. Both of my parents were only children and I don't think they were allowed to feel either. So, I don't think that I was ever "shown" how to feel. If anger is one, then I guess I have had that one. There was lots of screaming...
When I was in elementary school, I was diagnosed with Epilepsy. As I grew up, my medicines were increased because they didn't seem to control my "seizures". When I was in my 40's, I was checked into the hospital so that they could evaluate me.
I was diagnosed with PTSD and weaned off all of my...
When I mourn, I see it as an adult. I am grieving for that little child. I can't seem to find the feelings inside me to give to "me". I don't know how to direct it inward.
Like the others, I have no memory of being "normal" and "loved". It started so young. All I seem to be able to do is see it...
This is a wonderful way to answer this comment. I really liked it when you said that it is a "gift that keeps on giving" . I have many people who are just waiting for me to "heal". No matter what I tell them, they are sure that "it will go away". Even my own husband and family feel this way. How...
I'm not sure if this is the right forum for this question. Does anyone else wake up in the morning with ...music, like a particular song going around in their head? I get different songs on different days, but they are all childhood songs. (Ex. Disney or songs from elementary school music class)...
I crochet too! It is very relaxing. All I make is wash clothes. So, no pattern - just something to do with my hands. I take it everywhere with me, especially to the parents house or in laws -anything family really.
My suggestion is to write them down in a journal. Then come back to them in a day or so. You might have some ideas on what they represent to you. You might even be able to add to them as you remember more details about the dream or what happened.
Be as descriptive as you can. Write down colors...
When I dream, my nightmares are usually representations of my traumas. It stays with me for days, till I can figure out what it stands for. I often write them down so that I can go back later.
I have also woke up with my heart beating so hard that I panic. Then I have to either get out of bed...