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I have been connecting the dots… I needed some immediate support so I have been writing to Dr Catalyst mainly. I guess people scare me at the moment. I hope that my ECT journey will end soon. I got bronchitis in the middle of the treatments and had to take a break. The fact is yes ECT helps...

I understand I avoid people who act like my mother… I become unglued inside. I learned it best for me and my wellbeing. I am protecting myself. I used to force myself to try, those days are over. Nothing stupid about it, self preservation and to be honest I can’t visit the US. Too many...

Well I grew up in foster care, 4 foster kids and 2 adopted kids plus an older sister out of the house. We were all abused not sexually but mentally. We were there to clean the horse stalls. I think every one of us deserves empathy it was awful. The father was also handsy. Be kind to...

I so feel this, I believe I felt the same back then. I don’t trust people in general but that is not just from my trauma from childhood. It’s from my experiences as an adult…. It cuts so deep… why didn’t anyone step in. I think it’s an important question…. Sending understanding 🧚‍♂️

Welcome to the forum 🧚‍♂️

Thanks for letting me know. Unfortunately my father doesn’t operate that way and I won’t put myself in the position to be hurt anyone. I will also stay out of this political discussion in the future… thanks for your note 🧚‍♂️

I never realized how much being neglected affects a person’s core beliefs. I think after this session of ECT I am going to go to a holistic healing center. Western medicine got me out of the worst but I have work to do 🧚‍♂️

I should have thought better about my comment about Rubio. I got triggered my bad. I will stay out of this discussion. I have been unfortunately in hospital and until I am feeling better these sort of discussions are off the table. Thank you for respecting that, just as I respect you all...

I grew up in West LA with my mother until I was about 9. My parents divorced when I was 1 year old. Both of my parents should have had to get a license to be parents. My mother left my father and, my older sister and I lived with my mom until she broke down. Both of them did not possess the...

Facts are he is a convicted criminal who rapes teenagers. He has a potty mouth and thinks he’s god. Most of the Dems got rich from stocks. I think Hilary is a war monger and Obama too. I think that is more than a reasonable opinion of a small amount of topics. Those are readily available to...

No it isn’t I just don’t do it.

I don’t argue with dump supporters…. I stated my opinion. Let’s leave it at that from my side 🧚‍♂️

Thanks still a long road but what isn’t ☺️. This is my third journey and what’s different now is my main goal is to figure stuff out so I won’t have to do a fourth…. Found a good doctor as well! My next session is on Friday and I am hoping to get to the maintenance part within the next 3 weeks...

Marco Rubio needs to go. Trading once shit politicians for another over country lines is not the solution in my opinion. Moreover dump and family treat themselves like monarchs…. They need to be dethroned. Elizabeth Warren should get the USA back in shape. The USA has always been corrupt...

So I have been writing about how to get through the day for about since March 12, it’s been a rather rough ride. I checked myself in the clinic at the end of March because I had lost 9 kilos and began feeling suicidal. I got an emergency note from my psychologist and asked my son and his...

Both bases of the political parties in the USA are only concerned about their interests which makes it extremely difficult to do anything. The SC is corrupt and has more than enough votes for sale. The difference in my opinion is the pure evil in the WH. The people losing in the US are the...

Marco Rubio 🤮

Well loneliness is an internal feeling for me. I have friends people who love me but loneliness is my constant companion. I remember it as a child. I do like saying hey to people in shops like you said makes on feel alive part of the goings ons…. 👍

@FMCA Well I understand and I think I am best in small groups if anything. I get overwhelmed and perhaps I am an introverted extrovert. Not everyone enjoys being in groups. At the moment I am in a clinic and even that’s too much. Yesterday I had a rather harsh treatment ECT for my depression...

Loneliness and isolation is a double edged sword for me. I feel lonely and I isolate myself because I don’t feel comfortable around people when I feel these things. That said the loneliness is what makes me depressed. Still trying to figure it out. I find it hard to count on people, it...

I have suffered from severe depressive episode 3 times in my life. Unfortunately it hit me again out of nowhere. These episodes are not hey, I am having a bad week. I am completely incapacitated and lay in bed weeks on end. I can’t eat, I feel like a zombie The loss of weight makes it all...

Welcome to the forum. Sending understanding and hope you find the site as useful as I do 🧚‍♂️

Thank you for your take. I am sorry you struggle as well 🧚‍♂️

I think I need to think outside the box meaning completely new. 🤔

I hear you all, I guess when in the deepest part of deregulation I can’t see through the trees. I have things I like to do but getting out of bed to brush my teeth is a day long discussion at the moment. I am proud that I showered went for a walk and actually spoke to another person today. I...