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I salute you. I have considered changing my name too. I have blocked all my family except for my brother. I don’t want to be associated with any of them. Maybe it is a wishful thinking that it would make any difference. I have a strong desire to live a no tracer life.There is so much pain...

I have been really losing it lately. This has been going on a few months which seems to coincide with a few things. One, my therapist started talking about narcissistic abuse. I didn’t know anything about it so I started reading. This caused me a lot of emotional discomfort. I thought all my...

Arizona?

I am really not sure anymore.

Oh, I will test it out.

Ummm, a gummy.

I cheated. My trainer has me doing a cleanse so my diet is really restricted. Tonight I rebelled and had a flour tortilla with chicken, cheese and green chili. It was good.

So far, just my little dog Lulu and at weirdo in the mirror.

I find that doing the hard stuff like engaging with others is the only way I will improve. I just force myself to do it and it gets easier. If I just isolate at home nothing changes, I just isolate at home.

I love little dogs, so much more together than people.

The thing about Christmas for many of us is that it reminds us of the family we never had.

I have long had difficulties through the holidays. I really looking forward to them being done. I have been no contact with all my family since early April with the exception of my brother. I was planning on going to California and hanging out with the gal I have been seeing but with the...

Sorry for the slow response I had some medical issues this week. The ramifications for me have been beyond belief. I was married for 28 years. During that time I lost all sense of self. I could not tell what was real. I thought I was losing my mind. I believed all my perceptions were...

John O Groats to Lands End, the classic bicycle touring route.

I want to do a bicycle or motorcycle tour there, that is amazing scenery.

Congrats.

You are spot on, we are the only species that fouls its own nest.

Thanks. I am beginning to think I stuff my anger around people I care about and then I get pushed to far for too long and then some A hole conveniently arrive and I let go. I really don’t like loosing it like that. Even though the circumstances may have justified it I feel ashamed for not...

Sorry for the slow response, I had a severe medication reaction and spent the night in the ER. I live in a small town 50 miles from the interstate highway. No one wants to deliver here because of the distance and skinny streets. They gave me a week window for the delivery and insisted I do it...

The last two days I have been riding dirt bikes all day out in the desert with a friend. I am surprised I am not more tired, it was a workout both days.

I do it particularly when I feel like shit. It lifts me out of the abyss.

I really lost it today with an A-hole. I just had the floors redone in my home and I am buying a lot of new furniture. Yesterday and today were supposed to be delivery days. Only one of the scheduled deliveries happened yesterday while I waited all day for no shows. At 6:00am this morning I...

Here is the Southwest restaurants give you salsa with breakfast, it is great on eggs with our without tortillas.

It is hard to feel good about yourself if you are living in a self induced S hole. Also there is a value in ritual and house keeping is a bit of a ritual. Every moment you are doing it you are telling yourself you are worthy of decent living conditions. There is a sense of accomplishment even...

I get this. I have always felt like I was from a different planet. I am currently waiting for a full psychological evaluation particularly looking at autism, cptsd and prolonged narcissistic abuse. The last one has come up in therapy and I really never thought of it until it was pointed out.