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What ISN'T closure?
I think about when my ex broke up with me over text and blocked me.
I think about when I had a friend do similar. Something I said over text pissed her off and she said we couldn't be friends anymore and blocked me.
I think of when I told my kindergarten class "I'll see...
Would love to know what others think as well... I think it's an illusion for a lot of us. A good amount of us on this forum have experienced such unspeakable betrayals that nothing could set it right. If closure does exist... A lot of us never see it.
Came here to say what @Sweetpea76 said. She could have personality splitting like where one part of her is all those dark manipulative traits and the other part is this wholesome Christian girl. Could be any of a myriad of personality disorders, especially if you consider splitting too.
Heck...
I wasn't offended! I was just saying that there's many factors to healing and I'm still on my own journey.
Changing your name will help. I changed my name as well. My middle name was meaningless to me, plus my dad chose it and my last name was my dad's so I changed both. I love my name now, I...
Lots to unpack here.
So I think (personal opinions) unconscious victim mentality can be internalized behavior and beliefs that you haven't dealt with. For example, despite years of martial arts training, when someone would punch me I would lay down instead of fight back. Something clicked in...
I think that's partially how I remembered my childhood sexual abuse was from yoga and meditation (alone at home, I did YouTube videos and often freestyle meditation). It's crazy the memories the body holds. It is something I believe in but maybe I'm too much of a wimp to do it regularly and face...
Hi welcome to the forum! Sorry you have many reasons to be here, it sounds like you've been through a lot.
I have a lot of thoughts, about victim mentality. I think it's possible, to not identify with being a victim without getting justice. (There was no justice for me, I didn't have it in me...
I grew up with an abusive dad and I was perpetually constipated or had diarrhea. It was so normal for me. Used to throw up on occasion too, purely stress induced. Crazy, about a year after I moved out, I started pooping regularly every day or every other day, easy normal stool. No more vomiting...
I don't think it's really a bad thing, but it has to be kept in balance. Like only looking at triggering content in manageable doses and taking a break after/self care, etc. Then it's a form of therapy instead of really traumatizing yourself.
Honestly I didn't realize how bad my abuser was for me until I'd been away from him for about 6 months to a year. He was my dad, it's very hard to see your dad in a bad or even evil light.
I actually really agree with this. Your comment took me back (in a good way). When I was a kid, my house was steel framed and the windowsill frames were magnetic and so we're the edges of my bathroom mirror. I actually got excited when I moved out and had a fridge of my own that I can put...
I was abused as a child and I've thought and said the exact same things you wrote that she said. It's hard. But it's something she has to work through. Be consistent, show her that you're different, that you're there for her.
As far as sex goes it's really tricky. Some couples find a lot of...
With your partner? Anything and everything.
My husband doesn't want to know all the gory details and I respect that. He always wants to be happy and not think too deeply about things especially if they're sad or negative. So I just tell him basic stuff and more importantly how it affects me...