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This is very humiliating, and painful, and shameful, to write about. I just have to say that upfront. I have 0 prior lifetime experience of healthy human attachment, trust or any form of safe enduring interpersonal bond. I think I have formed something resembling this with my therapist over...

I am currently struggling to come to terms with the extent to which this horrible condition has plagued, and continues to plague, my life. In a literal sense,I know that as a child I learned to be passive and compliant, at least on the outside, and to accept that there was no way out or option...

I have been thinking about starting this thread for a while now, and it's taken me a long time to pluck up the courage to do it. This is currently a very sensitive, very upsetting issue for me, but... here goes. Quite simply, I can't seem to form or maintain any form of meaningful attachment...

We often talk about "processing the trauma" as being the ultimate goal of therapy and indeed of effective recovery overall, and yet sometimes, I wonder what we really mean... Much like the terms "flashback", "dissociation" etc, I think we all have an idea in our minds of what we mean when we...

Sometimes lately I feel as though the shame I feel is the most dabilitating aspect of my situation. And more so than shame for my past, it's a sense of shame for who I am now, for the ways in which I have allowed this condition to beat me, to turn me into someone I can't stand, to control every...

I am currently attending the out-patient trauma programme at my local hospital. The last session of each month is dedicated to the topic of honouring the progress you have made during that month. In particular, we are asked to write down 3 achievements for the month (no matter how small they...

I feel a little silly asking this question, and I'm not sure why, and I hope it will make sense to the rest of you. The thing is that I have always had very vivid, very clear and, I thought, very complete memories of my childhood trauma. I remember key events in great detail and have never...

For a long time now, my workplace has been my safe place. All of the safe people in my world are there. The safe structure and routine are there. The reason for getting out of bed each morning and for making it through the day is there. Work is not just about earning money and having a...

Is anyone else triggered by being physically injured? I have long struggled with this phenomena, but am finding it to be increasing in its severity and duration at the moment. Quite frankly, absolutely any physical injury sustained for any reason can spark a virtual panic attack, flashbacks...

I am wondering about others’ experiences in terms of sharing details of their past trauma with others, particularly in cases of childhood trauma which may be completely unknown to the other person, or no more than vaguely inferred anyway. Obviously, I don’t mean disclosing to your T, but...

For those of us who grew up without the guidance and support of a caring humane family, I think there are many things we simply never learned. I'm not talking about how to bake a cake or change the tyre on a car, i'm talking about life, living, and being true to yourself. I'm talking about the...

I was going to reply to DogLover's thread about how people found their relationships, but realized that this is in fact a different issue, and didn't want to dilute the original thread and its intent. So... I have never been in a serious relationship. There... I've said it. I doubt there are...

Hi everyone. I apologise for what is almost definitely an old, much-discussed topic in the past, but I am struggling rather embarrassingly to find anything I'm looking for on the site this morning and am running short of resolve to keep battling my technological incompetence... Was wondering...

I know that what I am about to write isn't rocket science. It's not even remarkable, unusual or new to me, and so I should just leave well enough alone. But I can't... I can't do life at the moment. I left work last Wednesday afternoon just as I do every day - exhausted, anxious about the...

I feel oddly humbled and anxious about posting here, which is a little odd, given that I have, albeit usually only briefly and sporadically, written to online forums in the past. Not to mention the fact that I've been hanging around here as a guest user reading posts for a few weeks now, oddly...