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I had some psych testing recently because my therapist and med prescriber questioned whether or not I have OCD. Up till now we all figured I was just a perfectionist. I found out this week from the testing I do have OCD. I didn't really expect to have it. I thought I was being paranoid, and...

I haven't been around much. I've been hiding from everything, this month is really hard for me. And I have a new anniversary trigger from last year that I knew would be rough, but wasn't sure what to expect, so I'm trying to ride it all out by hiding till it's over... Which has been incredibly...

I just read an article that led to me feeling like I need to get some stuff out. I'm overwhelmingly depressed these days due to multiple anniversary triggers. Anyways, the article was about how to know the difference between enabling someone and helping them. It listed all these things that...

Since I was a kid, I've had very vivid dreams. Dreams where I not only sense that it's real, but physically feel things, and even taste things. I've woken up many times thinking a dream was real, sometimes only a few moments, sometimes it takes a day to realize it was a dream. In the past I've...

My 5 year old was diagnosed with adhd last January. I was misdiagnosed with this as a child because of the ptsd, so I've been examining him closely since school ended, and he definitely has adhd. I told his school and doctor I don't want to have to medicate him, I want to help him cope without...

Back in March I cut ties with my mother, who was emotionally abusive. I'd given her over a dozen chances and she always went right back to it, and turned the blame on me somehow. It is bittersweet not having toxic parents in my life, because it also means I don't have parents. I have no one...

I just got a new med doctor, since my last one was very inconsistent. My meds needing adjusting, and I gotta say this new woman is very thorough which I love. Not just 15 minutes in and out and they never really understand what's going on. For anyone who has been on these and knows, I'm on...

Hope this is in the right place... So lately I've been doing great physically. Exercising, eating healthier, etc. But noticed after a week of this I'm in flight trigger mode. Upside it helped me exercise more! Lol! But now it's affecting me negatively, in a more noticeable way. My son is 5, and...

I have complex PTSD, which can be tricky figuring out triggers. For me at least. I'm still so new to this diagnosis and learning about cptsd. I triggered myself by making myself remember an event so I could work through it. But because I have complex not "regular" ptsd, I didn't vividly remember...

Asking here because firstly, this really had/has me freaked out, second I was wondering if this happens to other people and what to do. When I woke up this morning, I completely did not feel like I was myself. I thought of some things I'd done yesterday, talking to people, and it felt like I...

I posted in my trauma diary that I recently (less than two weeks ago), completely cut ties with my toxic and abusive family members. At first it felt sort of strange but freeing. Knowing I wouldn't have to hear from them and panic wondering what guilt tactics they were going to use this time to...

I had to drop my last therapist because one he was a he, and I have severe trust issues with professional men. Secondly he wasn't working out. He was a decent therapist, but just not right to actually help me. I'm waiting to be assigned a new one, but it's been months. In the meantime my father...

I hope this is the right place to post this... I moved about a year ago, and had to find a new PCP. Found one finally, and ofc they moved. Found another woman recently, the appointment was HELL. I went in because I genuinely thought I was pregnant, despite having birth control. I wanted a blood...

I've been reading the book by Pete Walker: Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving. I just read a part on how we minimize emotional or verbal abuse because it's not physical, and assume physical is so much worse. Well, I did something similar with my mother growing up. It wasn't until I was 23...

Normally I'm really shy, but my boyfriend of a year and a half, we had so much in common, broke up with me because I relied solely on him. It was, as he put it, "bleeding him dry". It was a wake up call for me that I have a lot of healing to do. I was abused by both my parents. Then had an...