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I have no idea where this goes, so move as needed. I just wonder what defines self harm? Recently I've been wondering if scratching, pinching, etc is self harm, and whether these things are exceptable/helpful /bad if you leave no marks, and don't draw blood. Weirdly, I guess I was thinking...

Hello all, I just wondered if anyone was in the same boat as me and feeling all weirded out about it? I go to kaiser permanente and my therapist told me last week that they were going on strike this week..she didn't want me to freak when I got a call saying my appointment was cancelled since...

What is that all about???!!! When someone tells me "I love you" (like a friend or extended family) I go into almost a kind of shock :(. I know I want to be loved, to feel that others love me, but I guess at the heart of it, I don't believe them. I don't know how to deal with this issue...

So, I had a really bad trigger a week and a half ago and didn't have an appointment with my counselor until today. I emailed her for support and guidance, which I got :), but when I got there today I completely fell apart! We did some EMDR which really helped, but I don't understand why I can't...

So, I have an upcoming surgery in 3 1/2 weeks to repair my ankle...long stupid story...anyway, I'll be in a non-weightbearing cast for 4 weeks and I'm really worried that my mood will plummet into dark depression and sometimes when I'm injured or have an injury I fight with self-harm urges :(...

So, I totally don't get this!!! A couple days ago I was in a PTSD seeking safety group (safety from others and ourselves), and this guy started talking about his trauma (which is not allowed because it can trigger people, duh!) and I had a panic attack! I blasted out of the room just about...

Hi all, I've been in various for my ankle, tendon damage that the dr can see on the MRI, but i struggle to believe my own pain and issue! What do you call it when you hurt yourself further after you've already sustained an injury, or take risks with the injury to see if it's still there, or...

I feel like every time I post I start it by acknowledging that it's a stupid question...definitely unworthy ha argh! Anyway - So, I was just wondering, do others think gorging on sweets until you feel sick, really sick, is self-harm? I believe it's definitely a self-soothing behavior, but one...

This seems like such a small thing, but I'm realizing it's really bothering me and wanted to see what others thoughts were. A couple weeks ago I saw the psychiatrist (every 6 weeks to check meds) and as always I had to fill out a questionnaire in the waiting room scaling my depression and...

Hi all, I get so much out of this site! But, I realized today I was triggered by one of the posts, and this month is the anniversary for me of a death, murder, suicide...I'm thinking "I hate April" :(. My T is on vacation this next week, and so I can't ask her...she's is very supportive of how...

So, I have been consumed thinking about not having any appt with my T for 2 weeks (one of which she's on vacation), coming on the heels of our last appt where she was a little grumpy. She explained this, that it wasn't about me, but it still triggers my abandonment issues :( and then we have 2...

So, it's hard to put this into words, but when people get mad at me or are mean to me and I care/love them, I do everything I can to soothe them (hug them, tell them they were totally right to do whatever to me, little gifts, etc)! I'm this way with T, my friends, family, etc. I think I'm...

I just saw my T and I've been seeing her for about 3 1/2 years, I feel like she's sick of me and hearing about my stupid issues. I'm also not seeing her for 2 weeks which triggers my abandonment issues, and makes me feel more like she's tired of seeing me :(. This has come up before and she...

Hello, I was in my DBT class today and they want us to work on listing our short and long term goals. I can come up with some short term goals, but it's like there's a giant void in my head for anything related to long-term goals! What is that all about? It's like I can't see anything in the...

Hi all, So, I just took a online test and it says I suffer from "fear of disapproval," probably because I didn't recieve enough of it when I was a child, duh! Anyway, every time I get a good idea or I'm excited about something I've done, I want to hide it because others (mostly my extended...

Hi all, I've always had sensory issues, tags in clothes, extra make me crazy. Two days ago, long story, I was put in a cast on my right leg, and it is putting my anxiety, depression, and ptsd symptoms through the roof argh! I had to have a emergency meeting with my T because I was going down in...

So here's a weird one :) I think most of my life I have had a dark door in my brain, when I close my eyes I can see it there (always in the same place on the right), it's where I put all the stuff I can't face or handle. I'm very afraid to open it and at other times I'm curious about what is in...

So, this is really bugging me and I don't know if anyone can relate, but I seem to have symptoms of a bipolar issue (sort of) but the highs and lows come all in one day, just about giving me whiplash!!! I'm also likely ADHD but nobody seems to understand these highs and lows...including me :(...

I'm feeling so down :( My T tells me that she doesn't think I should spend much time with my family because of lack of support and past abuse, but so many people who used to be my friends, just dropped away when all this crap hit the fan in my life. T says I'm super responsible and caring for...

So I've always been adhd, the T tried to have me tested but they said my startle reflects was so high, they couldn't get a valid reading...I kept jumping up and down in my seat and was startled by new images on the screen so I just pushed the button for everything ha! Anyway, I'm getting so...

Maybe this has been asked a million times before, but I'm so tired of hearing how most people (70%) who suffer a trauma don't end up with ptsd, so we are the 30% that do...why? I struggle with feeling that my trauma, my distress, all the rest are all made up in my mind and if I just tried I...

Hi all, I just wanted to put a feeler out and find out if anyone else's trauma was a result of performing CPR? Almost 4 years ago I worked on a 4 week baby who was resuscitated, and then 2 months later on a friend who stayed dead :( The hard part is that being with other people is my triggers...

This is my first time on this site, and I'm looking for normalcy, I guess. I was diagnosed with ptsd almost 4 years ago after I preformed cpr on a 4 week old infant (who was resuscitated) and then 2 months later preformed cpr on a friend unsuccessfully :( I have been working with a great...