Get Me Off This Roller Coaster! Ca Usa

[Sally sue]

So, this is really bugging me and I don't know if anyone can relate, but I seem to have symptoms of a bipolar issue (sort of) but the highs and lows come all in one day, just about giving me whiplash!!! I'm also likely ADHD but nobody seems to understand these highs and lows...including me :( I'm high and way over excited, talking fast, my boss is looking at me weird and I try to explain it away by telling her I had caffeine earlier, but then as the afternoon comes along, sliding down I go until I'm face down in the street waiting to be run over!!! Argh!! (Not really :) just providing imagery :)

Anybody else experience this?

 

[katiekat]

I can't totally relate, but I do know that ADHD can cause self esteem problems if you are messing up a lot at work. I have more of the inattentive ADD and struggled with details at work and my boss had the "this can't happen again" talk with me 5 or 6 times before she suggested that I might have ADHD. once I got diagnosed and properly medicated my self esteem went way up and I had less thoughts of being a failure and my depressed moods started going away because I was doing well at work. I hope my experience gives you a helpful perspective :)

 

[WhiteSwan]

I can relate. I too in my high moments will be talking so fast and breathing fast - feeling short of breath and I get in such a rush with my emotions that even tears come to my eyes. I feel so invincible and productive, motivated and yes sometimes even feel a little shakey. Then when a low comes which can be the same day but will usually be the next day I am like a zombie. I feel so low that I cannot focus or complete any task like even cleaning the kitchen etc. I'm very disassociative and feeling depressed, unmotivated and simply "spent". Like my adrenaline was all gone and I'm in such a low.

I have ptsd and also slight elements of bipolar. All my life i have not felt on an even keel so to speak.... It's always up and down.

I hope in explaining what I experience is useful for you in understanding what you experience

I am taking specific meds for this element and I must admit they finally have me on a much more even keel with not such dramatic ups and downs.

If you are seeing a T - I suggest you talk with them about these different mood states. Another important aspect is your sleep. If you are not having settled and decent sleep I think from my experience this can contribute to the ups and downs.

 

[Sally sue]

Thank you sooooo much for your responses! It helps me keep from freaking out because I'm just weird and "no one else has this problem!" thinking :( I do have a T and she has often suggested I talk to the med guy (the psychiatrist) and I have but he keeps thinking it's the ptsd and my HIGH startle response that's the problem (argh). I will try again. Whiteswan you're absolutely right about my sleep and the med guy has tried me on a couple different meds (still have bad trauma dreams) but the last one, although greatly improving my sleep was dropping my blood pressure too low and my GP took me off :( I guess it's all a process, but honestly, I think it sucks ha grrrrr. Thank you so much for your support and guidance!