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This is a complicated story so I’m going to try to just summarize. My other half and I recently moved in together. We are both combat vets with ptsd. His is more severe and co-morbid with Conversion Disorder and Narcolepsy with cataplexy. I care for him when he has “episodes”. These can...

Last year I found a music video that featured a female combat veteran who was trying to adapt to civilian life. There’s a scene in it where she’s at her desk at work fighting intrusive thoughts, loses control, and becomes violent. I connected to that song like I have no other. But, I have...

My SO is in the middle of a much needed medication change. Today he’s started feeling “beat to hell” and we think it’s part of coming off of risperidone. Have any of you found helpful ways to deal with the withdrawal symptoms?

I am having a lot of trouble with something that should be straightforward and obvious. Well, it’s two related things. First, I keep building clutter. On good days, I can put things back where they belong, but there are too many times that I’m either too worn out or I forget. The bigger...

I have had a lot of stressors and hadn’t had CBD for about a month. My emotions have been much stronger than normal. Depression was really bad, have had more episodes of numbness, and love has been overflowing. My current scripts: Wellbutrin Ranitidine Atenolol Cymbalta Meloxicam Hydroxyzine...

I was just told by my doc that, on top of a slew of other problems, I now have sciatica. So, with the ptsd, arthritis, bad knees, plantar fasciitis, and sciatica, she said that I have to stop the job that I have been doing for 18 years. I am at a loss as to how this works. I know that this is...

I started working at Lowe's a few weeks ago. It pays well and the people I work with are good. But, when It gets close to time for me to go to work, my anxiety starts climbing. The last time it turned to a panic attack and I couldn't bring myself to even call them. Part of the problem is...

Does anyone ever get in a contradictory state? Like, you want food, but nothing is good. You're thirsty, but you don't want to drink anything. You want to do something useful, but you also want to sleep all day. You want to see friends, but you want to run everyone off. This seems to happen...

In about three weeks, I am going to be on a panel speaking as a vet with mental health disorders. Mine will be about MST. Has anyone else done this?

I started out on the lowest dose and fell in love with this med. The side effects were minor and I felt like ME again. After about a year, we had to increase my dose, which is typical for me. Since doing this, I have forgotten to take it twice. On both occasions, I had a series of nightmares...

There's something that I do that I have wondered about for a long time. I'm going to talk to my therapist, but I am curious if anyone else does this. I dealt with sexual abuse from when I was very young, then dealt with MST. Anyway, when I am attracted to a man who I know likes me too, I get...

So, I recently met a man and we clicked immediately. We can talk like we've been friends for years. We have a LOT in common. One of those things is PTSD. His is combat related. Mine is cumulative with more than one instance of MST. Different sources, but very similar behaviors and ways of...

I work for AAFES at an Air Force BX. It's generally helpful because I don't usually have to deal with the stupid shit that civilians think is important. Lately, though, I seem to be attracting the attention of dependents who want to push my buttons. They're acting borderline abusive and...

This is something that I am not sure how to describe well, but, for a long time, I have wondered what triggers it and if there's a way to snap out of it, rather than just wait for it to dissipate. I used to describe it as depression, but that is wrong. The Dark seems to be the most fitting. If...

I've just spent some time with a VSO and we filed an "intent to file" with VA. I came out of that meeting not feeling too great and then my anxiety went a bit nuts later on. What I'm wondering is how common is it for you to bare your soul to a VSO for the purposes of filing a claim and to sit...

I work for AAFES in a small main store. We just got a new employee and the boss has me training her. She's great...smart, asks questions, etc. Yesterday was her third day and after about 4 hours I felt the anxiety growing. I only had 2 hours left, so I fought it. I went to the back a...

I want to scream, so badly do I wish that I could go out into the trees and just scream. The urge is there, on the bad days it's strong, but I just....can't. It's the same with crying. Sometimes, I think that I have faked it for so long, that the dam is too strong. A couple of things can make...

I am Stacie. I am a female combat veteran, having served in the Army and deployed to Bosnia in 1998. My PTSD is a result of cumulative trauma. I am a victim of MST and witnessed another soldier's suicide while deployed. I have just recently learned that what I went through was MST and that...