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I had thought because of my explosive temper and the thoughts of suicide. that has me withdrawing inward of late an avoiding the world that maybe I should go to the VA Hospital for the in hospital program. But I have found out that it is a locked door 30 or 60 day program. I can't be locked...

I made it thru the holidays, I can't tell you how. Was so close so many times to just ending it or wanting too. My Therapist and my Psy doctor both left the VA back in Sept and Oct. Still taking my med's but don't really want to any more. Yes I have Military PTSD but so many other factors...

My loving wife has put up with me for our 37 years of marriage. Last fall in Sept she tells me that she was abused sexually as a child. Now I know why she has never liked sex. That she relived those times most if not all of our marriage. So she started treatment of her own with a T. She has...

Has anyone been so tired of life they just do not want to go on. I am just so tired I just don't care if I get tun over by a Mack truck. Only fear is it won't kill me. Say my therapist at the VA today an a even lower now than wen I went in. It will be 40 years this fall from my event an...

Well, An old dog can change as I am finding out. Was in Nam when Nam was not a war anymore. Black Ops with a team of Rangers while at Bragg. Was volunteered by my LT at the time. I wasn't asked but told I had volunteered because I was part of the company shooting team plus had a nack for...

Thought I would say I am sorry to everyone on here. Mainly for a problem I have been I am typing on these boards. I love to free think type. I mean that I love to close my eyes and just love to let it flow out of my mind.onto the type written page. What I am saying sorry for is my mind is...

Well After 36 years of marriage I find out my wife had sexual abuse in her teen years. I have PTSD from my military days. I knew my wife never really liked sex but I always thought it was my fault. But she did not trust me enough to tell me all these years. As much as I have asked her time...

God knows that I had this time of year. As so many of you have stated in other posts. Will I be brave enough this year to end it all. Almost every year around this time, I come up with a plan to how to do it. 2014 God was helping me but it didn't happen fast enough. My ulcers in my stomach...

I have been hospitalized once and in ER 3 other times for disappearing from this world. My body is limp and it is like I am asleep but my eyes are moving a hundred times an hour. an I do some weird things with my hands an arms and talk to others that aren't there. Of course this is what my...

Hello it has been over 39 years since what I did in NAM. I have a great wife that has put up with my nightmares, drinking, hiding from people an crowds, not wanting or having friends. Been married 36 1/2 years to this wonderful lady with 2 great kids and 3 super grandkids. I drank to get out...